** Monday, May 31, 2004 __
Currently Feeling*
cough cough.
I was laughing my heart out just now. Well, I don't know exactly what is the reason. Mom told me something. We were lying on the bed. And suddenly, I just burst out laughing. I laughed for almost 5minutes continously? Real mad, till tears fall from my eyes and my tummy hurts. Haha! And then, when I wanted to talk to mom again, I 'broke' my voice. Oh shit. I lost my voice. Can't stop coughing. *ahem* all the way, till now? Oh shats I don't want to lose my voice just because of laughing out loud? Hate this. My weakness. When I start to laugh, I couldn't stop!
Well, I was physically, mentally, psychologically BORED. Hell bored. Without him talking to me tonight. He went to the godamn M'SIA. What the shit. I don't know whats so great there. Annoyed* [10.27pm - Crazy Baby On 91.3FM] Wee! Simply love song. Whenever I listen to this song, I think of him. Always. Maybe I'm crazy over him. But can't! Control myself. He'll soon be gone.. Ok. 'Gone' for 'good'. Blah. =( Where is he now? Sms-ed him and there's no reply! Maybe his daddie kidnapped him. The last update from him was he went for a swim and took several pictures. Haha! Pictures of him swimming? Haha! Getting more and more macho already! He went to mersing and I realised he turned tanned after his trip back. Woo. He said 'More handsome right' LOL. What the hell. Yea, simply can't wait to see how is he going to look like after his NS. Sure lose lots of weight and become a SEXY man.
Just now, Mom 'invited' me to accompany her to buy stuff opposite. We went out of the house. The wind is so nice. Blowing gently onto your face(carassing your face? haha!), the cool 'brick' breeze. Haha! No Sea breeze, except HDB flats. Yea, after those days which I was blinded and buried with Chinese books and tons of nut case at home, I finally felt that being outside is so nice. Real nice, confortable. We decided to walk around the whole estate. Ok not really estate. Around the blocks where I live at. We went to those kampung site and walked up the slope and back to Shop N Save. I was thinking, people use 5min to reach to the shop, but we used 30min to reach there? LOL. Talking craps all the way. Mom told me we probably going to Perth or some places end of the year. Yea, I want to decided where I want to go myself! But first, O level comes first. Awww.
Yea, I'm rotting infront of the PC for hours? Ok. Not hours. Years I can say. Stoning infront of the PC for tons of years. No words can describe how long I spent my days infront of my PC. lolx. Sounds Kua Zhang bah. Okay. Enough of this. I need some life. Some REAL life. Argh. I going to have school for the next 2 weeks while most of the students are going to have fun? Sigh. Never mind. Work hard, play hard.
Without You and Me, we won't exist.
The world won't know us, and neither do the saints and spirits around us.
Nothing is forever, but I'll remain in your heart for ever.
Ever is a everlasting word. Eternity and infinity.
I will be there, whenever you need me.
I hope you will do the same to me, my dear.
Baby I miss you so much, just thinking and loving you so.
A date for remembrance of you and me, sixth July owtwo.
[[bb.dd.184.06.07.02]]
I was laughing my heart out just now. Well, I don't know exactly what is the reason. Mom told me something. We were lying on the bed. And suddenly, I just burst out laughing. I laughed for almost 5minutes continously? Real mad, till tears fall from my eyes and my tummy hurts. Haha! And then, when I wanted to talk to mom again, I 'broke' my voice. Oh shit. I lost my voice. Can't stop coughing. *ahem* all the way, till now? Oh shats I don't want to lose my voice just because of laughing out loud? Hate this. My weakness. When I start to laugh, I couldn't stop!
Well, I was physically, mentally, psychologically BORED. Hell bored. Without him talking to me tonight. He went to the godamn M'SIA. What the shit. I don't know whats so great there. Annoyed* [10.27pm - Crazy Baby On 91.3FM] Wee! Simply love song. Whenever I listen to this song, I think of him. Always. Maybe I'm crazy over him. But can't! Control myself. He'll soon be gone.. Ok. 'Gone' for 'good'. Blah. =( Where is he now? Sms-ed him and there's no reply! Maybe his daddie kidnapped him. The last update from him was he went for a swim and took several pictures. Haha! Pictures of him swimming? Haha! Getting more and more macho already! He went to mersing and I realised he turned tanned after his trip back. Woo. He said 'More handsome right' LOL. What the hell. Yea, simply can't wait to see how is he going to look like after his NS. Sure lose lots of weight and become a SEXY man.
Just now, Mom 'invited' me to accompany her to buy stuff opposite. We went out of the house. The wind is so nice. Blowing gently onto your face(carassing your face? haha!), the cool 'brick' breeze. Haha! No Sea breeze, except HDB flats. Yea, after those days which I was blinded and buried with Chinese books and tons of nut case at home, I finally felt that being outside is so nice. Real nice, confortable. We decided to walk around the whole estate. Ok not really estate. Around the blocks where I live at. We went to those kampung site and walked up the slope and back to Shop N Save. I was thinking, people use 5min to reach to the shop, but we used 30min to reach there? LOL. Talking craps all the way. Mom told me we probably going to Perth or some places end of the year. Yea, I want to decided where I want to go myself! But first, O level comes first. Awww.
Yea, I'm rotting infront of the PC for hours? Ok. Not hours. Years I can say. Stoning infront of the PC for tons of years. No words can describe how long I spent my days infront of my PC. lolx. Sounds Kua Zhang bah. Okay. Enough of this. I need some life. Some REAL life. Argh. I going to have school for the next 2 weeks while most of the students are going to have fun? Sigh. Never mind. Work hard, play hard.
Without You and Me, we won't exist.
The world won't know us, and neither do the saints and spirits around us.
Nothing is forever, but I'll remain in your heart for ever.
Ever is a everlasting word. Eternity and infinity.
I will be there, whenever you need me.
I hope you will do the same to me, my dear.
Baby I miss you so much, just thinking and loving you so.
A date for remembrance of you and me, sixth July owtwo.
[[bb.dd.184.06.07.02]]
Currently Feeling* Shag.
Phew. After a long period without blogging. Was it long by the way? No more chinese for me from now on! I hope. I just hope that I able to pass my MT Os. At least a C5 will do. I won't expect much because I sucked up in this subject anyway. Then, I able to drop it! Whew, after 2.5days of intensive revision, I finally able to enjoy my day without worrying about Chinese! I hope the work I've done was paid off. Just hope and pray, that's the only thing we can do now.
Uhh. I've been having gastric these few days, during my 'intensive' period. Well, not really pain, just too bloated till you can feel the 'pain' in your stomach. I need to go back to the doctor today to have my urine test again. Maybe some other days I have to go to MP and check for my gastric. Sigh. My life stinks. With full of sickness! Yea, I don't think I can enjoy life anymore. The life that you can enjoy to eat any good food like spicy, sour, eat as much as you want! Unfortunately, with this gastric ill, I can't eat too much, eat sour stuff, or eat over spicy food anymore. Argh. Yea, so guys out there, PLEASE take care of yourself and enjoy your feast everytime even it's just lousy cheap food. I can't even eat at times. Live your FOOD life to the fullest! Haha! =)
I've been praying to god for everyone these days. Good health, good luck in studies as well as life, good forture for everyone. Have you done it for me in return? I think not. But I, as a friend, don't expect much from you all. It's ok. As long you are fine, I'm happy enough. Wow, felt so.. Mature-ish. Isn't it? Haha!
DeeDee went to M'sia again to.. Palace Of Golden Monkey? HAHA NOT! Palace of Golden Horse? What the hell is that. He said it's a 6-star hotel. Okay. Whatever it is. I'm kind of disappointed with him. These days when he don't need to go school and I don't need to dismiss from school that late, he unable to accompany me. And went for a vacation? Okay. It's ok with me. You said that you went to watch Shrek 2 with your ex-tpss friends without me. It's ok. As long you remembered me, and said you promised that you will watch Harry Potter the next time with me. You said that you can't promise me that I will be the one thruout your life because you simply love astronomy. And you scared that you will change heart? Yea, after my Os, I promise to have 'astronomy' as one of my hobby and I will love it as much as you do. Okay? Is this alright?
Yea, studies is crucial. I have to simply love it. Don't burn midnight oil! I learnt that lesson for MT O lvl. And I hope I don't regret studying too late for the rest of the subjects. I've get the taste of how it feels like now. As least, I regret it now, rather than later. =) Okay. Enough of blogging, I need to take a good rest. Ciaos. Enjoy yourselves guys! =)
Phew. After a long period without blogging. Was it long by the way? No more chinese for me from now on! I hope. I just hope that I able to pass my MT Os. At least a C5 will do. I won't expect much because I sucked up in this subject anyway. Then, I able to drop it! Whew, after 2.5days of intensive revision, I finally able to enjoy my day without worrying about Chinese! I hope the work I've done was paid off. Just hope and pray, that's the only thing we can do now.
Uhh. I've been having gastric these few days, during my 'intensive' period. Well, not really pain, just too bloated till you can feel the 'pain' in your stomach. I need to go back to the doctor today to have my urine test again. Maybe some other days I have to go to MP and check for my gastric. Sigh. My life stinks. With full of sickness! Yea, I don't think I can enjoy life anymore. The life that you can enjoy to eat any good food like spicy, sour, eat as much as you want! Unfortunately, with this gastric ill, I can't eat too much, eat sour stuff, or eat over spicy food anymore. Argh. Yea, so guys out there, PLEASE take care of yourself and enjoy your feast everytime even it's just lousy cheap food. I can't even eat at times. Live your FOOD life to the fullest! Haha! =)
I've been praying to god for everyone these days. Good health, good luck in studies as well as life, good forture for everyone. Have you done it for me in return? I think not. But I, as a friend, don't expect much from you all. It's ok. As long you are fine, I'm happy enough. Wow, felt so.. Mature-ish. Isn't it? Haha!
DeeDee went to M'sia again to.. Palace Of Golden Monkey? HAHA NOT! Palace of Golden Horse? What the hell is that. He said it's a 6-star hotel. Okay. Whatever it is. I'm kind of disappointed with him. These days when he don't need to go school and I don't need to dismiss from school that late, he unable to accompany me. And went for a vacation? Okay. It's ok with me. You said that you went to watch Shrek 2 with your ex-tpss friends without me. It's ok. As long you remembered me, and said you promised that you will watch Harry Potter the next time with me. You said that you can't promise me that I will be the one thruout your life because you simply love astronomy. And you scared that you will change heart? Yea, after my Os, I promise to have 'astronomy' as one of my hobby and I will love it as much as you do. Okay? Is this alright?
Yea, studies is crucial. I have to simply love it. Don't burn midnight oil! I learnt that lesson for MT O lvl. And I hope I don't regret studying too late for the rest of the subjects. I've get the taste of how it feels like now. As least, I regret it now, rather than later. =) Okay. Enough of blogging, I need to take a good rest. Ciaos. Enjoy yourselves guys! =)
** Friday, May 28, 2004 __
Currently Feeling*
in pain.
Sigh. Gastric strikes back. I hope it don't get too serious after midnight or till tomorrow. If not, I won't be able to concentrate on my intensive mother tongue revision.
Look at my results. I doubt I can go anywhere with that. All because of my english. An E8. What the hell. What's wrong with me? Or whats not wrong with me. I don't understand why I could still get an 8 for it. Well, if i calculate by that mark minus my comprehension mark, I passed my paper 1. All because of that stinking paper 2 which I did real badly. Mom was there nagging at me. I couldn't stop me from listening to her. I simply turned a deaf ear to her. Nonsensical nagger. Annoys me alot. It really demoralised me. Shucks. I can do better. With the tendency to strive hard, I will suceed. I WILL SURVIVE.
It's going to rain soon. Or maybe it's raining. I watched The Day After Tomorrow. Nice story. Not bad. Some part are thrilling. I don't know why the cinema we went was so cold which it really suits the story in the movie. Like as if you're into it. Real cold. The day didn't turn out exactly what we planned. We didn't go for our movie marathon because he have to go back TP to sign a few forms. It's okay anyway as long I'm with him.
Life stinks. Or was it love stinks. But love doesn't stinks. It's sweet when you get a taste of it. :)
-The charisma between you and me that bring us together, forever.-
Up till now, I've been pondering. Why I fall in love with him? I couldn't understand myself. Many times I asked him this question 'Why you love me?' He just simply said,'I don't know.' Life is real blind. You really love without a reason. Without him, there won't be today. :)
Sigh. Gastric strikes back. I hope it don't get too serious after midnight or till tomorrow. If not, I won't be able to concentrate on my intensive mother tongue revision.
Look at my results. I doubt I can go anywhere with that. All because of my english. An E8. What the hell. What's wrong with me? Or whats not wrong with me. I don't understand why I could still get an 8 for it. Well, if i calculate by that mark minus my comprehension mark, I passed my paper 1. All because of that stinking paper 2 which I did real badly. Mom was there nagging at me. I couldn't stop me from listening to her. I simply turned a deaf ear to her. Nonsensical nagger. Annoys me alot. It really demoralised me. Shucks. I can do better. With the tendency to strive hard, I will suceed. I WILL SURVIVE.
