** Monday, March 28, 2005 __
Currently Feeling*
cold.
Brr. The fan is blowing directly at me. Weet. At my dee's place now. Time real flies when I sit infront of his computer. I just set up the stuff i wanna surprise him. Yea. Hopefully it dont screwed up so fast. >< Just planning to add more stuff to it.
So bored! I played the PS2 just now. Don't feel lk playing anymore. Don't know why. Argh. My stomach hurts man. Feeling dizzy. Don't know why too.
Heh. I fall in love with the song Guang Liang - Tian Tang. So nice~ >< Hehe.
Argh. Damn bored. OF cuz. Alone in his place! Zzz. No one to chat to. Also dunno wad to do. Lazy to cook. Lazy to eat. Lazy ah. Damn lazy ah! So swey man. My DeAE application Incomplete = rejected. Damn! Lazy to go ask or reapply again. Sigh.
Sis coming back today. I think I will get beheaded by her when she reaches home cuz the room is in a mess! Time really flies when she's isnt in SG. zz.
Prepare to die.
Brr. The fan is blowing directly at me. Weet. At my dee's place now. Time real flies when I sit infront of his computer. I just set up the stuff i wanna surprise him. Yea. Hopefully it dont screwed up so fast. >< Just planning to add more stuff to it.
So bored! I played the PS2 just now. Don't feel lk playing anymore. Don't know why. Argh. My stomach hurts man. Feeling dizzy. Don't know why too.
Heh. I fall in love with the song Guang Liang - Tian Tang. So nice~ >< Hehe.
Argh. Damn bored. OF cuz. Alone in his place! Zzz. No one to chat to. Also dunno wad to do. Lazy to cook. Lazy to eat. Lazy ah. Damn lazy ah! So swey man. My DeAE application Incomplete = rejected. Damn! Lazy to go ask or reapply again. Sigh.
Sis coming back today. I think I will get beheaded by her when she reaches home cuz the room is in a mess! Time really flies when she's isnt in SG. zz.
Prepare to die.
** Friday, March 25, 2005 __
Currently Feeling*
Burpy.
Alright alright. I just ate Orion's Choco.Pie. Made in Korea? It's a small cake with chocolate coating and cake inbetween. In the middle, there's white marshmellow for you to chew on. Simply nice. Simply delicious.
I wasn't at home for the past 2.5days. Ya. Went to Coasta Sands DTE chalet. First day, quite boring. We're slacking in the chalet. I sort of forgot to bring my charger, 2pin plugs, CD? Took a bus to Tampines to Dee's place and take them. I went into the house. No one at home. Hmm. Sneak in and sneak out and walked to TM to develop some stuff. Waited for 1hour, Medick came to find me. Walked around and we went to the chalet together.
Ate muslim food. Hokkien mee. -_- Accompanied Ivy, Zhenhao's gf, home with Eug,ZH and PC. I didn't know she stay the same condo as Tiara! Went to take a bus back to Pasir Ris. Ate Desserts because I'm stressed. Haha! Just kidding. Caught a ladybug on my bag which is not a ladybug but a ladybug. lol. Went 7-11. Collected lots of Helook Kitty magnets. FOR MY SIS. ;x Went back chalet again.
At night, walked out to the beach there. The sea is TOO calm. No wind. So hot. Went back instead to SLEEP.
Next day, woke up. They kept on laughing and laughing till I wake up? Bathed. Changed. Went TP to appeal. Saw MeiYing, Jeanie, QiuXia, Valarie there. Oh ya. Thanks Eugene for your accompany to there + the taxi fare. (Don't take the wrong bus!)
Went back chalet by cab becuase we are too lazy to wait for bus and walk + cross the roads. Slack in chalet till evening. We went down for BBQ. Halfway thru Dee came. Booked out early during nights out.
Around 2300hr, took a bus to his place. Overnight.
Next day, woke up at 11am. Played PS2 till they(he and his mom) came home cuz they went out early in the morning. Went to take a cab to Airport. His mom going overseas.
Took train to Lavander to CIS building. He forgot to take something for his Oath Taking. Too bad. Try again next time. For the third time. =x
Walked to Beach Rd. I made ID Tags there. Hehe. Then took train back to Tamp to buy PS2 game. Bought 3 games. Went back to his place to play. I played Kingdom Hearts. So cute! A game with a mixture of Disney characters and Final Fantasy. So far got characters from FF7-10. Yea. Quite cute and fun anyway. Another RPG game. ^^,
Played till 2200+hr, mom came to fetch me back. Yea. Feel so happy. Don't know why. Feel so great to be at home too. Sis is going to China from tomorrow onwards till Monday Evening. Hur.
Tomorrow I gotta reach Douby Ghaut by 0930hr for my Windies Movie Gathering then 1pm reach HG MRT to goto Josephine House for gathering again. Probably meeting dee? Hmm. Saturday YCF training 1500-1800 at Soka Kindergarten. Might meet dee after that. Sunday grandma's birthday.
Yea. Thats all. My plans. Cya!
Alright alright. I just ate Orion's Choco.Pie. Made in Korea? It's a small cake with chocolate coating and cake inbetween. In the middle, there's white marshmellow for you to chew on. Simply nice. Simply delicious.
I wasn't at home for the past 2.5days. Ya. Went to Coasta Sands DTE chalet. First day, quite boring. We're slacking in the chalet. I sort of forgot to bring my charger, 2pin plugs, CD? Took a bus to Tampines to Dee's place and take them. I went into the house. No one at home. Hmm. Sneak in and sneak out and walked to TM to develop some stuff. Waited for 1hour, Medick came to find me. Walked around and we went to the chalet together.
Ate muslim food. Hokkien mee. -_- Accompanied Ivy, Zhenhao's gf, home with Eug,ZH and PC. I didn't know she stay the same condo as Tiara! Went to take a bus back to Pasir Ris. Ate Desserts because I'm stressed. Haha! Just kidding. Caught a ladybug on my bag which is not a ladybug but a ladybug. lol. Went 7-11. Collected lots of Helook Kitty magnets. FOR MY SIS. ;x Went back chalet again.
At night, walked out to the beach there. The sea is TOO calm. No wind. So hot. Went back instead to SLEEP.
Next day, woke up. They kept on laughing and laughing till I wake up? Bathed. Changed. Went TP to appeal. Saw MeiYing, Jeanie, QiuXia, Valarie there. Oh ya. Thanks Eugene for your accompany to there + the taxi fare. (Don't take the wrong bus!)
Went back chalet by cab becuase we are too lazy to wait for bus and walk + cross the roads. Slack in chalet till evening. We went down for BBQ. Halfway thru Dee came. Booked out early during nights out.
Around 2300hr, took a bus to his place. Overnight.
Next day, woke up at 11am. Played PS2 till they(he and his mom) came home cuz they went out early in the morning. Went to take a cab to Airport. His mom going overseas.