It's going to rain soon. Or maybe it's raining. I watched The Day After Tomorrow. Nice story. Not bad. Some part are thrilling. I don't know why the cinema we went was so cold which it really suits the story in the movie. Like as if you're into it. Real cold. The day didn't turn out exactly what we planned. We didn't go for our movie marathon because he have to go back TP to sign a few forms. It's okay anyway as long I'm with him.
Life stinks. Or was it love stinks. But love doesn't stinks. It's sweet when you get a taste of it. :)
-The charisma between you and me that bring us together, forever.-
Up till now, I've been pondering. Why I fall in love with him? I couldn't understand myself. Many times I asked him this question 'Why you love me?' He just simply said,'I don't know.' Life is real blind. You really love without a reason. Without him, there won't be today. :)
** Thursday, May 27, 2004 __
Currently Feeling*
..
I had made this point. To change myself. Drastically? Nah. I doubt I can achieve that. Or change myself pathetically. That will be spastic. And interesting question. How am i going to change?
The crux of life is the question that everyone thinks of. Why live? Why suffer? Why are we here? There isn't any correct answer to these questions that ponder everyone. Maybe it's preordain that made things come alive. We don't have the prophesy what is doing to happen later on. 'The day after tomorrow?' Live life to the fullest.
Life is prosaic without any challenges.
Fcuk. I'm getting pissed off by my mother. I just simply shout at her. I don't know, every single thing she said makes me annoyed. I don't know why life is really pissing me off nowadays. I'm hurt. Penetrated by mephetic thorns of roses on my bed of fantasy beyond the reality. It's still heavy down there. 6 feet under. 'Under my skin'?
Lackadaisy. That's what i can describe myself. Listless. Lazy. Boring Life. Dull.. Sigh.
What the hell? People are making a fool of themself over the radio. They might think it's funny. Well, spastic people.
In Life, You change yourself and the world will change with you systematically. Yea. Sadly, you can't ask the world to change rather than changing yourself. Yea. God-siblings relationship. Total bullshit. I don't believe in such things anymore. It is because it doesnt make any difference between a friend and a god sibling. I rather have a buddy or something. And you have to make an extra effort to call him/her in a different name. Even you get some benefits, but that person will not live with you for life. So why kept on depending on them? Let it be if they still can't let go. Maybe I'm just a unsophisticated person. I don't enjoy some new trends.
Procrastinate self. I like to drag time. Por Por Ma Ma. Damn Sissy. I'm such a coward. Argh. 11.42 now. Spending so much time on blogs. What for? -.-
I had made this point. To change myself. Drastically? Nah. I doubt I can achieve that. Or change myself pathetically. That will be spastic. And interesting question. How am i going to change?
The crux of life is the question that everyone thinks of. Why live? Why suffer? Why are we here? There isn't any correct answer to these questions that ponder everyone. Maybe it's preordain that made things come alive. We don't have the prophesy what is doing to happen later on. 'The day after tomorrow?' Live life to the fullest.
Life is prosaic without any challenges.
Fcuk. I'm getting pissed off by my mother. I just simply shout at her. I don't know, every single thing she said makes me annoyed. I don't know why life is really pissing me off nowadays. I'm hurt. Penetrated by mephetic thorns of roses on my bed of fantasy beyond the reality. It's still heavy down there. 6 feet under. 'Under my skin'?
Lackadaisy. That's what i can describe myself. Listless. Lazy. Boring Life. Dull.. Sigh.
What the hell? People are making a fool of themself over the radio. They might think it's funny. Well, spastic people.
In Life, You change yourself and the world will change with you systematically. Yea. Sadly, you can't ask the world to change rather than changing yourself. Yea. God-siblings relationship. Total bullshit. I don't believe in such things anymore. It is because it doesnt make any difference between a friend and a god sibling. I rather have a buddy or something. And you have to make an extra effort to call him/her in a different name. Even you get some benefits, but that person will not live with you for life. So why kept on depending on them? Let it be if they still can't let go. Maybe I'm just a unsophisticated person. I don't enjoy some new trends.
Procrastinate self. I like to drag time. Por Por Ma Ma. Damn Sissy. I'm such a coward. Argh. 11.42 now. Spending so much time on blogs. What for? -.-
Currently Feeling* don't know actually.
I came back home at almost 8.15pm. Well, it was really a very long day in school indeed. From 7am uptill 5.20pm. Guessed what? I was late for school today! Luckily it's still the second offence. Phew* I felt kind of sad. Maybe not. I'm just fear that I unable to make it for my MT 'O' level. Maybe because I just simply suck at it. Or maybe I haven't even started revising my chinese words. But, I already plan to so my own intensive chinese revision on this coming Saturday and Sunday. I have to. If not, I will be the only one losing out.
Last night, dear told me that he going to set up his telescope at Tampines Stadium on the 8th June 2004 to let us see the Venus Transit. It occurs once a 112years. Anyone who knows me and would like to join, leave me a message. Those in 4E4. You may need to sacrifise the lessons on that day in order to attend because we are ending at 4pm. It's around 1pm till sunset.
Today, Medick went home during recess because she was unwell. Sent her off at the general office during that period. After school, walked out with Betty and Pinchen. We went on our seperate ways betweeen TM and CS. I went to find my dear after that. We went to KFC and eat. Gosh. I was so godamn hungry because I had not eaten anything since morning? Gobbled every single piece and crumbs of chicken meat and crispy skin that we had ordered. We walk around TM first. He said that day he asked me to stop moving at his place because that pose or the angle of view of me looks like Cyndi. What the hell. I hate her! Why must be her? Gosh.
He accompany me till the second bus 88 came because I gave him an excuse that the bus is full? But he knew that I can't bear to leave him. Hehe. He could read my mind. :P Yea adn the bus came, gave dear a goodbye kiss and went into the bus. I slept in there. Shag. Reached home and immediately I went for a shower. Eat. Talk online and thats all.
I realised that dear is the cutest guy ever. Although he has a 'fierce' or a 'baddy' or a 'whatever-you-think-he-is' face/look, his character is actually as childish as a three year old kid. Yea, seriously it does. He even dare to do something stupid infront of everyone that makes you feel embarass or even say something stupid or in a childish tone(FUNNY?) to people. Haha! A real cute guy. One thing I hate about him is his Attitude Problem. He's sensitive. Yes. And easily jealous. It's EASILY. Haha. And of cause, a horny bastard of mine. :)
No one dies of a virgin. Life simply screwed us all. Fucked up life. I having a bad mood now. Don't ask me why. I don't know either.
I came back home at almost 8.15pm. Well, it was really a very long day in school indeed. From 7am uptill 5.20pm. Guessed what? I was late for school today! Luckily it's still the second offence. Phew* I felt kind of sad. Maybe not. I'm just fear that I unable to make it for my MT 'O' level. Maybe because I just simply suck at it. Or maybe I haven't even started revising my chinese words. But, I already plan to so my own intensive chinese revision on this coming Saturday and Sunday. I have to. If not, I will be the only one losing out.
Last night, dear told me that he going to set up his telescope at Tampines Stadium on the 8th June 2004 to let us see the Venus Transit. It occurs once a 112years. Anyone who knows me and would like to join, leave me a message. Those in 4E4. You may need to sacrifise the lessons on that day in order to attend because we are ending at 4pm. It's around 1pm till sunset.
Today, Medick went home during recess because she was unwell. Sent her off at the general office during that period. After school, walked out with Betty and Pinchen. We went on our seperate ways betweeen TM and CS. I went to find my dear after that. We went to KFC and eat. Gosh. I was so godamn hungry because I had not eaten anything since morning? Gobbled every single piece and crumbs of chicken meat and crispy skin that we had ordered. We walk around TM first. He said that day he asked me to stop moving at his place because that pose or the angle of view of me looks like Cyndi. What the hell. I hate her! Why must be her? Gosh.
He accompany me till the second bus 88 came because I gave him an excuse that the bus is full? But he knew that I can't bear to leave him. Hehe. He could read my mind. :P Yea adn the bus came, gave dear a goodbye kiss and went into the bus. I slept in there. Shag. Reached home and immediately I went for a shower. Eat. Talk online and thats all.
I realised that dear is the cutest guy ever. Although he has a 'fierce' or a 'baddy' or a 'whatever-you-think-he-is' face/look, his character is actually as childish as a three year old kid. Yea, seriously it does. He even dare to do something stupid infront of everyone that makes you feel embarass or even say something stupid or in a childish tone(FUNNY?) to people. Haha! A real cute guy. One thing I hate about him is his Attitude Problem. He's sensitive. Yes. And easily jealous. It's EASILY. Haha. And of cause, a horny bastard of mine. :)
No one dies of a virgin. Life simply screwed us all. Fucked up life. I having a bad mood now. Don't ask me why. I don't know either.
** Wednesday, May 26, 2004 __
Currently Feeling*
shag ah shag
Finally, the day is ending soon. *look at my stomach* Hey! It's calling me. It says,"Feed me!" Okay. I going to eat later after typing all these craps here. *calm down, stomachy*
Phew, after that long break at home, today, I'm finally back to school. Betty and Shifah kept on carassing my hair. Puurrrr. Felt very kitty. Maybe BFF was jealous of me. HEH. That will be great! *evil* We kept asking Zul and some of our mates for BFF's l1r4/r5. We're just too curious to know it. Haha!
We did MT paper 2 at the start of the day. I know NUTS about the han yu and zao ju. Sigh. Hope this doesn't happen during the actual day. The day just seemed to drag by. After long hours of staring at the clock to reach 2.20 for our MT Paper 1. I couldn't wait to end it because I couldn't wait to see him after 5 solid days! While I was blowing the fan infront of me in the hall, *BOOM BOOM SHAAAAAAA* Thunderstorm occured.
After we finished the paper, the three of us were standing outside the general office hesitating. We waited till the rain doesn't seemed to fall that heavy than before, BFF came. We just walked out of the school and i turned back. She followed? Blah. While walking the pavement, *EEEEEEEKKKKK* My god. This voice. Familar. The screeching voice that will make you feel annoyed. With the sudden rush of blood rising to your eyes and then brain and then.. You blew your top! Haha! Okay. It wasn't that serious. You felt irritated anyway. The only word you can think of is 'Shutup you bitch. Irritating ah Irritating. Who was that? It's... BFF!' Who cares about her. Do i know her anyway? Nawh!
I went to deedee' house around 5pm+. He was irritating. Well, I just have to bear with it. He is my deedee anyway. Learn to forgive and forget. I pressed the door bell. *silent* 'Oh ya. He was fixing the door bell.' I called him to open the door. The moment he opened it, he was stunt. Because of my hair! Haha! Spend half of my time in his house looking at him soldering. While he was doing the stuff, he suddenly 'bounce' to me. Bounce? HAHA. Sounds BFF-ish. Ok. Jump onto my body? or was it .. Ok whatever it is. Ah.. Usual activity. Sleep. :) The first time he ever been so sweet to me. Talking in a whispering voice. Not whisper. Just gentle and soft tone. Missed that moment. Aww. 7pm+ say good bye to mom, dad, cousin. We went to wait for the 27 bus. Reached home at 8pm+? Mom did not drive the car this time. Have to take 2 buses to reach home.
Mmm. I'm eating my dinner. That's all for today. Deedee promised me to go for a movie marathon this coming friday. 2 movies in a row! Wee. You rocks man. :) Ciaos. Hungry. Mmm. Juicy Juicy. Mmm.. :P
Finally, the day is ending soon. *look at my stomach* Hey! It's calling me. It says,"Feed me!" Okay. I going to eat later after typing all these craps here. *calm down, stomachy*
Phew, after that long break at home, today, I'm finally back to school. Betty and Shifah kept on carassing my hair. Puurrrr. Felt very kitty. Maybe BFF was jealous of me. HEH. That will be great! *evil* We kept asking Zul and some of our mates for BFF's l1r4/r5. We're just too curious to know it. Haha!
We did MT paper 2 at the start of the day. I know NUTS about the han yu and zao ju. Sigh. Hope this doesn't happen during the actual day. The day just seemed to drag by. After long hours of staring at the clock to reach 2.20 for our MT Paper 1. I couldn't wait to end it because I couldn't wait to see him after 5 solid days! While I was blowing the fan infront of me in the hall, *BOOM BOOM SHAAAAAAA* Thunderstorm occured.
After we finished the paper, the three of us were standing outside the general office hesitating. We waited till the rain doesn't seemed to fall that heavy than before, BFF came. We just walked out of the school and i turned back. She followed? Blah. While walking the pavement, *EEEEEEEKKKKK* My god. This voice. Familar. The screeching voice that will make you feel annoyed. With the sudden rush of blood rising to your eyes and then brain and then.. You blew your top! Haha! Okay. It wasn't that serious. You felt irritated anyway. The only word you can think of is 'Shutup you bitch. Irritating ah Irritating. Who was that? It's... BFF!' Who cares about her. Do i know her anyway? Nawh!
I went to deedee' house around 5pm+. He was irritating. Well, I just have to bear with it. He is my deedee anyway. Learn to forgive and forget. I pressed the door bell. *silent* 'Oh ya. He was fixing the door bell.' I called him to open the door. The moment he opened it, he was stunt. Because of my hair! Haha! Spend half of my time in his house looking at him soldering. While he was doing the stuff, he suddenly 'bounce' to me. Bounce? HAHA. Sounds BFF-ish. Ok. Jump onto my body? or was it .. Ok whatever it is. Ah.. Usual activity. Sleep. :) The first time he ever been so sweet to me. Talking in a whispering voice. Not whisper. Just gentle and soft tone. Missed that moment. Aww. 7pm+ say good bye to mom, dad, cousin. We went to wait for the 27 bus. Reached home at 8pm+? Mom did not drive the car this time. Have to take 2 buses to reach home.
Mmm. I'm eating my dinner. That's all for today. Deedee promised me to go for a movie marathon this coming friday. 2 movies in a row! Wee. You rocks man. :) Ciaos. Hungry. Mmm. Juicy Juicy. Mmm.. :P
** Tuesday, May 25, 2004 __
Currently Feeling*
headache. sick.
Sigh. My sickness has not cure yet. Ow. My neck have this 2 red spots. Like as if it's bitten by dracula. It hurts ok! Maybe I was bitten by mosquito and I might have dengue fever. Shats. Just now, Medik smsed me and she said i got 19points for L1r4! Too bad my english is an 8! OMfg. It screwed everything. Oh well. Medik and I will try to help each other. =)
Dd smsed me again just now. I just realised the only place that have the best reception in Mersing is KFC? He said he's at KFC eating and going back Singapore soon. Weee. I asked him, "You got miss me?" He replied,"Ya, got.. But i can't sms you because no reception. Haiz.." Awww! ~.~
Today will be the last 'leave' I can take. I can't afford to absent once more. My MT 'O' Level is coming soon. I hope I can do well or at least a pass. =( My mom did not go to work for 2 days! I asked her and she said she was having bodyache. She's suffering from those same symptoms as mine. I spread to her! Haha! I hope i don't spread to any of my classmates. I must isolate myself in the Quarentine Room. Haha! Could it be SARS? I don't know. Well, I'll update later. I'm still feeling so sick.
Sigh. My sickness has not cure yet. Ow. My neck have this 2 red spots. Like as if it's bitten by dracula. It hurts ok! Maybe I was bitten by mosquito and I might have dengue fever. Shats. Just now, Medik smsed me and she said i got 19points for L1r4! Too bad my english is an 8! OMfg. It screwed everything. Oh well. Medik and I will try to help each other. =)
Dd smsed me again just now. I just realised the only place that have the best reception in Mersing is KFC? He said he's at KFC eating and going back Singapore soon. Weee. I asked him, "You got miss me?" He replied,"Ya, got.. But i can't sms you because no reception. Haiz.." Awww! ~.~
Today will be the last 'leave' I can take. I can't afford to absent once more. My MT 'O' Level is coming soon. I hope I can do well or at least a pass. =( My mom did not go to work for 2 days! I asked her and she said she was having bodyache. She's suffering from those same symptoms as mine. I spread to her! Haha! I hope i don't spread to any of my classmates. I must isolate myself in the Quarentine Room. Haha! Could it be SARS? I don't know. Well, I'll update later. I'm still feeling so sick.
** Monday, May 24, 2004 __
Currently Feeling*
condition worsen.
Damn. Doctor gave me 2 days MC. I won't be going to school tomorrow. Once again, 4days I'm absent from school. The longest time i ever skip. Achievement? Nah. Mom and I went to MP and want to see the chinese sensei. We reached there, it's close! Darn it. We took more than half an hour of bus to reach there and it's close?! Shats. We look around and guess what? POLYCLINIC! Went there and see instead. After that, we went to PP and shop a little while. I saw Ken and his khakis. Haha! Cool yea. Mom can't regonise him anymore! Probably he's more handsome now? Hehe!
Oh yea. Dd smsed me around 1pm+. He said that the reception at Mersing is very poor! No wonder! But i felt quite relieve that he still alright there. And at the same time I'm kinda worried that he got another pretty girl. Don't want me already! LOL. *thinking too much*
Tianwei told me that we have to hand in Singh's work this Thursday! Shats. I have 3 more pieces of work to do. Well. Maybe I'll try to do it tomorrow. Too sick to do it today. Sigh. I going to sleep soon. Headache. = ~ *cries* I'm such a weak girl. Or maybe I'm unlucky. Blahs.
Damn. Doctor gave me 2 days MC. I won't be going to school tomorrow. Once again, 4days I'm absent from school. The longest time i ever skip. Achievement? Nah. Mom and I went to MP and want to see the chinese sensei. We reached there, it's close! Darn it. We took more than half an hour of bus to reach there and it's close?! Shats. We look around and guess what? POLYCLINIC! Went there and see instead. After that, we went to PP and shop a little while. I saw Ken and his khakis. Haha! Cool yea. Mom can't regonise him anymore! Probably he's more handsome now? Hehe!
Oh yea. Dd smsed me around 1pm+. He said that the reception at Mersing is very poor! No wonder! But i felt quite relieve that he still alright there. And at the same time I'm kinda worried that he got another pretty girl. Don't want me already! LOL. *thinking too much*
Tianwei told me that we have to hand in Singh's work this Thursday! Shats. I have 3 more pieces of work to do. Well. Maybe I'll try to do it tomorrow. Too sick to do it today. Sigh. I going to sleep soon. Headache. = ~ *cries* I'm such a weak girl. Or maybe I'm unlucky. Blahs.
Currently Feeling* sick
Not again! It's the third day i was absent from school. The same old feeling. My pimples pop up overnight! Some even grew bigger. omg. I can't face the world. I brushed my teeth, blood came out? ahhh. The toothpaste bubble. instead of white become pink! lol! sorethroat. headache. backache. body aching. ahh. im dying! >.< medik said my humanities get A2! omg. i didn't expect that could happen. She and betty got b3. and bff got a2 also! and said BFF show off ah! -_- i think everybody did quite well. no need to show off right. unless everyone fail except u get high grades then can show off. haha! but but. BE HUMBLE. ;P then my e maths got B4. science got B4. eng.. dont wanna say! paper 2! HAHA. got a 9? LOL. o well. ;|.. i think if i get back the eng p1. overall probably E8? -_- so.. 8+4+4+2=18 and i need to get a 2 for my geog den 20. omfg. screwed. all bcuz of my eng! ahh!!! o well. mid year. i dont expect much. and its already a miracle that i pass other subject? i NEVER pass my mid year in my sec sch life bcuz of my english! LOL. okay. enough of this SCHOOL stuff.
i going to MP to see the chinese sensei. ahh. head pain. sigh. i dreamt of him again. i dreamt that he came back.. and came to look for me.. i went to this school where he went. and then he hug me. i was so happy to see him again! then we went to this corner. almost kiss and this lady teacher came into the room. then we 'dots'. the teacher stare at us. we went out from the back door and went somewhere... :| then i dreamt of other stuff already. my sis,mom and i went to NTUC. bought tons of stuff. then i alone at this bustop in the night. took a bus.. to pasir ris.. my old house there. then my mom fetch me or something. ahh. -_-. crap.
I really miss him! He'll be back tomorrow. But.. I finish school at 5.20! omg. I can't wait to see him again! Sigh. Life sucks.. without him. haha! okay. ciaos. I'm going out soon. =)
Not again! It's the third day i was absent from school. The same old feeling. My pimples pop up overnight! Some even grew bigger. omg. I can't face the world. I brushed my teeth, blood came out? ahhh. The toothpaste bubble. instead of white become pink! lol! sorethroat. headache. backache. body aching. ahh. im dying! >.< medik said my humanities get A2! omg. i didn't expect that could happen. She and betty got b3. and bff got a2 also! and said BFF show off ah! -_- i think everybody did quite well. no need to show off right. unless everyone fail except u get high grades then can show off. haha! but but. BE HUMBLE. ;P then my e maths got B4. science got B4. eng.. dont wanna say! paper 2! HAHA. got a 9? LOL. o well. ;|.. i think if i get back the eng p1. overall probably E8? -_- so.. 8+4+4+2=18 and i need to get a 2 for my geog den 20. omfg. screwed. all bcuz of my eng! ahh!!! o well. mid year. i dont expect much. and its already a miracle that i pass other subject? i NEVER pass my mid year in my sec sch life bcuz of my english! LOL. okay. enough of this SCHOOL stuff.
i going to MP to see the chinese sensei. ahh. head pain. sigh. i dreamt of him again. i dreamt that he came back.. and came to look for me.. i went to this school where he went. and then he hug me. i was so happy to see him again! then we went to this corner. almost kiss and this lady teacher came into the room. then we 'dots'. the teacher stare at us. we went out from the back door and went somewhere... :| then i dreamt of other stuff already. my sis,mom and i went to NTUC. bought tons of stuff. then i alone at this bustop in the night. took a bus.. to pasir ris.. my old house there. then my mom fetch me or something. ahh. -_-. crap.
I really miss him! He'll be back tomorrow. But.. I finish school at 5.20! omg. I can't wait to see him again! Sigh. Life sucks.. without him. haha! okay. ciaos. I'm going out soon. =)
** Sunday, May 23, 2004 __
Currently Feeling*
not that good.
early post of the YEAR. lol. woke up 5am! woo. so fresh. yea right. 2 days cannot wash hair. :| 1.5days more. bear with it. ahhh! ok. erm. nothing to post? cs is online! haha! really miss him lots. he nv contact me anymore. ahhh. lol. like. DEAD? good ah good. but bad ah bad. dots.
im mad since yesterday. i remember. in this watson. i was talking to my mom. and she looking at this mascara. and say 'whats this?' cuz its a jap brand. and i was talking all the way to her. and she just reply 'har? what u say?' den i pek cek. i jump up and down like 'sa jiao' and say 'wo gen ni jiang hua ni mei ting! AHH!!' den this salesman in watson checking stock. saw it. and he stare? like wanna laugh ah but nv. den walk another time pass me. and he stare! haha. i wanna laugh. den we finding pills for flu. and then. this 'nin chom pei pa gao' ok. whatever shit is it. i dont know how to spell. LOL. and we say 'heyyyy. this is nice. must be a good one.' and we almost gonna take it and i pointed out at the price and show a disgusted face and make those 'UHHHH' and my mom '!!!!!!!' HAHA. then we put back and act blur nv see. and this man saw it. and stare at us also! HAHA.
ok. enough of this crap. sing song ah. but my voice change a little. sad. sick. sigh. :| tomorrow sch? intensive chinese! omg omg omg. this is mad. 4 days! and nxt nxt mon is MT o lvl. shucks. hate this. i cant face the reality! haha. o god. im nuts. shucks.
early post of the YEAR. lol. woke up 5am! woo. so fresh. yea right. 2 days cannot wash hair. :| 1.5days more. bear with it. ahhh! ok. erm. nothing to post? cs is online! haha! really miss him lots. he nv contact me anymore. ahhh. lol. like. DEAD? good ah good. but bad ah bad. dots.
im mad since yesterday. i remember. in this watson. i was talking to my mom. and she looking at this mascara. and say 'whats this?' cuz its a jap brand. and i was talking all the way to her. and she just reply 'har? what u say?' den i pek cek. i jump up and down like 'sa jiao' and say 'wo gen ni jiang hua ni mei ting! AHH!!' den this salesman in watson checking stock. saw it. and he stare? like wanna laugh ah but nv. den walk another time pass me. and he stare! haha. i wanna laugh. den we finding pills for flu. and then. this 'nin chom pei pa gao' ok. whatever shit is it. i dont know how to spell. LOL. and we say 'heyyyy. this is nice. must be a good one.' and we almost gonna take it and i pointed out at the price and show a disgusted face and make those 'UHHHH' and my mom '!!!!!!!' HAHA. then we put back and act blur nv see. and this man saw it. and stare at us also! HAHA.
ok. enough of this crap. sing song ah. but my voice change a little. sad. sick. sigh. :| tomorrow sch? intensive chinese! omg omg omg. this is mad. 4 days! and nxt nxt mon is MT o lvl. shucks. hate this. i cant face the reality! haha. o god. im nuts. shucks.