Took train to Lavander to CIS building. He forgot to take something for his Oath Taking. Too bad. Try again next time. For the third time. =x
Walked to Beach Rd. I made ID Tags there. Hehe. Then took train back to Tamp to buy PS2 game. Bought 3 games. Went back to his place to play. I played Kingdom Hearts. So cute! A game with a mixture of Disney characters and Final Fantasy. So far got characters from FF7-10. Yea. Quite cute and fun anyway. Another RPG game. ^^,
Played till 2200+hr, mom came to fetch me back. Yea. Feel so happy. Don't know why. Feel so great to be at home too. Sis is going to China from tomorrow onwards till Monday Evening. Hur.
Tomorrow I gotta reach Douby Ghaut by 0930hr for my Windies Movie Gathering then 1pm reach HG MRT to goto Josephine House for gathering again. Probably meeting dee? Hmm. Saturday YCF training 1500-1800 at Soka Kindergarten. Might meet dee after that. Sunday grandma's birthday.
Yea. Thats all. My plans. Cya!
** Monday, March 21, 2005 __
Currently Feeling*
hungry
Friday 18
last updated in mom's office. okay. met my chingay khakis at raffles. went to watch hua chang concert bah. very nice. now it makes me love going for such concerts. simply love art. art can be any form. drawings, paintings, flims, videos, dances, adult..... erm. where am i thinking.
went to eat at lao pa sat after the concert with thiam hong, shiting, claudia and jaymie. thanks thiam hong for the treat again. you're the best, lao da!
managed to catch the last train. if not i gonna spend my money for cab + midnight charges! lol. saving money now.
saturday 19
woke up at 9am. went to tamp. met dee for breakfast at MB. mb = marrybrown? nah i call it megabyte. 'may i have your order please?' 'erm. is there microchips here?' opps. out of point again. sorry.
went to dee place after that. played ps2. simply addicted to the fullmetal alchemist game. play till evening. went to take a shower. meet his mom at tamp cafe cartel for dinner. mm. not bad. took bus 27 back.
watched air epi 2-7. the story is getting better. not bad. to me. maybe not to you i guessed.
sunday 20
went to syc for ycf. sis joined in. hurray! told jianli that i will meet him at 4pm+ at sscc for DIAL(daisaku ikeda annual lecture). went amk for lunch. then went home. first thing = sleep. real tired. slept for an hour. prep to go tamp, sscc.
i dragged mom in. saw several people. geraldine, lotus, huimin etc. lecture.. i almost fall asleep. not bad anyway. learnt something from there. about cosmopolis bah. civilisation. political stuff. talk given by dr. . what.. er tehranian? from uni. of hawaii etc etc. i forgot everything anyway.
finished around 7pm+. went dee place. see him play fullmetal till 8pm. accompanied him fm tamp all the way to boonlay. then i took the train back to outram and take the train to kovan. (im such a good gf. rofl) met mom n sis there. went back home.
watched fullmetal, air and dl-ed anime called mai hime(my hime). wanna try bah. ((:
im waiting for bleach 24! )): soul society.. lol.
OK. bye! hungry. brr.
Friday 18
last updated in mom's office. okay. met my chingay khakis at raffles. went to watch hua chang concert bah. very nice. now it makes me love going for such concerts. simply love art. art can be any form. drawings, paintings, flims, videos, dances, adult..... erm. where am i thinking.
went to eat at lao pa sat after the concert with thiam hong, shiting, claudia and jaymie. thanks thiam hong for the treat again. you're the best, lao da!
managed to catch the last train. if not i gonna spend my money for cab + midnight charges! lol. saving money now.
saturday 19
woke up at 9am. went to tamp. met dee for breakfast at MB. mb = marrybrown? nah i call it megabyte. 'may i have your order please?' 'erm. is there microchips here?' opps. out of point again. sorry.
went to dee place after that. played ps2. simply addicted to the fullmetal alchemist game. play till evening. went to take a shower. meet his mom at tamp cafe cartel for dinner. mm. not bad. took bus 27 back.
watched air epi 2-7. the story is getting better. not bad. to me. maybe not to you i guessed.
sunday 20
went to syc for ycf. sis joined in. hurray! told jianli that i will meet him at 4pm+ at sscc for DIAL(daisaku ikeda annual lecture). went amk for lunch. then went home. first thing = sleep. real tired. slept for an hour. prep to go tamp, sscc.
i dragged mom in. saw several people. geraldine, lotus, huimin etc. lecture.. i almost fall asleep. not bad anyway. learnt something from there. about cosmopolis bah. civilisation. political stuff. talk given by dr. . what.. er tehranian? from uni. of hawaii etc etc. i forgot everything anyway.
finished around 7pm+. went dee place. see him play fullmetal till 8pm. accompanied him fm tamp all the way to boonlay. then i took the train back to outram and take the train to kovan. (im such a good gf. rofl) met mom n sis there. went back home.
watched fullmetal, air and dl-ed anime called mai hime(my hime). wanna try bah. ((:
im waiting for bleach 24! )): soul society.. lol.
OK. bye! hungry. brr.
** Friday, March 18, 2005 __
Currently Feeling*
Yawns
Currently I'm in my mother's workplace.
Yeap. I just received the 200 bucks scholarship award. 200 bucks. Better than nothing. My mom kept introducing me to almost all her friends! So irritating! Yeap. I could recognise some of the familiar faces.
The office was once my childhood 'playgroup' every Saturday when I was in Primary school. Heh. I remembered I ever help my mom to do filing and office stuff when I was young. No wages? Boohoo.
Oh damn. My mom's keyboard is so lousy. Having a hard time typing this.
Bored. I gonna stuck here till 1830hrs. Waiting for my dad to fetch me to the MRT and I gonna meet my Chingay Khakis to my chingay friend's concert. Yeaps. Wore kind of formal but not really formal. Smart casual but more to the formal side. Very smart casual? (laughs) Right.
I had an animation marathon the day before and yesterday. Watched Bleach episodes 1-20. Downloaded Bleach 21-23. Watched FullMetal Alchemist episodes 7 and 8. I couldn't understand everything because the language is in Japanese and the subtitles are in Chinese. My chinese suck and the subtitle goes off so fast. I couldn't catch up! Damn it. Oh and I downloaded an animation called Air. What is it about? Anyhow ah. ((:
Tomorrow we(Dee and I) gonna buy new PS2 games. Booboo. ((:
Ok. Mom watching. Muhaha. BYE!
Currently I'm in my mother's workplace.
Yeap. I just received the 200 bucks scholarship award. 200 bucks. Better than nothing. My mom kept introducing me to almost all her friends! So irritating! Yeap. I could recognise some of the familiar faces.
The office was once my childhood 'playgroup' every Saturday when I was in Primary school. Heh. I remembered I ever help my mom to do filing and office stuff when I was young. No wages? Boohoo.