** Saturday, May 22, 2004 __
Currently Feeling*
sick
where's he? it's been more than 24hours he didnt contact me already. CAN REPORT POLICE LE. lol. 1)Phone spoil 2)No roaming?(cant be. his dad have) 3)No batt(cant he use his frien phone for just 1 sms? :|) 4)DEAD (yay. LOL)
(,'')♥('',)【シャーマンキング】 麻倉ハオ -我的每天 只为你存在...能不能够再给我机会好好的爱你- 麻倉 葉 【シャーマンキング】(,'')♥('',) says:
i at tampines kfc there
(,'')♥('',)【シャーマンキング】 麻倉ハオ -我的每天 只为你存在...能不能够再给我机会好好的爱你- 麻倉 葉 【シャーマンキング】(,'')♥('',) says:
den hor
(,'')♥('',)【シャーマンキング】 麻倉ハオ -我的每天 只为你存在...能不能够再给我机会好好的爱你- 麻倉 葉 【シャーマンキング】(,'')♥('',) says:
got pple tio hand-cuffed for duno wat reason neh
HAHA. HE? NAH. he at mersing's KFC ah. -.- o well. yea. today got chinese mock exam. fucked up but anyway i did it all. at the end of paper1 , i felt very sick. its very! till now. head heavy, headache, flu, cough, body ache. chills. tiredness. wdf? what happen sia. but dont care. my appointment to kimage. :) spend my 4hrs+ there. yay. hair done. i saw their last year photos. that girl who serve me show me. and OMG. their theme is those sort of Hard Rock and u noe.. Jolin theme. you know. those big skirts. in the oldies. curly hair. permed. blonde. with hat or something. yay. those kind. sibei nice. the hard rock. those girls. dyed their hair more than 4colors. and SPIKE. ok its SPIKE till damn high. sibei cool with black outfit and chains, nets all over. :)
blah. ok. back home after going around heartland mall. very sick. going to sleep now. early right? no choice. if not i unable to attend school during the weekdays! =| well. self obsessed me. . lazy to upload the pictues i taken. maybe tomorrow. tired. ciaos. miss u dear. hope u doing fine out there. -worried-
where's he? it's been more than 24hours he didnt contact me already. CAN REPORT POLICE LE. lol. 1)Phone spoil 2)No roaming?(cant be. his dad have) 3)No batt(cant he use his frien phone for just 1 sms? :|) 4)DEAD (yay. LOL)
(,'')♥('',)【シャーマンキング】 麻倉ハオ -我的每天 只为你存在...能不能够再给我机会好好的爱你- 麻倉 葉 【シャーマンキング】(,'')♥('',) says:
i at tampines kfc there
(,'')♥('',)【シャーマンキング】 麻倉ハオ -我的每天 只为你存在...能不能够再给我机会好好的爱你- 麻倉 葉 【シャーマンキング】(,'')♥('',) says:
den hor
(,'')♥('',)【シャーマンキング】 麻倉ハオ -我的每天 只为你存在...能不能够再给我机会好好的爱你- 麻倉 葉 【シャーマンキング】(,'')♥('',) says:
got pple tio hand-cuffed for duno wat reason neh
HAHA. HE? NAH. he at mersing's KFC ah. -.- o well. yea. today got chinese mock exam. fucked up but anyway i did it all. at the end of paper1 , i felt very sick. its very! till now. head heavy, headache, flu, cough, body ache. chills. tiredness. wdf? what happen sia. but dont care. my appointment to kimage. :) spend my 4hrs+ there. yay. hair done. i saw their last year photos. that girl who serve me show me. and OMG. their theme is those sort of Hard Rock and u noe.. Jolin theme. you know. those big skirts. in the oldies. curly hair. permed. blonde. with hat or something. yay. those kind. sibei nice. the hard rock. those girls. dyed their hair more than 4colors. and SPIKE. ok its SPIKE till damn high. sibei cool with black outfit and chains, nets all over. :)
blah. ok. back home after going around heartland mall. very sick. going to sleep now. early right? no choice. if not i unable to attend school during the weekdays! =| well. self obsessed me. . lazy to upload the pictues i taken. maybe tomorrow. tired. ciaos. miss u dear. hope u doing fine out there. -worried-
** Friday, May 21, 2004 __
Currently Feeling*
happy
haha. yay. and fucked up too? mom did not promise my promise. about going kimage. and too late already cant go do my hair. so she already made a confirm appointment to kimage @ 1pm tomorrow. yay! and just now went to orchard with her. settle bank stuff. and shop around. i saw those 'ling ling long long'(accessories) lol. first love. but mom say not nice. so ended up didnt buy. aww. i saw a Vans Skate shoe. nice! more to guys style but its nice? $105. grey and white. ahh. maybe one day i will buy that. and we went around taka, heeren. so sad. didnt buy anything at first. den came across this mango shop. went in. i was choosing clothes and i look up. WEE. that Gola bag! i pointed out to her and i said i want that. and yay? bought it. $75. :| den bought 2 tops. $20 each. lol. at least i bought something. hehe. quite satisfied with it already. and went to sms dd. he didnt reply. guess he's busy with those stuff there. gonna miss him? tommorrow having MT mock exam P1/P2. sucks. hate it. heck too! i think i only start studying the next week. for MT Os. yay. need to study for the Han Yu Pin Ying already. if not i sure fail . no hope. sigh. =) never mind. always look life the bright side. haha! thats what i always told to myself. happy go lucky? thats great. and by the way. the picture and i edited it at photoshop
i hope it can be seen. i took the url from friendster because i lazy to upload somewhere. -_-. haha.
DAMN IT terra deserves TOP 3 for cheerleading and you know it WTF says:
lol astral projection..
DAMN IT terra deserves TOP 3 for cheerleading and you know it WTF says:
my friend can do it..
DAMN IT terra deserves TOP 3 for cheerleading and you know it WTF says:
he projected himself to other countries b4.. pengz
DAMN IT terra deserves TOP 3 for cheerleading and you know it WTF says:
pros
DAMN IT terra deserves TOP 3 for cheerleading and you know it WTF says:
amazed by them
Omg. Cat's friend able to do astral projection! i also want. but everyone able to do it. its the matter of how you gonna do it exactly and it need practice! ahh! jealous. it rocks ok!! ahh!!! shucks. like that.. no need to buy air ticket and fly overseas already! save money! HAHA. =(....
[23:08:40] jia jia..u wan project into bratt pit's bathroom see him rite =x
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[23:08:51] hey
[23:08:53] thats cool!
[23:08:58] ahaha
[23:09:04] see him @ the corner
[23:09:09] 'IF I WAS INVICIBLE'
haha! this song suits it. HAHA.
haha. yay. and fucked up too? mom did not promise my promise. about going kimage. and too late already cant go do my hair. so she already made a confirm appointment to kimage @ 1pm tomorrow. yay! and just now went to orchard with her. settle bank stuff. and shop around. i saw those 'ling ling long long'(accessories) lol. first love. but mom say not nice. so ended up didnt buy. aww. i saw a Vans Skate shoe. nice! more to guys style but its nice? $105. grey and white. ahh. maybe one day i will buy that. and we went around taka, heeren. so sad. didnt buy anything at first. den came across this mango shop. went in. i was choosing clothes and i look up. WEE. that Gola bag! i pointed out to her and i said i want that. and yay? bought it. $75. :| den bought 2 tops. $20 each. lol. at least i bought something. hehe. quite satisfied with it already. and went to sms dd. he didnt reply. guess he's busy with those stuff there. gonna miss him? tommorrow having MT mock exam P1/P2. sucks. hate it. heck too! i think i only start studying the next week. for MT Os. yay. need to study for the Han Yu Pin Ying already. if not i sure fail . no hope. sigh. =) never mind. always look life the bright side. haha! thats what i always told to myself. happy go lucky? thats great. and by the way. the picture and i edited it at photoshop
i hope it can be seen. i took the url from friendster because i lazy to upload somewhere. -_-. haha.
DAMN IT terra deserves TOP 3 for cheerleading and you know it WTF says:
lol astral projection..
DAMN IT terra deserves TOP 3 for cheerleading and you know it WTF says:
my friend can do it..
DAMN IT terra deserves TOP 3 for cheerleading and you know it WTF says:
he projected himself to other countries b4.. pengz
DAMN IT terra deserves TOP 3 for cheerleading and you know it WTF says:
pros
DAMN IT terra deserves TOP 3 for cheerleading and you know it WTF says:
amazed by them
Omg. Cat's friend able to do astral projection! i also want. but everyone able to do it. its the matter of how you gonna do it exactly and it need practice! ahh! jealous. it rocks ok!! ahh!!! shucks. like that.. no need to buy air ticket and fly overseas already! save money! HAHA. =(....
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haha! this song suits it. HAHA.
Currently Feeling* emotionless.
well. last night i was darn fucking angry. because of him. yea. he said that he want to send me the uploaded photos that we took on my birthday. and fucking irc options was set wrongly, he couldnt send to me. and before that he sent to me in msn, my msn was not responding and it shut down. and what the hell. he asked me to wait till he back from m'sia. so. *whew* i asked him if he have roaming. he say no. i said he suck then. and he said if i want him use his dad number because his daddy has it. so i say ok. unless he suck. lol. and well. he used his dad phone now. able to contact him for the next 5days. :| wee. and i didnt go to school today because im tired! thinking of him too much. probably. but its after exam. just to go back and take result. well, who cares. till now i don't know any of my result yet! HAHA! its ok. i know i will do badly. dont wanna get demoralised.lol.
by the way, i love his dad. i don't know why. just seemed to be better than mine. but his dad will be my dad one day. er. am i too confident that we will get married? lol. :P *blah*
okay. i've been downloading trance since 11am yesterday? LOL. HDD space sure full once day. :| but o well. too bored at home. later i have to accompany mom to orchard and pay her citibank stuff. and i go kimage and do my hair. yea. finally. :| i'm currently leeching someone. Blank & Jones - Relax (limited edition) album. quite a nice one. combination of relaxation music and sort of trance. yea i love trance. simply rules. yea. if any guys out there will like to download any of the songs from me or ask me to find(TIPS PLEASE?!). hey not chinese k. i seldom have them. especually for techno? haha. you can give me a message. :). geez im feeling angelic now. lol! feeling kind. haha! probably good mood? umm.. well nothing to say currently. update later. :)
well. last night i was darn fucking angry. because of him. yea. he said that he want to send me the uploaded photos that we took on my birthday. and fucking irc options was set wrongly, he couldnt send to me. and before that he sent to me in msn, my msn was not responding and it shut down. and what the hell. he asked me to wait till he back from m'sia. so. *whew* i asked him if he have roaming. he say no. i said he suck then. and he said if i want him use his dad number because his daddy has it. so i say ok. unless he suck. lol. and well. he used his dad phone now. able to contact him for the next 5days. :| wee. and i didnt go to school today because im tired! thinking of him too much. probably. but its after exam. just to go back and take result. well, who cares. till now i don't know any of my result yet! HAHA! its ok. i know i will do badly. dont wanna get demoralised.lol.
by the way, i love his dad. i don't know why. just seemed to be better than mine. but his dad will be my dad one day. er. am i too confident that we will get married? lol. :P *blah*
okay. i've been downloading trance since 11am yesterday? LOL. HDD space sure full once day. :| but o well. too bored at home. later i have to accompany mom to orchard and pay her citibank stuff. and i go kimage and do my hair. yea. finally. :| i'm currently leeching someone. Blank & Jones - Relax (limited edition) album. quite a nice one. combination of relaxation music and sort of trance. yea i love trance. simply rules. yea. if any guys out there will like to download any of the songs from me or ask me to find(TIPS PLEASE?!). hey not chinese k. i seldom have them. especually for techno? haha. you can give me a message. :). geez im feeling angelic now. lol! feeling kind. haha! probably good mood? umm.. well nothing to say currently. update later. :)
** Thursday, May 20, 2004 __
Currently Feeling*
bored.
not another day has gone. yes. him again. just now i woke up. asked him to come over. he say its too far. so. alright. anything. i dont expect much from him. i knew it. he said he going out for lunch. i just hope that he lied to me and come over for a surprise. and nah. he wont. yes he didnt. i remembered more than a year ago. he called me. and say what am i doing. i asked him, he said he's watching tv at home. and then. before ended the conversation, he said 'hey look out of the window' and i went to take a look. its him, waving at me and smiled. awww. he's so sweet in the past. but not now. sigh. made me sad again. :( was i in the fault that i shifted far away from him? :'(.. and then. many things flash in my mind. The Great Depression. I cried again. tw was there to talk to me. :| but then i went to play with coco, she cheered me up alot. and kinda alright now but still sad in my heart..
yea, baby i gonna miss u so much! :| i dont know where else i can go tomorrow. the beach? the same old self me 2002? everyday look @ the sea. sigh. o well. update tonite.
not another day has gone. yes. him again. just now i woke up. asked him to come over. he say its too far. so. alright. anything. i dont expect much from him. i knew it. he said he going out for lunch. i just hope that he lied to me and come over for a surprise. and nah. he wont. yes he didnt. i remembered more than a year ago. he called me. and say what am i doing. i asked him, he said he's watching tv at home. and then. before ended the conversation, he said 'hey look out of the window' and i went to take a look. its him, waving at me and smiled. awww. he's so sweet in the past. but not now. sigh. made me sad again. :( was i in the fault that i shifted far away from him? :'(.. and then. many things flash in my mind. The Great Depression. I cried again. tw was there to talk to me. :| but then i went to play with coco, she cheered me up alot. and kinda alright now but still sad in my heart..
yea, baby i gonna miss u so much! :| i dont know where else i can go tomorrow. the beach? the same old self me 2002? everyday look @ the sea. sigh. o well. update tonite.
Currently Feeling* depressed.
ya. my depression in me have not subside yet. feeling heavy in my heart. sigh. i realised that im a true sadist when i discovered lots of sad post in my blog. almost everyday? and surprise that i blog at this time? i suppose to be in school now. but i skipped classes because i feel very sad last night and think that i unable to go to school the next day. im right. its still in me. maybe i would wanna use the most immature way to solve it by being a Anti-Socialist like what medik used think. i can be easily be a anti-socialist. im sort of a loner. but not really. not to that critical stage. i mean i CAN BE one. i woke up around 11am plus. i realised its the next day. i made lots of dreams. i can't remember whats that. the only stuff i could think is HIM. i remembered last night i wanna chat with him but he wasn't there? and i doze off or something. and someone go log off my computer. but it's still on. only all programs shutdown. whos the one? must be my mom. oh yea. i can read the message history. almost forget it have that function. haha. *scanning* what the shit? the conversation is last last last night? wheres last night's? argh darn it. this suck. the whole world suck including him from now on. and tomorrow til next tue i unable to see him. and after he's back i having intensive chinese lesson. and ARGH? 2nd june is his frien's birthday and he probably staying overnight for 1 day. fuck. hate this. REAL HATE THIS. WHY? SIGH!!!. i dont care anymore. i just wanna be a sadist already. school for 2 weeks during june. ARGH. HATE THE WORLD. REALLY!.
ya. my depression in me have not subside yet. feeling heavy in my heart. sigh. i realised that im a true sadist when i discovered lots of sad post in my blog. almost everyday? and surprise that i blog at this time? i suppose to be in school now. but i skipped classes because i feel very sad last night and think that i unable to go to school the next day. im right. its still in me. maybe i would wanna use the most immature way to solve it by being a Anti-Socialist like what medik used think. i can be easily be a anti-socialist. im sort of a loner. but not really. not to that critical stage. i mean i CAN BE one. i woke up around 11am plus. i realised its the next day. i made lots of dreams. i can't remember whats that. the only stuff i could think is HIM. i remembered last night i wanna chat with him but he wasn't there? and i doze off or something. and someone go log off my computer. but it's still on. only all programs shutdown. whos the one? must be my mom. oh yea. i can read the message history. almost forget it have that function. haha. *scanning* what the shit? the conversation is last last last night? wheres last night's? argh darn it. this suck. the whole world suck including him from now on. and tomorrow til next tue i unable to see him. and after he's back i having intensive chinese lesson. and ARGH? 2nd june is his frien's birthday and he probably staying overnight for 1 day. fuck. hate this. REAL HATE THIS. WHY? SIGH!!!. i dont care anymore. i just wanna be a sadist already. school for 2 weeks during june. ARGH. HATE THE WORLD. REALLY!.
** Wednesday, May 19, 2004 __
Currently Feeling*
shag
sigh. maybe it was the saddest birthday in my life. or was it the lamest birthday or spastic n crappy stupid birthday? argh whatever. just dont feel good about it. but anyway, firstly i would like to thank to my special dd for the icecream mudcake and cheesecake. we argued over the cake thingy and went around suntec to find and we eventually found a cafe where it sell both icecream cake and cheesecake? haha! yea thanks. secondly, i would like to thank to dd's friends who were crapping and laming around and telling cold jokes all the way from the start till the end. yea. enjoyed it. thirdly, i would like to thank those guys who brought me present and remembered my birthday and wished me a happy birthday? so touched. dont know how should i express my feeling for you all. :) lastly, i will wanna special thanks to dd who accompany me the whole day (although it doesnt have a good start of the day but it turns out to be a nice day). love u lots.
dont feel like going to school tomorrow. very tired. been outside of house since 6.30am uptill 11pm+? sigh. i still in a depressed mode. dont ask me why cuz partly i dont know the reason why am i sad and the other half is i dont wish to say or remember it. ahh sigh.. anyway, i fail my poa by 7.5 marks? duh. and pass chem so far. not sure about the combined science. hopefully. .
just simply hate everyone. hateeee it. :-(
sigh. maybe it was the saddest birthday in my life. or was it the lamest birthday or spastic n crappy stupid birthday? argh whatever. just dont feel good about it. but anyway, firstly i would like to thank to my special dd for the icecream mudcake and cheesecake. we argued over the cake thingy and went around suntec to find and we eventually found a cafe where it sell both icecream cake and cheesecake? haha! yea thanks. secondly, i would like to thank to dd's friends who were crapping and laming around and telling cold jokes all the way from the start till the end. yea. enjoyed it. thirdly, i would like to thank those guys who brought me present and remembered my birthday and wished me a happy birthday? so touched. dont know how should i express my feeling for you all. :) lastly, i will wanna special thanks to dd who accompany me the whole day (although it doesnt have a good start of the day but it turns out to be a nice day). love u lots.
dont feel like going to school tomorrow. very tired. been outside of house since 6.30am uptill 11pm+? sigh. i still in a depressed mode. dont ask me why cuz partly i dont know the reason why am i sad and the other half is i dont wish to say or remember it. ahh sigh.. anyway, i fail my poa by 7.5 marks? duh. and pass chem so far. not sure about the combined science. hopefully. .
just simply hate everyone. hateeee it. :-(
** Tuesday, May 18, 2004 __
Currently Feeling*
stuck on you.
it gonna be a long post. sigh. it's gonna be a sad birthday. ya. hate it when birthday lies on the weekday. cant celebrate till very late cuz needa go sch the next day? budden.. get to get more wishes and presents from friends! lol. ah i don't care anymore. i thought of celebrating it a post-brithday celebration on this saturday. but well. it wont be happier because someone is going somewhere. sighs. is hobby more important than me? i don't know. hate guys. always the case. play games. play this. go there. play play play. can't stop playing around. shyt man.
well, today had my science paper 1 and history elective. maybe able to pass. i didnt study for my history but i able to write craps? hope i pass. results gonna be out soon. i think i gonna fail my english again? and it will FAIL everything. uhh. but it's only mid year. who cares. i NEVER pass my mid year at all. zz. fail and fail. one day i will succeed. for my prelims and o lvls. gambatte! :) always look the bright side of life right? life isn't that bad than what you think. hehe.
shag ah shag.its been a long time i didn't type out what really happen in a day already. okay. here goes? haha! went to dd house immediately. step in a few moments we went to meet jz and goto the bedok police HQ for some thingy. dd went for his lunch. the worst lunch he ever had. LOL. aww. we went to sit around the void deck. he sleep. i woke up up. we went to 7-11. brought that strawberry and choc Chocolate. Yum yum. his and my favourate. and we gonna pay, i pointed the astroboy. and he said 'ASTROBOY!' like a kid? haha! very childish tone ah but i like it to see him that cute! haha! then that aunty at the counter laughs and asked 'do you want it?' and she grins. LOL. we went back to tampines and go back to his place. slept? yea. our usual activity is SLEEP. haha! then suddenly very hungry. we went to cook in the kitchen. and his method of cooking and mine is always different. and i just ji dong and shouted him. and he fed up. and shouted at me back? i hate it when he shout at me. very scary. i was darn fed up. slam the chopstick and do stuff fed-up-ly. grr. and then. cook finish, he came and i asked him wheres the pepper. he went to take it and the pepper container got a P on it. and he said 'PIG POWDER' in a childish tone again! and there again, he makes me laugh. sigh. always make me sad/angry and ended up you make me smile again. :| haha. and he say eat that 'PIG POWDER' will become stupid as a pig. DUH. and then very full, he went GB-ing again. Yea. the PIG powder really works. become piggish and i go and sleep immediately. sleep til 6.30. he came to disturb me. argh. damn shag. z. and then we 'sleep' again? around 7pm we went down to bustop and waited for bus. and reach SK at 8+. Mom was there to fetch me. and oh ya! i saw that JC guy i everyday see him in the morning in the same bus number. haha! Morning see, night time see. got fate? hurhur. not bad looking ah budden i have dd le. who cares? ;x
yea. another 3hours20min more to be able to watch NC-16 movies, officially legal for sex, officially able to play pool mor guang ming zheng da. and 16. second checkpoint of life. (1st: 12. 2nd:16 3rd:18 4th:21) heehee. time flies. hope to see u tomorrow quick! :) miss u.
it gonna be a long post. sigh. it's gonna be a sad birthday. ya. hate it when birthday lies on the weekday. cant celebrate till very late cuz needa go sch the next day? budden.. get to get more wishes and presents from friends! lol. ah i don't care anymore. i thought of celebrating it a post-brithday celebration on this saturday. but well. it wont be happier because someone is going somewhere. sighs. is hobby more important than me? i don't know. hate guys. always the case. play games. play this. go there. play play play. can't stop playing around. shyt man.
well, today had my science paper 1 and history elective. maybe able to pass. i didnt study for my history but i able to write craps? hope i pass. results gonna be out soon. i think i gonna fail my english again? and it will FAIL everything. uhh. but it's only mid year. who cares. i NEVER pass my mid year at all. zz. fail and fail. one day i will succeed. for my prelims and o lvls. gambatte! :) always look the bright side of life right? life isn't that bad than what you think. hehe.
shag ah shag.its been a long time i didn't type out what really happen in a day already. okay. here goes? haha! went to dd house immediately. step in a few moments we went to meet jz and goto the bedok police HQ for some thingy. dd went for his lunch. the worst lunch he ever had. LOL. aww. we went to sit around the void deck. he sleep. i woke up up. we went to 7-11. brought that strawberry and choc Chocolate. Yum yum. his and my favourate. and we gonna pay, i pointed the astroboy. and he said 'ASTROBOY!' like a kid? haha! very childish tone ah but i like it to see him that cute! haha! then that aunty at the counter laughs and asked 'do you want it?' and she grins. LOL. we went back to tampines and go back to his place. slept? yea. our usual activity is SLEEP. haha! then suddenly very hungry. we went to cook in the kitchen. and his method of cooking and mine is always different. and i just ji dong and shouted him. and he fed up. and shouted at me back? i hate it when he shout at me. very scary. i was darn fed up. slam the chopstick and do stuff fed-up-ly. grr. and then. cook finish, he came and i asked him wheres the pepper. he went to take it and the pepper container got a P on it. and he said 'PIG POWDER' in a childish tone again! and there again, he makes me laugh. sigh. always make me sad/angry and ended up you make me smile again. :| haha. and he say eat that 'PIG POWDER' will become stupid as a pig. DUH. and then very full, he went GB-ing again. Yea. the PIG powder really works. become piggish and i go and sleep immediately. sleep til 6.30. he came to disturb me. argh. damn shag. z. and then we 'sleep' again? around 7pm we went down to bustop and waited for bus. and reach SK at 8+. Mom was there to fetch me. and oh ya! i saw that JC guy i everyday see him in the morning in the same bus number. haha! Morning see, night time see. got fate? hurhur. not bad looking ah budden i have dd le. who cares? ;x
yea. another 3hours20min more to be able to watch NC-16 movies, officially legal for sex, officially able to play pool mor guang ming zheng da. and 16. second checkpoint of life. (1st: 12. 2nd:16 3rd:18 4th:21) heehee. time flies. hope to see u tomorrow quick! :) miss u.
Currently Feeling* more shag.
I can't stop thinking of this song. DeeDee! You influenced me. But anyway as i said, I don't fall in love with the singer. I fall in love with the song as much as you.It's meaningful as it makes me think of you when the moment i listen it. A song for me and you...muack!
Clay Aiken - The Way
Something about the way you look tonight,
Something about the way that I can't take my eyes off you.
Something about the way your lips invite. Maybe it's the way
that I get nervous when you're around, and I want you to be mine.
And if you need a reason why.
It's in the way that you move me,
and the way you tease me,
the way that I want you tonight.
It's in the way that you hold me
and the way that you know me
When I can't find the right words to say.
You feel it in the way. Ohh... you feel it in the way...
Something about how you stay on my mind,
Something about the way that I whisper your name when I'm asleep
Ohh girl... Maybe it's the look you get in your eyes, ohh baby it's the
way that makes me feel to see you smile... And the reasons they may
change, but what I'm feeling stays the same.
It's in the way that you move me,
and the way you tease me,
the way that I want you tonight.
It's in the way that you hold me
and the way that you know me
When I can't find the right words to say.
You feel it in the way... Ohh... You feel it in the way...
I can't put my fingers on just what it is that makes me love you
you baby.. so don't ask me to describe, I get all choked up inside...
just thinkin bout the way....
It's in the way that you move me and the way that you tease me
The way that I want you tonight... It's in the way that you hold me
and the way that you know me
When I can't find the right words to say.
When you move me and you tease me ... the way...
Feel it in the way... Something about the way you look tonight...
nothing more to say than I feel it in the way...
Kay. Don't know whats wrong with him. Sleep so early! Used too much energy while jerking away? Haha! Kay. He go sleep, i go sleep too. meaningless for me to stay online alone without him to talk to... :|
I can't stop thinking of this song. DeeDee! You influenced me. But anyway as i said, I don't fall in love with the singer. I fall in love with the song as much as you.It's meaningful as it makes me think of you when the moment i listen it. A song for me and you...muack!
Clay Aiken - The Way
Something about the way you look tonight,
Something about the way that I can't take my eyes off you.
Something about the way your lips invite. Maybe it's the way
that I get nervous when you're around, and I want you to be mine.
And if you need a reason why.
It's in the way that you move me,
and the way you tease me,
the way that I want you tonight.
It's in the way that you hold me
and the way that you know me
When I can't find the right words to say.