Oh damn. My mom's keyboard is so lousy. Having a hard time typing this.
Bored. I gonna stuck here till 1830hrs. Waiting for my dad to fetch me to the MRT and I gonna meet my Chingay Khakis to my chingay friend's concert. Yeaps. Wore kind of formal but not really formal. Smart casual but more to the formal side. Very smart casual? (laughs) Right.
I had an animation marathon the day before and yesterday. Watched Bleach episodes 1-20. Downloaded Bleach 21-23. Watched FullMetal Alchemist episodes 7 and 8. I couldn't understand everything because the language is in Japanese and the subtitles are in Chinese. My chinese suck and the subtitle goes off so fast. I couldn't catch up! Damn it. Oh and I downloaded an animation called Air. What is it about? Anyhow ah. ((:
Tomorrow we(Dee and I) gonna buy new PS2 games. Booboo. ((:
Ok. Mom watching. Muhaha. BYE!
** Thursday, March 17, 2005 __
Currently Feeling*
phew~
I'm back. I mean I'm back to reality. I just had a very very very long story dream. I immediately log into blogger to blog down my dream because I know I will forget and I want to know. Here goes:
I can't remember clearly what's happening. Everything was so vague. I was suppose to attend a school or something. Everyone were so weird. Everyone of them are in their middle ages. I'm the youngest. I met several women. They are nice but somehow wicked. Treating me badly. I don't know what happen or what, the school turns into a shopping centre. I was lost in there. I don't know where I wandered to. (I can't remember this part - Real Long story. I shall skip this part.)
I met a man. A real nice man. Fit. Tall. Strong. There were several generals, soldiers wanted to catch us for something. Or there was 'something' trying to take us away. We suddenly went back to that school. They got rooms in it actually. When the clock strikes at a certain time, everything have to lock the windows, the doors off the lights. If not, you have to prepare to escape or face the challenge with the 'someone'.
I was with a few women and the man in a room. Yes. It's happening. The 'something' is coming. I tried to closed the door. I couldn't! It was stuck. We were desperately escaping and running away from 'it'. The women were real wicked. They opened the window and the backdoor and escaped and lock me and that man inside. That man tried to open the back door. The front door can't hold any longer. It's coming in. The man called me to escape first and he will come later. He came behind me. There were guards around. I tried to escape without entering their POV(Point of View) Area - The story sounds like I'm in the game. Unfortunately, the guards saw me. The man pushed me and ask me to run as far as I could. He actually sacrifised his life for me. I ran away and met another man. Quite fat. Short. Totally different from the other man. I told him what happened before. He seemed to know about this case. (I don't know what happen again - Skip this part)
We were back into the same old room again. The women were still in there. We were talking halfway and suddenly the women sensed the 'something' is coming again. They escaped so quickly! I was desperatly closing that damn door. I asked that man to pack our stuff first. I look out of the window. I saw several long haired women with white clothes crawling out from the pond below(looks exactly like sadako). I was real scared. One is that 'something' the other is the 'sadako'. What's going on man! I went to close the door. Can't. It kept on open. I called the man to close for me. He just pushed it tightly and it's done. How weak am I.
We quickly rushed to the bed and switch off all the lights but it seemed that there were many lights on the table! I switched one off and there's always one left. Finally, I managed to switch all off but it was too late. It had lured the 'something' here. We had no choice but to escape then. The man told me to escape first ask me not to come back here again and he will handle this himself. I ran out of the back door. I saw guards went to the other side. I sneaked to the right. Saw several guards. They saw me but I just act that I'm one of the public. They couln't recognise me. I walked slowly. Several guard dogs were HUGE. The place is so peaceful. Everyone is fishing, laughing away.. It's been a long time I ever see such a scene.
I walked under a row of fishing rods and the sky turns dark now. I got a phone call. From Jenny. I don't know why she suddenly call me?! She told me something but I just couldn't her what she's talking. I just 'yaya. ok. err. mm.' (laughs). Then I walked under this building. It started to rain. Real cold. Alone. Walking down a stairs. My phone rang again. I picked up. It sounds familar. It's dee?! OMG. WHY IS HE IN MY DREAM?! TOTALLY OUT OF POINT. (laughs!) He told me something that I could still remember now. He said 'Thank You'. I asked 'Thank you for?' He said 'Saving my life' I was thinking.. Did i ever save him? Weird. But soon my phone's batt went flat. Our lines cut and I was sent to reality.
(IN REALITY) I opened my eyes. OMG. What did I dream!?. We kept on escaping and running. I'm at home. I'm finally at home. I feel so good to be at home. You know? It seems to be like away from home for many weeks and I'm here on the bed. So real.
Yea. I've been dreaming things about 'Escaping' and 'Searching'. What does this mean? Can anyone enlighten me? I'm so called a 'Dreamer' who knows a lot of dreams and dreams fantastic dreams till like story teller among my friends. Maybe because last night I watched the animation 'Bleach'. Haha. Probably.
Guess what? I'm able to get from my mom's ST UNION award. 200bucks. I'm broke and it saved my life now! Just nice. Everything just falls in place but not for long. Sighs.
It's gonna be 1pm now. I took 30+min to type all these. )): Okay. Blog other time. It's a dream journal for today. (smiles)
I'm back. I mean I'm back to reality. I just had a very very very long story dream. I immediately log into blogger to blog down my dream because I know I will forget and I want to know. Here goes:
I can't remember clearly what's happening. Everything was so vague. I was suppose to attend a school or something. Everyone were so weird. Everyone of them are in their middle ages. I'm the youngest. I met several women. They are nice but somehow wicked. Treating me badly. I don't know what happen or what, the school turns into a shopping centre. I was lost in there. I don't know where I wandered to. (I can't remember this part - Real Long story. I shall skip this part.)
I met a man. A real nice man. Fit. Tall. Strong. There were several generals, soldiers wanted to catch us for something. Or there was 'something' trying to take us away. We suddenly went back to that school. They got rooms in it actually. When the clock strikes at a certain time, everything have to lock the windows, the doors off the lights. If not, you have to prepare to escape or face the challenge with the 'someone'.
I was with a few women and the man in a room. Yes. It's happening. The 'something' is coming. I tried to closed the door. I couldn't! It was stuck. We were desperately escaping and running away from 'it'. The women were real wicked. They opened the window and the backdoor and escaped and lock me and that man inside. That man tried to open the back door. The front door can't hold any longer. It's coming in. The man called me to escape first and he will come later. He came behind me. There were guards around. I tried to escape without entering their POV(Point of View) Area - The story sounds like I'm in the game. Unfortunately, the guards saw me. The man pushed me and ask me to run as far as I could. He actually sacrifised his life for me. I ran away and met another man. Quite fat. Short. Totally different from the other man. I told him what happened before. He seemed to know about this case. (I don't know what happen again - Skip this part)
We were back into the same old room again. The women were still in there. We were talking halfway and suddenly the women sensed the 'something' is coming again. They escaped so quickly! I was desperatly closing that damn door. I asked that man to pack our stuff first. I look out of the window. I saw several long haired women with white clothes crawling out from the pond below(looks exactly like sadako). I was real scared. One is that 'something' the other is the 'sadako'. What's going on man! I went to close the door. Can't. It kept on open. I called the man to close for me. He just pushed it tightly and it's done. How weak am I.
We quickly rushed to the bed and switch off all the lights but it seemed that there were many lights on the table! I switched one off and there's always one left. Finally, I managed to switch all off but it was too late. It had lured the 'something' here. We had no choice but to escape then. The man told me to escape first ask me not to come back here again and he will handle this himself. I ran out of the back door. I saw guards went to the other side. I sneaked to the right. Saw several guards. They saw me but I just act that I'm one of the public. They couln't recognise me. I walked slowly. Several guard dogs were HUGE. The place is so peaceful. Everyone is fishing, laughing away.. It's been a long time I ever see such a scene.
I walked under a row of fishing rods and the sky turns dark now. I got a phone call. From Jenny. I don't know why she suddenly call me?! She told me something but I just couldn't her what she's talking. I just 'yaya. ok. err. mm.' (laughs). Then I walked under this building. It started to rain. Real cold. Alone. Walking down a stairs. My phone rang again. I picked up. It sounds familar. It's dee?! OMG. WHY IS HE IN MY DREAM?! TOTALLY OUT OF POINT. (laughs!) He told me something that I could still remember now. He said 'Thank You'. I asked 'Thank you for?' He said 'Saving my life' I was thinking.. Did i ever save him? Weird. But soon my phone's batt went flat. Our lines cut and I was sent to reality.
(IN REALITY) I opened my eyes. OMG. What did I dream!?. We kept on escaping and running. I'm at home. I'm finally at home. I feel so good to be at home. You know? It seems to be like away from home for many weeks and I'm here on the bed. So real.
Yea. I've been dreaming things about 'Escaping' and 'Searching'. What does this mean? Can anyone enlighten me? I'm so called a 'Dreamer' who knows a lot of dreams and dreams fantastic dreams till like story teller among my friends. Maybe because last night I watched the animation 'Bleach'. Haha. Probably.
Guess what? I'm able to get from my mom's ST UNION award. 200bucks. I'm broke and it saved my life now! Just nice. Everything just falls in place but not for long. Sighs.
It's gonna be 1pm now. I took 30+min to type all these. )): Okay. Blog other time. It's a dream journal for today. (smiles)
** Wednesday, March 16, 2005 __
Currently Feeling*
zz..
Holy crap. My gastric sort of come back again? Slight. Not major. I ate one gastric pill. Didn't work. Ate another one again, which not supposed to. *yawn* Real sleepy. Slept around 7hours plus. I suppose to goto Tampines to meet ZH to collect the chalet deposit money. I didn't think that he can actually bank transfer to me and I can save my transport fee all the way to Tampines! How silly! My sis reminded me this method and oh it saved my life.
Feeling kind giddy today. I don't know why. Nausea. Brr.. Sis took half a day off from work to do her school assignment. Irritater. Kept saying me pig. Hmm.. What's next? Feeling chill now. Whats up with me man or was this the side effect of the painkiller which I ate 2days back? I always have such problems when I eat painkillers. Geesh.
Dee and I quarrelled because I bought another bag. I was told not to buy another bag in 6 mths but I just broke it in 1 week time! Couldn't resist myself. From now onwards, I think I wanna collect more Rootote bags.(Dee, don't give any negative comments to dishearten me okay? I don't want any of your those comments! Argh!) They are so cool man. Never sick of it. Especially some designs. So simple yet nice. So cheap yet good.
Anyway Dee. If you see this.. I'm sorry. I know it's my fault but you shouldn't blame it on yourself. The promise was broken by me not you and why do you still have to say that you still promised that you will give the best to me? It's so unfair. I just don't understand why there's such nice person to take the blame for everything. But I'm sorry. I'm feeling kind of guilty. Even you asked me to forget this incident and it's just a small matter. I'm still guilty. Because you said I didn't made a promise. I always break it. Sigh. I'm such a failure. Dui bu qi. .. Thanks for everything. Love ya..
Okay. Enough of that mushiness. I don't think anyone out there can stand this. (laughs) I'm SO BORED. Sighs. Sick of holidays. Can I start school now? CAN I CAN I?! ((:
Holy crap. My gastric sort of come back again? Slight. Not major. I ate one gastric pill. Didn't work. Ate another one again, which not supposed to. *yawn* Real sleepy. Slept around 7hours plus. I suppose to goto Tampines to meet ZH to collect the chalet deposit money. I didn't think that he can actually bank transfer to me and I can save my transport fee all the way to Tampines! How silly! My sis reminded me this method and oh it saved my life.
Feeling kind giddy today. I don't know why. Nausea. Brr.. Sis took half a day off from work to do her school assignment. Irritater. Kept saying me pig. Hmm.. What's next? Feeling chill now. Whats up with me man or was this the side effect of the painkiller which I ate 2days back? I always have such problems when I eat painkillers. Geesh.
Dee and I quarrelled because I bought another bag. I was told not to buy another bag in 6 mths but I just broke it in 1 week time! Couldn't resist myself. From now onwards, I think I wanna collect more Rootote bags.(Dee, don't give any negative comments to dishearten me okay? I don't want any of your those comments! Argh!) They are so cool man. Never sick of it. Especially some designs. So simple yet nice. So cheap yet good.
Anyway Dee. If you see this.. I'm sorry. I know it's my fault but you shouldn't blame it on yourself. The promise was broken by me not you and why do you still have to say that you still promised that you will give the best to me? It's so unfair. I just don't understand why there's such nice person to take the blame for everything. But I'm sorry. I'm feeling kind of guilty. Even you asked me to forget this incident and it's just a small matter. I'm still guilty. Because you said I didn't made a promise. I always break it. Sigh. I'm such a failure. Dui bu qi. .. Thanks for everything. Love ya..
Okay. Enough of that mushiness. I don't think anyone out there can stand this. (laughs) I'm SO BORED. Sighs. Sick of holidays. Can I start school now? CAN I CAN I?! ((:
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Hmm. I would like to update the stuff I did for the past few days.
Sunday 13th 2005
I had my YCF training. I went to the wrong place. I went to TBSC instead of SYC. Called mom and ask her re-fetch me over. Training is boring. All windies isn't there. Except for Yu Siang and Vitya. Real bored. There was a mosquito bit my ankle. Till know it still itch! Dang.