You feel it in the way. Ohh... you feel it in the way...
Something about how you stay on my mind,
Something about the way that I whisper your name when I'm asleep
Ohh girl... Maybe it's the look you get in your eyes, ohh baby it's the
way that makes me feel to see you smile... And the reasons they may
change, but what I'm feeling stays the same.
It's in the way that you move me,
and the way you tease me,
the way that I want you tonight.
It's in the way that you hold me
and the way that you know me
When I can't find the right words to say.
You feel it in the way... Ohh... You feel it in the way...
I can't put my fingers on just what it is that makes me love you
you baby.. so don't ask me to describe, I get all choked up inside...
just thinkin bout the way....
It's in the way that you move me and the way that you tease me
The way that I want you tonight... It's in the way that you hold me
and the way that you know me
When I can't find the right words to say.
When you move me and you tease me ... the way...
Feel it in the way... Something about the way you look tonight...
nothing more to say than I feel it in the way...
Kay. Don't know whats wrong with him. Sleep so early! Used too much energy while jerking away? Haha! Kay. He go sleep, i go sleep too. meaningless for me to stay online alone without him to talk to... :|
** Monday, May 17, 2004 __
Currently Feeling*
shag ah shag.
I would like to thank KiatJun,Henry,Simon,Derek,KerSiang,Jeremy,Mark And Medik for treating a movie ticket for my birthday in advance. Lol. thanks :) Frens forever yea? tomorrow is last day of mid year exams. didnt study at all for both science and history. Heck. i dont care if i fail. hate history actually. but somehow my laziness made it worst. sighs.
betty ah betty. she was grounded again. aw man.. i feel sad for you. wait become like me. having a relationship in the dark. cant share with family members. cant bring him home. and everything got to do with him have to lie. and i been lying to my families for almost 2 years. ok. not 2. 1year8mths so far. i really cant stand this kind of life. i wish to say everything out but i knew the circumstances. he and me. suffered like this. no freedom of loving. i still can recall that day i was grounded by my mom. we thought that by telling everything to her can solve this 'no-freedom' love. 1) Free 2) Break. And of cuz. the answer is 2. i was very depress that time. but he told me to keep in a low profile. and secretly going out. i lied to my mom. and i used my friends names. hate it! sorry friends out there if i used your names. i really cant think of anymore! i really want to have my freedom. without freedom, i wont have happiness. and thats all i wanted in my life. my long term goal. after this 1yr8mth, everything turn out fine? mom found out that i still contact him. cuz dat time i used her fone to sms him with sweet talks? and she question me. omg. hate it. hate someone questioning you and you're guilty about it. and all i just say is 'hanna hanna. okokokokok.' and occasionally she will just pop out the question 'do you still contact with that stupid jl?' i felt so. Scared? all of the sudden. and i just lie again 'no.' argh! sigh. really wish to break this barrier in my life and heck everything? i dont know. i can do anything as long i get my freedom. i don't understand why my parents have to do this to me. am i looks or sound unsensible and innocent to them? and those kind of kid who knows nuts and like TOO YOUNG for anything? shucks. i wanna let them see the real me. the real shp that i really am. sigh. betty, all the best kie? dont give up! good luck =)with all the support from me and ur galfriends and especially your belove dear, you be able to solve this out. got time we murder our parents k? haha! yea... =)~
ok. no time for this. man. this sucks. i hate my life because of this. well, talk about today. having my geog p1. only 1.25hrs? what the hell. budden as i mention those peeps out there treat me a movie. and after that, mark,medik and i went around CS to window shop? lol. look at bras? haha! mark horny! =x went around every corner of metro. and around 2+ i went to dd house again. i dont know whats with me. i feel so sad all of the sudden. i threw temper at him. threw him stuff on the floor. like mad? he scolded me. i cry. cry alot. don't know why. becoming a retard. biting my hands. playing stuff without any reason like those retards out there. (opps.) and staring outside the window. wishing to jump down. argh. but he came to me,hug me and pull me away from the window. like as if dont wanna let me go.. sigh. he melt my heart. and i stop this retard nonsensical stuff.and then.. erm.. having fun? probably. and sleep from 5-7pm. still very tired. budden he gotta go katong to meet his mom. so went back myself. and reached home around 8pm+. and rot infront of the pc. :| yea and i think thats all? this post is long. dont wanna be too 'lor sor'. ciaos.
I would like to thank KiatJun,Henry,Simon,Derek,KerSiang,Jeremy,Mark And Medik for treating a movie ticket for my birthday in advance. Lol. thanks :) Frens forever yea? tomorrow is last day of mid year exams. didnt study at all for both science and history. Heck. i dont care if i fail. hate history actually. but somehow my laziness made it worst. sighs.
betty ah betty. she was grounded again. aw man.. i feel sad for you. wait become like me. having a relationship in the dark. cant share with family members. cant bring him home. and everything got to do with him have to lie. and i been lying to my families for almost 2 years. ok. not 2. 1year8mths so far. i really cant stand this kind of life. i wish to say everything out but i knew the circumstances. he and me. suffered like this. no freedom of loving. i still can recall that day i was grounded by my mom. we thought that by telling everything to her can solve this 'no-freedom' love. 1) Free 2) Break. And of cuz. the answer is 2. i was very depress that time. but he told me to keep in a low profile. and secretly going out. i lied to my mom. and i used my friends names. hate it! sorry friends out there if i used your names. i really cant think of anymore! i really want to have my freedom. without freedom, i wont have happiness. and thats all i wanted in my life. my long term goal. after this 1yr8mth, everything turn out fine? mom found out that i still contact him. cuz dat time i used her fone to sms him with sweet talks? and she question me. omg. hate it. hate someone questioning you and you're guilty about it. and all i just say is 'hanna hanna. okokokokok.' and occasionally she will just pop out the question 'do you still contact with that stupid jl?' i felt so. Scared? all of the sudden. and i just lie again 'no.' argh! sigh. really wish to break this barrier in my life and heck everything? i dont know. i can do anything as long i get my freedom. i don't understand why my parents have to do this to me. am i looks or sound unsensible and innocent to them? and those kind of kid who knows nuts and like TOO YOUNG for anything? shucks. i wanna let them see the real me. the real shp that i really am. sigh. betty, all the best kie? dont give up! good luck =)with all the support from me and ur galfriends and especially your belove dear, you be able to solve this out. got time we murder our parents k? haha! yea... =)~
ok. no time for this. man. this sucks. i hate my life because of this. well, talk about today. having my geog p1. only 1.25hrs? what the hell. budden as i mention those peeps out there treat me a movie. and after that, mark,medik and i went around CS to window shop? lol. look at bras? haha! mark horny! =x went around every corner of metro. and around 2+ i went to dd house again. i dont know whats with me. i feel so sad all of the sudden. i threw temper at him. threw him stuff on the floor. like mad? he scolded me. i cry. cry alot. don't know why. becoming a retard. biting my hands. playing stuff without any reason like those retards out there. (opps.) and staring outside the window. wishing to jump down. argh. but he came to me,hug me and pull me away from the window. like as if dont wanna let me go.. sigh. he melt my heart. and i stop this retard nonsensical stuff.and then.. erm.. having fun? probably. and sleep from 5-7pm. still very tired. budden he gotta go katong to meet his mom. so went back myself. and reached home around 8pm+. and rot infront of the pc. :| yea and i think thats all? this post is long. dont wanna be too 'lor sor'. ciaos.
** Sunday, May 16, 2004 __
Currently Feeling*
happy? NO!? YES? Ok. Half half.
Haha. 3 more days to go. Wee. anyway. i would like to complain something. The Long John Silver at Hougang Green. What the Hell? THe service is fucking poor. more than 15mins to get your order. Lack of people there. Everyone was queuing up. And only 2 counter? And LOTs of flies in there. the fly thingy(that blue electric stuff) goes 'ZAPP ZAPP ZAPP..' every 10sec. Can't you imagine? LOTS of flies and insects in there. Flying around you when you eat. Isn't that irritating enough? I wanted to go off, but mom was quing halfway. So.. "OH WELL?" Everyone gone already and we still started eating? And just to spend another more than 2min+ to take chilli from the counter. And TarTar sause was out of stock. THAT will be the first and the last time i enter into that LJS. Lan Jiao Sperm. -_-.. Real Pissed off there. LoL! I told my mom 'Hey. You better eat faster and get out of here faster!' I think i should send a formal letter to them. LOL. English! :D~
Okay. Nothing special except that COMPLAINING part. Having urine infection this afternoon when i woke up. Drank 5-6 glasses of water. Bloated. And till now i think i addicted with water? Can't stop drinking. Feel so thirsty. Something wrong with me? LOL. Aw Crapz. Yea. DD going to chalet. Able to stay a night there because he gotta study for his SAT exam for the following day. :| Yup. I hope my mom let me spend a night there! Agh! Hate her! I don't see the need to worry and object me from staying there. Whats the difference?! Going home late and spending a little more hours on staying there and going to school next morning. Nothing right? Grr.
Yea and i needa go for a bath now. I feel sticky and hot here. HEY im hot im sexy~ Blah. =x Miss my deer lots.
-To Know You Is to Love You And I Know You Very Well-
Haha. 3 more days to go. Wee. anyway. i would like to complain something. The Long John Silver at Hougang Green. What the Hell? THe service is fucking poor. more than 15mins to get your order. Lack of people there. Everyone was queuing up. And only 2 counter? And LOTs of flies in there. the fly thingy(that blue electric stuff) goes 'ZAPP ZAPP ZAPP..' every 10sec. Can't you imagine? LOTS of flies and insects in there. Flying around you when you eat. Isn't that irritating enough? I wanted to go off, but mom was quing halfway. So.. "OH WELL?" Everyone gone already and we still started eating? And just to spend another more than 2min+ to take chilli from the counter. And TarTar sause was out of stock. THAT will be the first and the last time i enter into that LJS. Lan Jiao Sperm. -_-.. Real Pissed off there. LoL! I told my mom 'Hey. You better eat faster and get out of here faster!' I think i should send a formal letter to them. LOL. English! :D~
Okay. Nothing special except that COMPLAINING part. Having urine infection this afternoon when i woke up. Drank 5-6 glasses of water. Bloated. And till now i think i addicted with water? Can't stop drinking. Feel so thirsty. Something wrong with me? LOL. Aw Crapz. Yea. DD going to chalet. Able to stay a night there because he gotta study for his SAT exam for the following day. :| Yup. I hope my mom let me spend a night there! Agh! Hate her! I don't see the need to worry and object me from staying there. Whats the difference?! Going home late and spending a little more hours on staying there and going to school next morning. Nothing right? Grr.
Yea and i needa go for a bath now. I feel sticky and hot here. HEY im hot im sexy~ Blah. =x Miss my deer lots.
-To Know You Is to Love You And I Know You Very Well-
Currently Feeling* tired
Wow? i woke up quite early. Yea, early to me. Tomorrow I having Geography P1. Muah! One paper only and it's only 1.5hrs! I think in less thana hour i able to finish? Blah. Don't be over confident. I didn't study yet! Same goes to the next two papers on Tuesday.
I just edited some part of the blog. Archieve, and some stuff? Probably you unable to see them. Makes no difference. Awww. I miss him. Wonder he awaken yet? Today is Sunday. Maybe? *Yawn* Shats. I can't stop yawning since last night? Haha! I think i go back to sleep now. Probably wake up around 12pm. Heh. Look how piggish am I. ('(Oo)').zZz Oinks. =)
Wow? i woke up quite early. Yea, early to me. Tomorrow I having Geography P1. Muah! One paper only and it's only 1.5hrs! I think in less thana hour i able to finish? Blah. Don't be over confident. I didn't study yet! Same goes to the next two papers on Tuesday.
I just edited some part of the blog. Archieve, and some stuff? Probably you unable to see them. Makes no difference. Awww. I miss him. Wonder he awaken yet? Today is Sunday. Maybe? *Yawn* Shats. I can't stop yawning since last night? Haha! I think i go back to sleep now. Probably wake up around 12pm. Heh. Look how piggish am I. ('(Oo)').zZz Oinks. =)
** Saturday, May 15, 2004 __
Currently Feeling*
sigh.
Life is unfair. yes i agree. It's always. There's so many questions popping up from each of everyone of us. The wonders, the mysteries, the secrets and the questions that cannot be answered - Unknown X. Fated? I guessed so. But what made us think so? I don't know.
This desperate moment. I need to help him out from the dark. I can't bear to see my own friend at this kind of state. But. The question is: What am i suppose to do? There's nothing i can do at this moment. Sigh. If life is fair.. Fairly, there wasn't life. Don't you think so? Reality hurts. That's what people think. Chose to run away from reality, ended up in the dark. Knows nothing about the world at all. Live life to the fullest, reflect yourself on your mistakes and your barriers around you. One step you make is a step to your goal. Yes and that's time. All you need is time. The meaning of life is the route of journey to learn about human life. Principles. Time is running out. Don't waste your time saddening or doing something silly that you shouldn't do. Life is short. But I sort of disagree with this. When life ends, a new life begins. Do you believe in reincarnation? Hope so? I believe myself. Anyway, humans tend to hide themself behind a mask. Disguised themself, not to show others their true colours, true feelings, true emotions. Just a wonder. How many mask does each one owns? That's interesting.