Took a bus to Harbourfront. Met Dee outside the PetShop. The flawless guy isn't there anymore I guessed. Sighs. Went to take a train to D.G. We took several snapshots in the train. Rather spastic. Walked to Parklane and ate at MacDonalds. Waited for Florence to come. Went to play pool for a few hours. Walked past this shop, the flyers girl gave me a flyer. It's about some phones. I took a look at the numbers. 0706 at the back. COOL. That's what I wanted. Told dee, walked back to the shop. The number was still available. Bought a second hand samsung phone + new line. Florence bought e700a to replace her old phone. Thanks Dee for delicating this line for me.
Walked to PS. Went to eat at Gelare Cafe for the second time that week. I'm getting fat if I continue this way! The previous week I ate once. Took a bus and slept halfway thru. Woke up and it's at Tampines. Went back Dee's place. Played FullMetal Alchemist while Dee was eating dinner with his mom. 8am went out of house. Took a train and accompanied him till Outram MRT. I switched to NEL to Hg. Went back home.
Monday 14th 2005
Stuck at home. I slept from 1am+ till almost 5pm. 16hours in total. Played the computer whole day. Had urine infection at night. Dang. Ate 2pills of painkiller, 4pills of suppliment, drank LOTS of water. Finally it goes off. Phew. Slept from 2am to 10am.
Tuesday 15th 2005
Stuck at home again. I thought my day gonna be the say as Monday. Never know my mom called me to prepare to go back to my secondary school for some school chop stamp + signature for her ST Union Bersary Award.
Went school, then went to J8. Didn't buy anything. Saw several nice clothes at e-base. Cool. Went to Thomsom. Looked around. Mom cut her hair at Jean Yip. 1 guy working there is cute. I think. Then went to town. First stop at heeren. Nothing much except for some part, few bikers(guys) walked past, all taking their helmet. Cool eh. I think I like bikers now. This guy walking at the back of the group saw this cute little girl at the corner outside a shop. He winked at her and told his friends that she's cute. The moment when he winked, my heart melted! Awww! So cute! I mean for that guy. Haha! Oh ya. Went to that shop called Check. I still love that Puma greeny bluish high cut shoe! I think it's 140++ if i'm not wrong. NICE. Argh! When will I get that???
Hmm.. Walked to Taka. Went to Foodcourt first. Ate that Indonesian MeeSoto. My favourite. Walked to U2. My mom and I were trying out the clothes. Suddenly there's 2 girls yaking away and she threw a collar shirt over and drop into our fitting room and landed onto my mom's head. HAHA. Then my mom 'WHATS THAT!' and the 2 girls said 'SO SORRY!!' And the 4 of us kept laughing away. Then mom threw the wrong side but lucky the side she was throwing at was a wall. Weird mom. Then she threw over to the other side and return back to them. When we get out of that room, the girl said 'So Sorry! Haha!' Oh well. Funny experience. Bought 2 spegetti($13 each but 2nd piece 50% off). 1 lime green top - $23 and a light yellow polo for $13.
Walked to this shop called HusHusH. Everything in there were japanese goods. So cute n sweet and some of the price are nice too(exp). I saw this top($50+). Real nice. i wanna get that! But out of cash! I bought a Rootote bag. black one. Simple yet nice at $19.
Went up B1. Bought for mom a Japanese small bag. hee. She loves it. ((: Then went back crown prince carpark n went back home.
As for now.. Discussing about the chalet thingy for Mon-Wed. ((:
Hmm. I would like to update the stuff I did for the past few days.
Sunday 13th 2005
I had my YCF training. I went to the wrong place. I went to TBSC instead of SYC. Called mom and ask her re-fetch me over. Training is boring. All windies isn't there. Except for Yu Siang and Vitya. Real bored. There was a mosquito bit my ankle. Till know it still itch! Dang.
Took a bus to Harbourfront. Met Dee outside the PetShop. The flawless guy isn't there anymore I guessed. Sighs. Went to take a train to D.G. We took several snapshots in the train. Rather spastic. Walked to Parklane and ate at MacDonalds. Waited for Florence to come. Went to play pool for a few hours. Walked past this shop, the flyers girl gave me a flyer. It's about some phones. I took a look at the numbers. 0706 at the back. COOL. That's what I wanted. Told dee, walked back to the shop. The number was still available. Bought a second hand samsung phone + new line. Florence bought e700a to replace her old phone. Thanks Dee for delicating this line for me.
Walked to PS. Went to eat at Gelare Cafe for the second time that week. I'm getting fat if I continue this way! The previous week I ate once. Took a bus and slept halfway thru. Woke up and it's at Tampines. Went back Dee's place. Played FullMetal Alchemist while Dee was eating dinner with his mom. 8am went out of house. Took a train and accompanied him till Outram MRT. I switched to NEL to Hg. Went back home.
Monday 14th 2005
Stuck at home. I slept from 1am+ till almost 5pm. 16hours in total. Played the computer whole day. Had urine infection at night. Dang. Ate 2pills of painkiller, 4pills of suppliment, drank LOTS of water. Finally it goes off. Phew. Slept from 2am to 10am.
Tuesday 15th 2005
Stuck at home again. I thought my day gonna be the say as Monday. Never know my mom called me to prepare to go back to my secondary school for some school chop stamp + signature for her ST Union Bersary Award.
Went school, then went to J8. Didn't buy anything. Saw several nice clothes at e-base. Cool. Went to Thomsom. Looked around. Mom cut her hair at Jean Yip. 1 guy working there is cute. I think. Then went to town. First stop at heeren. Nothing much except for some part, few bikers(guys) walked past, all taking their helmet. Cool eh. I think I like bikers now. This guy walking at the back of the group saw this cute little girl at the corner outside a shop. He winked at her and told his friends that she's cute. The moment when he winked, my heart melted! Awww! So cute! I mean for that guy. Haha! Oh ya. Went to that shop called Check. I still love that Puma greeny bluish high cut shoe! I think it's 140++ if i'm not wrong. NICE. Argh! When will I get that???
Hmm.. Walked to Taka. Went to Foodcourt first. Ate that Indonesian MeeSoto. My favourite. Walked to U2. My mom and I were trying out the clothes. Suddenly there's 2 girls yaking away and she threw a collar shirt over and drop into our fitting room and landed onto my mom's head. HAHA. Then my mom 'WHATS THAT!' and the 2 girls said 'SO SORRY!!' And the 4 of us kept laughing away. Then mom threw the wrong side but lucky the side she was throwing at was a wall. Weird mom. Then she threw over to the other side and return back to them. When we get out of that room, the girl said 'So Sorry! Haha!' Oh well. Funny experience. Bought 2 spegetti($13 each but 2nd piece 50% off). 1 lime green top - $23 and a light yellow polo for $13.
Walked to this shop called HusHusH. Everything in there were japanese goods. So cute n sweet and some of the price are nice too(exp). I saw this top($50+). Real nice. i wanna get that! But out of cash! I bought a Rootote bag. black one. Simple yet nice at $19.