Sounds wise isn't it? After some words from me to him, I could see he's a little happier? Maybe. Much more relieve. But oh well, i always think that 'There's no words in the dictionary IMpossible. It's im'possible.' =) Why do we build castles in the sky?
Maturity percentage increased by 0.824812%. Okay. A little bit better.
Life is unfair. yes i agree. It's always. There's so many questions popping up from each of everyone of us. The wonders, the mysteries, the secrets and the questions that cannot be answered - Unknown X. Fated? I guessed so. But what made us think so? I don't know.
This desperate moment. I need to help him out from the dark. I can't bear to see my own friend at this kind of state. But. The question is: What am i suppose to do? There's nothing i can do at this moment. Sigh. If life is fair.. Fairly, there wasn't life. Don't you think so? Reality hurts. That's what people think. Chose to run away from reality, ended up in the dark. Knows nothing about the world at all. Live life to the fullest, reflect yourself on your mistakes and your barriers around you. One step you make is a step to your goal. Yes and that's time. All you need is time. The meaning of life is the route of journey to learn about human life. Principles. Time is running out. Don't waste your time saddening or doing something silly that you shouldn't do. Life is short. But I sort of disagree with this. When life ends, a new life begins. Do you believe in reincarnation? Hope so? I believe myself. Anyway, humans tend to hide themself behind a mask. Disguised themself, not to show others their true colours, true feelings, true emotions. Just a wonder. How many mask does each one owns? That's interesting.
Sounds wise isn't it? After some words from me to him, I could see he's a little happier? Maybe. Much more relieve. But oh well, i always think that 'There's no words in the dictionary IMpossible. It's im'possible.' =) Why do we build castles in the sky?
Maturity percentage increased by 0.824812%. Okay. A little bit better.
Bored Day
Currently Feeling* bored?
okay new layout. angel. hey. make me think of the trance Ayla - AngelFalls. Nice ok! :D~ anyway today no school because i don't have any exam today? yea and i didn't studied for POA at all! neither do my friends. i asked them. who cares. (how can you give sucha fucked up attitude to POA?) aww. but this decreases my percentage of maturity. I just now gain around 0.312908123%.. and it decrease by 0.0054234%.. and total maturity so far is 20.1261389%. think so? i'm childish. yes i admit that again. :| lol
well. today i went to town with dd. bored day indeed. i don't know why i ending up being moodless. maybe because of that notebook which i wanna buy? i wanna buy it just now but don't have money. and he say next time able to go there and buy it again. but i say wont anymore. he asked why, i didnt answer. i don't wish to answer. becuase... there won't be you when i buy it. i wish to cry. that i have you now but not in the future. but doesn't seemed stupid as if you gonna part me? just becuase that you going NS? i don't wanna say it. i might cry out. i realised im sucha weak person. aww. another -0.41237821% maturity gone. ='( im sad now... suddenly the song Air Supply - Making Love (out of nothing at all) repeat over and over in my mind.. sighs.....
ya. and its 12.30 now.. i dont think i getting to sleep so soon. POA? whats poa. sighs. sis went to china today. i be alone? nah. i have my mom. dog. grandma.. and my dad is coming soon. and oh ya. and my DD. opps. how can i forget him right? :|~ kay... just too sad to type anything now. i shed my tears just now. =( ~
okay new layout. angel. hey. make me think of the trance Ayla - AngelFalls. Nice ok! :D~ anyway today no school because i don't have any exam today? yea and i didn't studied for POA at all! neither do my friends. i asked them. who cares. (how can you give sucha fucked up attitude to POA?) aww. but this decreases my percentage of maturity. I just now gain around 0.312908123%.. and it decrease by 0.0054234%.. and total maturity so far is 20.1261389%. think so? i'm childish. yes i admit that again. :| lol
well. today i went to town with dd. bored day indeed. i don't know why i ending up being moodless. maybe because of that notebook which i wanna buy? i wanna buy it just now but don't have money. and he say next time able to go there and buy it again. but i say wont anymore. he asked why, i didnt answer. i don't wish to answer. becuase... there won't be you when i buy it. i wish to cry. that i have you now but not in the future. but doesn't seemed stupid as if you gonna part me? just becuase that you going NS? i don't wanna say it. i might cry out. i realised im sucha weak person. aww. another -0.41237821% maturity gone. ='( im sad now... suddenly the song Air Supply - Making Love (out of nothing at all) repeat over and over in my mind.. sighs.....
ya. and its 12.30 now.. i dont think i getting to sleep so soon. POA? whats poa. sighs. sis went to china today. i be alone? nah. i have my mom. dog. grandma.. and my dad is coming soon. and oh ya. and my DD. opps. how can i forget him right? :|~ kay... just too sad to type anything now. i shed my tears just now. =( ~
** Thursday, May 13, 2004 __
Currently Feeling*
bored
Haha! What's A maths? Tomorrow no exam! Finally! Free. A day off! :D Yea, they plan to go play pool in the afternoon. Hmm.. See how?
Today E maths and geog exam. Errr. Geog maybe screwed? Don't know. Don't wanna say much. Skali i say can pass i fail how. LOL. O well. 4 more exams to go. :S Im sucha dickhead. :|
I at his place now. So bored. And i didn't realised it's already almost 4pm??! He went to watch Troy without me! How dare he! >:| Haha! Bored yea. Very bored. Bintan trip next month! Hurhur. Wonder what should i buy there. Maybe get those refreshments in ferry or sort of resort thingy for betty birthday? PEANUTS. packets of peanuts? tissue? HAHA. pathetic. Yea, must save money already. Oh! BFF got go! HAHA. Lets abandon her. >:| Teeheeheee. Evil person eh? >:P.... =) =) =) =)) =)) =D =D =D =D =D haha!!! Betty and him hate this face. both are horny people.....muaahaha.. =D~
Haha! What's A maths? Tomorrow no exam! Finally! Free. A day off! :D Yea, they plan to go play pool in the afternoon. Hmm.. See how?
Today E maths and geog exam. Errr. Geog maybe screwed? Don't know. Don't wanna say much. Skali i say can pass i fail how. LOL. O well. 4 more exams to go. :S Im sucha dickhead. :|
I at his place now. So bored. And i didn't realised it's already almost 4pm??! He went to watch Troy without me! How dare he! >:| Haha! Bored yea. Very bored. Bintan trip next month! Hurhur. Wonder what should i buy there. Maybe get those refreshments in ferry or sort of resort thingy for betty birthday? PEANUTS. packets of peanuts? tissue? HAHA. pathetic. Yea, must save money already. Oh! BFF got go! HAHA. Lets abandon her. >:| Teeheeheee. Evil person eh? >:P.... =) =) =) =)) =)) =D =D =D =D =D haha!!! Betty and him hate this face. both are horny people.....muaahaha.. =D~
** Wednesday, May 12, 2004 __
Currently Feeling*
Stressed
huh?! Blogger had changed? LOL look so weird now! Hell yea. exams week! exams fever! ooh my gosh. gonna do badly this time? :| yea. finally befriends with them again but i didn't really talk to them. got nothing to say already. start from 0 friendship. :| but yea. try harder! lol.
geog exam tomorrow as well as e maths. uh huh.. today is my mom birthday! wee. she went to rebond her hair at kimage. next friday my turn. hahaha! 50% off. :P bored ah bored. i hate william. i don't know why the way he tell me to study? makes me annoyed! argh. don't know. just feeling pissed off after seeing his words. and its very! :|
just now. i had a vivid dream. i was dreaming that i was dreaming (i dreamt that i slept and i dreamt in my dream. get it?) lol! then. i can feel something is beside me! someone. out there. staring at me.. beside me.. watching me.. very scary! i tried to open my eyes but i can't. only a little. saw white lights only! then i very scared! i wanna move. but i can't. stuck there. scared that i unable to wake up anymore.. few moments i jolted awake! i could still feel the presence of the 'thing' beside me but not that strong. i realised that my dream is exactly the same scene. i was dreaming in my reality? and during english exam, i dreamt of dd. he was talking to me. teaching me how to use a equipment. i don't know whats tat anyway. but it seemed real. so real. his voice is loud. and i always take a short nap during exams, i could hear voices calling my name. female. few voices. zz. even some woman appear in my dream to teach me something or talk to me? what the hell? hahaha!
okay. i need to memorise geog. my favourate subject! please don't fail it. oh please. :P~
huh?! Blogger had changed? LOL look so weird now! Hell yea. exams week! exams fever! ooh my gosh. gonna do badly this time? :| yea. finally befriends with them again but i didn't really talk to them. got nothing to say already. start from 0 friendship. :| but yea. try harder! lol.
geog exam tomorrow as well as e maths. uh huh.. today is my mom birthday! wee. she went to rebond her hair at kimage. next friday my turn. hahaha! 50% off. :P bored ah bored. i hate william. i don't know why the way he tell me to study? makes me annoyed! argh. don't know. just feeling pissed off after seeing his words. and its very! :|
just now. i had a vivid dream. i was dreaming that i was dreaming (i dreamt that i slept and i dreamt in my dream. get it?) lol! then. i can feel something is beside me! someone. out there. staring at me.. beside me.. watching me.. very scary! i tried to open my eyes but i can't. only a little. saw white lights only! then i very scared! i wanna move. but i can't. stuck there. scared that i unable to wake up anymore.. few moments i jolted awake! i could still feel the presence of the 'thing' beside me but not that strong. i realised that my dream is exactly the same scene. i was dreaming in my reality? and during english exam, i dreamt of dd. he was talking to me. teaching me how to use a equipment. i don't know whats tat anyway. but it seemed real. so real. his voice is loud. and i always take a short nap during exams, i could hear voices calling my name. female. few voices. zz. even some woman appear in my dream to teach me something or talk to me? what the hell? hahaha!
okay. i need to memorise geog. my favourate subject! please don't fail it. oh please. :P~
** Sunday, May 09, 2004 __
Currently Feeling*
blah blah (black sheep?)
tomorrow is e maths P1 and chinese P2! ahh!!! Chinese again. I suck in it. Hope i will pass! Btw, several posts / tagboard messages are deleted. Because I see those stuff made me sick! Feeling Kiddish. Can't stand it. Haha! and yesterday i just thought of another part of 'my' philosophy. I admit I'm childish but it doesn't meant that i have not grown up. heh!
good luck to those who are taking exam yea! =)
tomorrow is e maths P1 and chinese P2! ahh!!! Chinese again. I suck in it. Hope i will pass! Btw, several posts / tagboard messages are deleted. Because I see those stuff made me sick! Feeling Kiddish. Can't stand it. Haha! and yesterday i just thought of another part of 'my' philosophy. I admit I'm childish but it doesn't meant that i have not grown up. heh!
good luck to those who are taking exam yea! =)
** Saturday, May 08, 2004 __
Currently Feeling*
enlighten? or not. grown up? or not?
I felt I'm 0.4548% grown up now. Console tw about relationship. Aw. Not again. another consolation. I think i spent my life time over 100%, i already spend my 10% consolling people? Haha! theres so much wonders in this world. 7 wonders on earth. the last 8 wonder will be ur true love.
Oh no. I said 10yrs down the road, we guys will get married already and have children! My gosh. 10 years that will be 26 for me. and 30 for him? Such a short time? OMG.I don't wanna marry @ age of 26. He so old already. LOL. I think 23/24 at the MOST. Ah! I don't know how! OMG. Panic. LOL. Man. I'm getting old! 10 years can be just 10hours! Will i still be with him? Maybe =). .Nothing gonna change my love for you
Medik and Betty say i maybe will marry him next time! Uhh. I don't know. Maybe not? Maybe yes? Everything is fated, you can't erase history nor you cant assure your future. You only able to create your future but it won't be 100% perfect or it won't happen that you wanted it to be. Life is a rollercoaster; lots of ups and downs.
Shucks. I haven't even take my O level paper and I'm now talking about marriage? How silly am i! Haha!
I felt I'm 0.4548% grown up now. Console tw about relationship. Aw. Not again. another consolation. I think i spent my life time over 100%, i already spend my 10% consolling people? Haha! theres so much wonders in this world. 7 wonders on earth. the last 8 wonder will be ur true love.
Oh no. I said 10yrs down the road, we guys will get married already and have children! My gosh. 10 years that will be 26 for me. and 30 for him? Such a short time? OMG.I don't wanna marry @ age of 26. He so old already. LOL. I think 23/24 at the MOST. Ah! I don't know how! OMG. Panic. LOL. Man. I'm getting old! 10 years can be just 10hours! Will i still be with him? Maybe =). .Nothing gonna change my love for you
Medik and Betty say i maybe will marry him next time! Uhh. I don't know. Maybe not? Maybe yes? Everything is fated, you can't erase history nor you cant assure your future. You only able to create your future but it won't be 100% perfect or it won't happen that you wanted it to be. Life is a rollercoaster; lots of ups and downs.
Shucks. I haven't even take my O level paper and I'm now talking about marriage? How silly am i! Haha!