Went up B1. Bought for mom a Japanese small bag. hee. She loves it. ((: Then went back crown prince carpark n went back home.
As for now.. Discussing about the chalet thingy for Mon-Wed. ((:
** Sunday, March 13, 2005 __
Currently Feeling*
zzzzzzz.
I just think I'm too good. Not trying to promote myself here but yea I think it's true. I don't mind(80%) even if someone treats me not the way I want. Even if I mind, 85% I will say 'It's okay', 10% will say his/her fault but in joking manner, 5% will just shout out but to some people only.
I think I able to trust people easily. I don't know if anyone out there is trying to cheat me or something up-to-no-good. But I will just see that you're nice person, I'll give my 90% trust on you. I don't know.
Most of the time I will keep things to myself, either write it somewhere to remind myself of an incident, or here? or even some other form to vent my emotions. But then again, 75% of the people might not know what am I facing actually.
Argh. Just too sensitive. I can't go back the past, cant know or predict the future, just cherish what I have now. Ya. Peeps. Do cherish what you got. Don't regret.
Ciaos.
I just think I'm too good. Not trying to promote myself here but yea I think it's true. I don't mind(80%) even if someone treats me not the way I want. Even if I mind, 85% I will say 'It's okay', 10% will say his/her fault but in joking manner, 5% will just shout out but to some people only.
I think I able to trust people easily. I don't know if anyone out there is trying to cheat me or something up-to-no-good. But I will just see that you're nice person, I'll give my 90% trust on you. I don't know.
Most of the time I will keep things to myself, either write it somewhere to remind myself of an incident, or here? or even some other form to vent my emotions. But then again, 75% of the people might not know what am I facing actually.
Argh. Just too sensitive. I can't go back the past, cant know or predict the future, just cherish what I have now. Ya. Peeps. Do cherish what you got. Don't regret.
Ciaos.
HAHA
There's one stupid 'ghost' show now in Channel 8. So funny. Hmm.. Had enjoyed my Friday and Saturday bah.
Friday 11 2005
The day is Friday! Dee booked out. I went to meet him at D.G. He read this Da Vinci Code book and our sms + msges are in CODES. CAN YOU IMAGINE WASTING 5min of your time decoding a short message? Damn mah fan lor. But still nice la. Pro. Hurhur.
Went PS gelare cafe eat WAFFLES. My favourite. Simply addicted to it. Went to heeren. Went to Checks. Almost want to buy that green/yellow or gold/black bag. Cuz dee owe me xmas + vday present. So he wanna buy 1 for me. Then went to paragon, Mizuno? Bloody hell. MIAN QIANG SHI MEI YOU XING FU DE. That red bag! Arggh. He kept saying its too big for me. Darn. Oh well. I got money den go buy that. Hur.
Went Pacific plaza. Went Stussy, roxy shop. nothing in mind. Then dee pointed out a bag in Adidas Original Shop. Weets. Nice bags. Got Black, Dark Orange and White. I had a dilemma choosing white or dark orange. But end up i chose dark orangey one cuz I dont have that colour. $99 bucks. Omg. But. THANKS. You made me promised you that I cant buy any bags in 6mths. UHHH. I think i will break it soon cuz I just cant resist myself! BAGS. My interest in keeping them? ;p
Went taka. de WAI MIAN(outside). lol. shops close liao la. sat outside the fountain there. took stupid pictures. then sit till the fountain also no more. -_- then we went seperate ways home bah. ((: thanks dee for the bag again. my sis n mom said i had tortured ur pocket! ;s
Saturday 12 2005
Woke up at 8am. Suppose to be 7am. Shld be reaching @ tamp @ 9am but i reach there @ 9.30am. Went his place. Saw him downstairs liao. Went tamp CC beside SSCC the mac. then walk back home. home? oh. second home la. LOL. ;p then i go sleep again. i always sleep in his hse! dunno why!
then went down 2gether to fetch tiara up. had hard time uploading songs to her ipod mini. due to some technical problems. hmm. then i went to play his ps2. lol. Full Metal Alchemist. Wee. 6am liao damn hungry. Went out together (3some - hurhur) and take bus to siglap there.. cafe cartel. I treat the both of them. shared steak and pasta.
then took another bus to parkway. wana see new line but the number so jialat de. suppose to go gelare cafe and eat waffles again but didnt bah. den tiara have to go. so we accompanied her to bus stop. but we end up take the same bus back. went to dee hse again. continue the alchemist game. damn pek cek lor. cant pass that stupid part. almost give up but we made it! HAHA.
HAHAHAHA. so heng heng i go save the game b4 the clock strikes 12. LOL. Hui gu niang yao hui qu le. HAHAHA. ya. so. the hui gu niang really went back and left her shoe @ the house. NO LA. JK DE LA. ((:
Tomorrow:
Hmm. Going for YCF training fm 9.30am to 12.30++++ bah. duno if sis coming along anot. then shld be going harbourfront meet dee first den go meet flora @ town play pool? not sure! oh. and dunno la. hen fan liao. zzz. mood change. bye.
There's one stupid 'ghost' show now in Channel 8. So funny. Hmm.. Had enjoyed my Friday and Saturday bah.
Friday 11 2005
The day is Friday! Dee booked out. I went to meet him at D.G. He read this Da Vinci Code book and our sms + msges are in CODES. CAN YOU IMAGINE WASTING 5min of your time decoding a short message? Damn mah fan lor. But still nice la. Pro. Hurhur.
Went PS gelare cafe eat WAFFLES. My favourite. Simply addicted to it. Went to heeren. Went to Checks. Almost want to buy that green/yellow or gold/black bag. Cuz dee owe me xmas + vday present. So he wanna buy 1 for me. Then went to paragon, Mizuno? Bloody hell. MIAN QIANG SHI MEI YOU XING FU DE. That red bag! Arggh. He kept saying its too big for me. Darn. Oh well. I got money den go buy that. Hur.
Went Pacific plaza. Went Stussy, roxy shop. nothing in mind. Then dee pointed out a bag in Adidas Original Shop. Weets. Nice bags. Got Black, Dark Orange and White. I had a dilemma choosing white or dark orange. But end up i chose dark orangey one cuz I dont have that colour. $99 bucks. Omg. But. THANKS. You made me promised you that I cant buy any bags in 6mths. UHHH. I think i will break it soon cuz I just cant resist myself! BAGS. My interest in keeping them? ;p
Went taka. de WAI MIAN(outside). lol. shops close liao la. sat outside the fountain there. took stupid pictures. then sit till the fountain also no more. -_- then we went seperate ways home bah. ((: thanks dee for the bag again. my sis n mom said i had tortured ur pocket! ;s
Saturday 12 2005
Woke up at 8am. Suppose to be 7am. Shld be reaching @ tamp @ 9am but i reach there @ 9.30am. Went his place. Saw him downstairs liao. Went tamp CC beside SSCC the mac. then walk back home. home? oh. second home la. LOL. ;p then i go sleep again. i always sleep in his hse! dunno why!
then went down 2gether to fetch tiara up. had hard time uploading songs to her ipod mini. due to some technical problems. hmm. then i went to play his ps2. lol. Full Metal Alchemist. Wee. 6am liao damn hungry. Went out together (3some - hurhur) and take bus to siglap there.. cafe cartel. I treat the both of them. shared steak and pasta.
then took another bus to parkway. wana see new line but the number so jialat de. suppose to go gelare cafe and eat waffles again but didnt bah. den tiara have to go. so we accompanied her to bus stop. but we end up take the same bus back. went to dee hse again. continue the alchemist game. damn pek cek lor. cant pass that stupid part. almost give up but we made it! HAHA.
HAHAHAHA. so heng heng i go save the game b4 the clock strikes 12. LOL. Hui gu niang yao hui qu le. HAHAHA. ya. so. the hui gu niang really went back and left her shoe @ the house. NO LA. JK DE LA. ((:
Tomorrow:
Hmm. Going for YCF training fm 9.30am to 12.30++++ bah. duno if sis coming along anot. then shld be going harbourfront meet dee first den go meet flora @ town play pool? not sure! oh. and dunno la. hen fan liao. zzz. mood change. bye.
** Thursday, March 10, 2005 __
Currently Feeling*
some stuff coming out fm my nose. lol
Hah. I woke up at 3pm! I don't know why I sleep so long this time. Sleeping is a form of art? HAHA. 'Yi Su' you know! Last night, I went to toast nuggets. Weird way of cooking but it turn out nice. Toasted nuggets. Go Try it.
Kept on eating and eating. I folded a total of 71 paper cranes. In just an hour I think. Look. How pro am I. ((: My target is 120+ bah. Maybe. I was listening to the songs in the HiFi and this particular song played. The stuff that we did just flashed back. I just don't know why it happened. I drop tears. Argh damn it.
Sent a sms. And mixed 1/10mug of dry gin(47.3%) with 100+. Omg. It's been a very long time I drink. I think since last year? YAH. LAST YEAR. I remembered the last time I drank this was during my 'Mugging Period' for O levels. Pretty Sad and Depressed. I kept drinking while studying! HAHA. No wonder my results turns out like that. HAHA. Yah. Too long didn't drink. Weak liao. So went to sleep after that.
I woke up. A sms woke up me up. It made me smile. Don't know why. (Ey girlfriends, if you read this, i'm not a phone smiler ok! I'm already a shoesmiler. Please. No more such nonsense! Haha.)
Tell you guys something. I didn't step out of house for 4days! CAN YOU IMAGINE?! Somehow I just realised that today too (Real Slow Me). Because I spend my day talking to Dee on the phone from the time I wake up till 7pm(No Free Incoming Call from 7pm to 6.59am - LOL). And SMS him in the night. Ya. My day goes off like that. But anyway my peeps n friends are all DEAD. Where the hell are they man. I'm looking forward for the weekend anyway. ((: Oh ya. Dee said he want to sign up a new line JUST for me! He said he want to talk to me thruout the day and night. A personal line for us! Whehehe! How sweet. Thanks dee! ((:
Tomorrow is Friday. FRIDAY. FRIDAY!! HAHAA. I'm excited for it. HAHAHA. Turning mad. HAHA. I will be meeting dee at town bah. Sat go 'home threatre' lol. I hope it turns out what we had planned. (: Sunday going for YCF training at Soka Youth Centre(SYC). Then might be meeting Dee at Harbourfront NEL Station. If not go SENTOSA! Got Chingay @ 10am(THIS SUNDAY) you know! Please go check it out. I think it's at Fort Siloso? Don't know! :P I'm not involve in it. Haha.
Okay. BORED. IM BORED. 4days @ HOME. REAL BORED. But at least. Save my money in my pocket for the weeeeeekends. kakaka! Alright. Bye?
Hah. I woke up at 3pm! I don't know why I sleep so long this time. Sleeping is a form of art? HAHA. 'Yi Su' you know! Last night, I went to toast nuggets. Weird way of cooking but it turn out nice. Toasted nuggets. Go Try it.
Kept on eating and eating. I folded a total of 71 paper cranes. In just an hour I think. Look. How pro am I. ((: My target is 120+ bah. Maybe. I was listening to the songs in the HiFi and this particular song played. The stuff that we did just flashed back. I just don't know why it happened. I drop tears. Argh damn it.
Sent a sms. And mixed 1/10mug of dry gin(47.3%) with 100+. Omg. It's been a very long time I drink. I think since last year? YAH. LAST YEAR. I remembered the last time I drank this was during my 'Mugging Period' for O levels. Pretty Sad and Depressed. I kept drinking while studying! HAHA. No wonder my results turns out like that. HAHA. Yah. Too long didn't drink. Weak liao. So went to sleep after that.
I woke up. A sms woke up me up. It made me smile. Don't know why. (Ey girlfriends, if you read this, i'm not a phone smiler ok! I'm already a shoesmiler. Please. No more such nonsense! Haha.)
Tell you guys something. I didn't step out of house for 4days! CAN YOU IMAGINE?! Somehow I just realised that today too (Real Slow Me). Because I spend my day talking to Dee on the phone from the time I wake up till 7pm(No Free Incoming Call from 7pm to 6.59am - LOL). And SMS him in the night. Ya. My day goes off like that. But anyway my peeps n friends are all DEAD. Where the hell are they man. I'm looking forward for the weekend anyway. ((: Oh ya. Dee said he want to sign up a new line JUST for me! He said he want to talk to me thruout the day and night. A personal line for us! Whehehe! How sweet. Thanks dee! ((:
Tomorrow is Friday. FRIDAY. FRIDAY!! HAHAA. I'm excited for it. HAHAHA. Turning mad. HAHA. I will be meeting dee at town bah. Sat go 'home threatre' lol. I hope it turns out what we had planned. (: Sunday going for YCF training at Soka Youth Centre(SYC). Then might be meeting Dee at Harbourfront NEL Station. If not go SENTOSA! Got Chingay @ 10am(THIS SUNDAY) you know! Please go check it out. I think it's at Fort Siloso? Don't know! :P I'm not involve in it. Haha.
Okay. BORED. IM BORED. 4days @ HOME. REAL BORED. But at least. Save my money in my pocket for the weeeeeekends. kakaka! Alright. Bye?
** Wednesday, March 09, 2005 __
Currently Feeling*
Phew~
Things had happened and I'm still here. I survived!
As for results, not my expectation. Very disappointed. But then again, it isn't important after all. A result is just an 'entry ticket' to some other institution. As long you had passed all is safe enough.