** Friday, May 07, 2004 __
Currently Feeling*
DEPRESSED
I HATE YOU! Sighs. I'm so depress now. I'm in a lost, i don't know what am i thinking either. I reached him, in a depression state. Lying on the bed, thinking of some stuff. I don't even know i fell asleep till i woke up almost an hour later. I don't know why i love just the way you are. I don't know why all the stuff you did, I still able to tolerate. I don't know why those cold words you said, I still by your side. You hurt me ALOT ALOT. But. If i felt hurt means I still love you. Love is measured by the size of the hole in the heart. Maybe My heart is gone. Or am I stupid? So stubborn that i HAVE to stick to him for years? Or am i just blind? Love Is Blind, You Love without a reason. *cries*
Or maybe it's my fault. I spark everything first. I don't know. I dont' know what to say to him now. I told myself to contact him when he contact me first. But after 3hours+, I've not receive any word from him yet. I shouldn't have gone out with him today. Medik was right. FUNAN is UNBENIFICIAL. But. ARGH. Fuck. Wo de xin hen fan ah!
Saved Betty's relationship. If wasn't the call, nothing will be solved. Love not involves only the heart but what you need most is Courage.
Alone in the train, there is this couple, in the 20s, handsome guy and pretty girl. Working in office type? lol Living together (i heard the guy say the carrot isn't cook yet) and soooo loving. Hugging in the train so tightly. Argh. Fuck. It's always when IM DEPRESSED and made me see such stuff. Jealous!
But anyway, went to see lots of CAMERAS? And bad news is he failed his exam. =( It hurts to see him so angry and sad bout his result. Really don't know what to do to make him happy. I'm so fucking useless but why should i cheer him up anyway when someone seldom cheer you up when you are down? Instead, you got scolded that you are such a SADIST and with a LOW EQ person? ARGH. ANGRY AH. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK. I DUNNO WHY IM SUCH A IDIOT! Realllllllll idiot!!!!!!!!! Or he was the one? I DON'T KNOW! [-______-*] .dilemma.
I HATE YOU! Sighs. I'm so depress now. I'm in a lost, i don't know what am i thinking either. I reached him, in a depression state. Lying on the bed, thinking of some stuff. I don't even know i fell asleep till i woke up almost an hour later. I don't know why i love just the way you are. I don't know why all the stuff you did, I still able to tolerate. I don't know why those cold words you said, I still by your side. You hurt me ALOT ALOT. But. If i felt hurt means I still love you. Love is measured by the size of the hole in the heart. Maybe My heart is gone. Or am I stupid? So stubborn that i HAVE to stick to him for years? Or am i just blind? Love Is Blind, You Love without a reason. *cries*
Or maybe it's my fault. I spark everything first. I don't know. I dont' know what to say to him now. I told myself to contact him when he contact me first. But after 3hours+, I've not receive any word from him yet. I shouldn't have gone out with him today. Medik was right. FUNAN is UNBENIFICIAL. But. ARGH. Fuck. Wo de xin hen fan ah!
Saved Betty's relationship. If wasn't the call, nothing will be solved. Love not involves only the heart but what you need most is Courage.
Alone in the train, there is this couple, in the 20s, handsome guy and pretty girl. Working in office type? lol Living together (i heard the guy say the carrot isn't cook yet) and soooo loving. Hugging in the train so tightly. Argh. Fuck. It's always when IM DEPRESSED and made me see such stuff. Jealous!
But anyway, went to see lots of CAMERAS? And bad news is he failed his exam. =( It hurts to see him so angry and sad bout his result. Really don't know what to do to make him happy. I'm so fucking useless but why should i cheer him up anyway when someone seldom cheer you up when you are down? Instead, you got scolded that you are such a SADIST and with a LOW EQ person? ARGH. ANGRY AH. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK. I DUNNO WHY IM SUCH A IDIOT! Realllllllll idiot!!!!!!!!! Or he was the one? I DON'T KNOW! [-______-*] .dilemma.
** Thursday, May 06, 2004 __
Currently Feeling*
bahaa!
haha. PETALS AROUND THE ROSE [Click it for those who haven't try it] .. :P yea. today 6th May! Time really really flies. 1 month gone since the last time i said '6th April' ? Happy 1year10mths Anniversary to you, Deedee! Yea. Didn;t get to meet him today because we threesome [Betty,Medik and Me!] We went to airport and study social studies. Yea.
My Future-Brother-In-Law [my sis bf] gave ma some riddles! damn lame! hahaha! maybe will share with you all some time! bored. waiting for dear to reply in msn. :D~ misss yaaaaaaa
haha. PETALS AROUND THE ROSE [Click it for those who haven't try it] .. :P yea. today 6th May! Time really really flies. 1 month gone since the last time i said '6th April' ? Happy 1year10mths Anniversary to you, Deedee! Yea. Didn;t get to meet him today because we threesome [Betty,Medik and Me!] We went to airport and study social studies. Yea.
My Future-Brother-In-Law [my sis bf] gave ma some riddles! damn lame! hahaha! maybe will share with you all some time! bored. waiting for dear to reply in msn. :D~ misss yaaaaaaa
** Tuesday, May 04, 2004 __
Currently Feeling*
bored
Damn. I'm so bored at home! I didn't go to school today again because i found out my right eye is sore. Told mommy about it and went back to sleep. Grr. He went to SP for lunar eclipse event. 100% back at night. If not, how to see the moon! Haha! Rotting. I been stuck in my mothers room after i woke up at around 12noon+. I did those questions that my peepz in class did today as well as those questions they suppose to do which i missed out the class late week. Uhh. I did them till.. almost died? lol! sick of maths.
Oh yea, no infocus yesterday! We finished at 2.50pm. Immediately, i rush to dd house. Wee! More hours to 'play' there. lol! Oh. And i just knew my weak part of getting horny! Hey that bastard. He has a good tongue. :) After all those 'playing', i didn't know i fell into a slumber. After 1hr+, i jolted awake! Kinda blur while looking at the clock. As his clock is always 15min faster (both of them - so he will thought that he is late and get out of bed faster), i took my whole minute to calculate what time excually was. Man. I was having a hard time of calculating it! Mind hasn't awake yet. And then.. 'HOLY SHIT IM LATE FOR HOME?!' Hey, i reminded myself that i need to reach SK at 6.30pm cuz my mom have to fetch me there.
Shuffled my leg across the room, went to check my phone and saw a miss call from Home. and i wondered 'Isn't mom at office? Why at home?' But who cares, i bugg dd to stop watching his anime KARTOON. (uhh.) and send me to the bustop. Ya. And reached SK, MOM DIDNT GO WORK! HEY. SHE'S SLACKING! =X O well. reached home and went to rush all my Chinese TYS. Grr. And then watch TV? I scratched my eye when my hands are oily and it's fuking pain! Went to sleep and the next morning. . .
'O MAN. MY EYE STILL HURTS!' *Looked into the mirror* 'OMG. RED? SMALL?! DONT WANNA GO SCHOOL!' Yea, and that's the story why i didn't go school. LOL. Uh-huh. And chatted to Lyncia in irc. Nothing much, except intensive E-Maths revision. Did around 50+ questions. Ok. Not that little not too much. Was about to study physics and saw dd's msg to me that he going to SP. And then saw medik online. Hur. Slackening. Kay. BYE! ~.~
Damn. I'm so bored at home! I didn't go to school today again because i found out my right eye is sore. Told mommy about it and went back to sleep. Grr. He went to SP for lunar eclipse event. 100% back at night. If not, how to see the moon! Haha! Rotting. I been stuck in my mothers room after i woke up at around 12noon+. I did those questions that my peepz in class did today as well as those questions they suppose to do which i missed out the class late week. Uhh. I did them till.. almost died? lol! sick of maths.
Oh yea, no infocus yesterday! We finished at 2.50pm. Immediately, i rush to dd house. Wee! More hours to 'play' there. lol! Oh. And i just knew my weak part of getting horny! Hey that bastard. He has a good tongue. :) After all those 'playing', i didn't know i fell into a slumber. After 1hr+, i jolted awake! Kinda blur while looking at the clock. As his clock is always 15min faster (both of them - so he will thought that he is late and get out of bed faster), i took my whole minute to calculate what time excually was. Man. I was having a hard time of calculating it! Mind hasn't awake yet. And then.. 'HOLY SHIT IM LATE FOR HOME?!' Hey, i reminded myself that i need to reach SK at 6.30pm cuz my mom have to fetch me there.
Shuffled my leg across the room, went to check my phone and saw a miss call from Home. and i wondered 'Isn't mom at office? Why at home?' But who cares, i bugg dd to stop watching his anime KARTOON. (uhh.) and send me to the bustop. Ya. And reached SK, MOM DIDNT GO WORK! HEY. SHE'S SLACKING! =X O well. reached home and went to rush all my Chinese TYS. Grr. And then watch TV? I scratched my eye when my hands are oily and it's fuking pain! Went to sleep and the next morning. . .
'O MAN. MY EYE STILL HURTS!' *Looked into the mirror* 'OMG. RED? SMALL?! DONT WANNA GO SCHOOL!' Yea, and that's the story why i didn't go school. LOL. Uh-huh. And chatted to Lyncia in irc. Nothing much, except intensive E-Maths revision. Did around 50+ questions. Ok. Not that little not too much. Was about to study physics and saw dd's msg to me that he going to SP. And then saw medik online. Hur. Slackening. Kay. BYE! ~.~
** Sunday, May 02, 2004 __
Currently Feeling*
still love sick
argh! don't know why i can't stop thinking bout him! after since that monday! -__- well. this song is for you, deedee! :)
Words
#Words can't say how much I love you
Words can't say how much I care
I need you n I need your love
like I need to breathe the air
*if you come close
and hold me tight
you feel the heart
that beats for you
and if you dear
could read my mind
oh you would know
my love is true
#
**faith and trust
give both a try
so you will see
that is the key
I swear true love
will never die
so please believe
in you and me
#
Yea. And The Song that mades me think of you everytime.
Love Is Love
Love is love and love is everything
Love is love is when you're by my side
Love is love and love is not enough
A little voice inside the cries
C'mon my friend forget your pride
You need someone to help you come and hide
To get away from this fatal flight
C'mon my friend don't let me out of sight
Love is love it's love everytime
Far away we can feel alright
Love is love love is everything
I believe in love forever with you
Love is love and love's our daily bread
Love is love can't get it out of my head
Love is love is nothing without you
Love is love is everything you do
C'mon my friend forget your pride
You need someone to help you come and hide
To get away from this fatal flight
C'mon my friend don't let me out of sight
Love is love it's love everytime
Far away we can feel allright
Love is love love is everything
I believe in love forever with you
Don't know why all Paps'n'Skar songs made me think of you. sighs.
argh! don't know why i can't stop thinking bout him! after since that monday! -__- well. this song is for you, deedee! :)
Words
#Words can't say how much I love you
Words can't say how much I care
I need you n I need your love
like I need to breathe the air
*if you come close
and hold me tight
you feel the heart
that beats for you
and if you dear
could read my mind
oh you would know
my love is true
#
**faith and trust
give both a try
so you will see
that is the key
I swear true love
will never die
so please believe
in you and me
#
Yea. And The Song that mades me think of you everytime.
Love Is Love
Love is love and love is everything
Love is love is when you're by my side
Love is love and love is not enough
A little voice inside the cries
C'mon my friend forget your pride
You need someone to help you come and hide
To get away from this fatal flight
C'mon my friend don't let me out of sight
Love is love it's love everytime
Far away we can feel alright
Love is love love is everything
I believe in love forever with you
Love is love and love's our daily bread
Love is love can't get it out of my head
Love is love is nothing without you
Love is love is everything you do
C'mon my friend forget your pride
You need someone to help you come and hide
To get away from this fatal flight
C'mon my friend don't let me out of sight
Love is love it's love everytime
Far away we can feel allright
Love is love love is everything
I believe in love forever with you
Don't know why all Paps'n'Skar songs made me think of you. sighs.
** Saturday, May 01, 2004 __
Currently Feeling*
lovesick?
awww! I miss him lots! Darn it. Miss him until i feel like want to make love. LOL. Shyt. Hate this feeling. haha! well. today, my flu got worst in the afternoon. But soon it gets better :) I been slacking the whole day! and yea. New table coming up. SnapShots. :) Anything that i receive from friends about my life and other craps and stuff taken in webcam will be posted! :D As for the misc. , i maybe will add on latest events coming up like ad post or mp3s, or whatever! anything i wish! :P nothing to post today anyway. just wanna say...
I LOVE DEEDEE. :P
yea. no words can describe how much i love you. :) miss ya!
awww! I miss him lots! Darn it. Miss him until i feel like want to make love. LOL. Shyt. Hate this feeling. haha! well. today, my flu got worst in the afternoon. But soon it gets better :) I been slacking the whole day! and yea. New table coming up. SnapShots. :) Anything that i receive from friends about my life and other craps and stuff taken in webcam will be posted! :D As for the misc. , i maybe will add on latest events coming up like ad post or mp3s, or whatever! anything i wish! :P nothing to post today anyway. just wanna say...
I LOVE DEEDEE. :P
yea. no words can describe how much i love you. :) miss ya!