I read someone's nick in MSN. It says 'The process doesn't matters at all, what matters is the RESULT.' Nah. Untrue. I disagree with this. It's like cheating in the test and get good results and your results isn't yours at all. I think the process is the most important. Even your result isn't that good or bad, what matters is your hardwork during the process. You gain some confidence, gain knowledge, learnt something during the process that made you grow and englighten yourself. A result is a result. A result is just how well you have done, how much you have learn the past years but that doesn't mean result is the end of life. The end result of your life. ((: So guys, for those who didn't do well, just think of this. It's what sweat and hardwork matters. ((:
Okay. I've been deciding what course to choose and several problems arised. I'm sure I know what am I doing now. majority of my trainers, leaders and friends told me this 'Follow your heart'. As long it's your interest, go ahead. No courses's prospect have no future. Each one does. It depends how you make use of it to gain something. So I've decided on my decision. I has registered to the JAE and I'll be waiting for it. ((:
4th March 2005. Florence 21st birthday. Dear and I went to her place for celebration. Weets. She's getting prettier! Oh my god. After that, Dear and I went to grandlink and play pool. That woman at the counter is f-ed up. I understand how she feels because she said there's some CID spotcheck on the people and got caught? But that doesn't mean that she have to give such attitude to the customer. No matter what kind of circumstances happened onto you as a worker, there will always be a positive smile on your face to the customer all the time. We played till after midnight and took a cab to his place. Stayed overnight.
5th March 2005. Went out with Dear from his house to TM. We met Tiara to treat her Swensen lunch. Not bad. ((: Walked around CS and TM after that. My mood sort of F-ed up because of my tiredness. I went to take 168 to Woodlands, took a train to CCK, took a LRT to Senja. Yup. Met my friends there. Went to Senja Soka Centre, learnt the Superstar Dancesteps. The Post-Chingay Celebration cum FD-SD Graduation Day is a successful one. Very successful. We got our certificate of appreciation for chingay, graduation certificate for being a FD, photos and much more photos. So sweet. And Samantha actually made a chocolate cookie for us! So delicious. Yum. Hee! But then. My night got F-ed up again by mom and sis. So .. Oh well.
6th March 2005. Went to TBSC for Youth Culture Festival(YCF) training. I was late. I reached there around 10.30pm. But oh well they sort of start at that time. Ended around 10.30pm. We are told to fold paper cranes for charity. Yup. Went grandma place @ Jurong after that. Went to meet dee for taking my edited works at Boonlay MRT arond 9.45pm? Yup. Anyway it's 6th of march. Happy 2years 8months anniversary to me and dear. Hee! How fast!
Past few days I've been staying at home. Yup. Don't feel like going anywhere. I only looking forward that the weekend gonna reach soon. Heh.
Anyway I came across this when I was in MSN.com:
Five surprising reasons men are happy in a relationship
by Bonnie Yuill
Don't be fooled by the male ego. Men look for more in a relationship than an attractive women who will cook him a good meal and wash his clothes every once in a while. What he really needs is your admiration.
He needs to communicate with you
A lot of men need to be in a relationship more than women do. Surprising? Not really, when you think about it. Women usually have close relationships with their friends. They talk about health problems until they feel better. But men don't. As Helen Fielding's character, Bridget Jones, says, 'Women have emotions and men have football.' Men are competitive and so, in general, they rarely share their emotions or problems with each other, as they think it makes them look too weak. When he needs to open up and talk about his feelings, guess who he eventually shows his vulnerable side to? You!
He wants to be your hero
Knowing that he can make someone else happy makes him feel good inside, because he has the power to change things. And what bloke doesn't secretly want power of some sort? At least if he can't always be top dog at work, he can be a star at home. Instinctively, he aspires to be Spider-Man or Superman – to be your hero, to be able to make things right: to be appreciated, to be someone's knight in shining armour. So when you are disappointed or unhappy, he feels responsible. What matters is that you are happy and then he's got one less thing to worry about. Strange but true.
He strives to make you happy
The number one reason men leave relationships is because they feel as though they can't meet their partner's needs. This makes them feel inadequate, and it makes them feel as though there's no way their partner can feel respect for them. For women, communication seems to be the top priority in keeping the relationship going – but, quite honestly, men don't understand this constant need to talk about things over and over.
For men, the relationship is a success if they feel respected and if they make their partner happy. This is why a new conquest is exactly that – he feels as though he is in charge – he is once again someone's knight in shining armour.
If you resent him because you feel overworked and under-appreciated, stop doing so much – you are probably destroying your relationship! He doesn't want to feel responsible for you rushing around, worn into the carpet, and most men really don't notice whether the housework has been done or not. What they want is respect and appreciation. 'All we really want from women,' a (male) friend recently told me, 'is for you to smile at us.' (And probably one other thing, if he thought about it for longer than a millisecond.)
Sex makes him feel loved
Sex has the same effect on men as romance does on women. So the reverse is also true: no sex = no love, no approval, no acknowledgement. They get that same sad, unloved feeling that you get when you don't get flowers, your partner looks at other women or ignores you.
You are his (secret) reason for living
He needs you because you inspire him to do better – he has someone to do things for, goals to reach, a reason to go out and conquer the world. What's the point of being disgustingly rich and powerful if there's no one to share it with? What he needs is the gift of you.
Things had happened and I'm still here. I survived!
As for results, not my expectation. Very disappointed. But then again, it isn't important after all. A result is just an 'entry ticket' to some other institution. As long you had passed all is safe enough.
I read someone's nick in MSN. It says 'The process doesn't matters at all, what matters is the RESULT.' Nah. Untrue. I disagree with this. It's like cheating in the test and get good results and your results isn't yours at all. I think the process is the most important. Even your result isn't that good or bad, what matters is your hardwork during the process. You gain some confidence, gain knowledge, learnt something during the process that made you grow and englighten yourself. A result is a result. A result is just how well you have done, how much you have learn the past years but that doesn't mean result is the end of life. The end result of your life. ((: So guys, for those who didn't do well, just think of this. It's what sweat and hardwork matters. ((:
Okay. I've been deciding what course to choose and several problems arised. I'm sure I know what am I doing now. majority of my trainers, leaders and friends told me this 'Follow your heart'. As long it's your interest, go ahead. No courses's prospect have no future. Each one does. It depends how you make use of it to gain something. So I've decided on my decision. I has registered to the JAE and I'll be waiting for it. ((:
4th March 2005. Florence 21st birthday. Dear and I went to her place for celebration. Weets. She's getting prettier! Oh my god. After that, Dear and I went to grandlink and play pool. That woman at the counter is f-ed up. I understand how she feels because she said there's some CID spotcheck on the people and got caught? But that doesn't mean that she have to give such attitude to the customer. No matter what kind of circumstances happened onto you as a worker, there will always be a positive smile on your face to the customer all the time. We played till after midnight and took a cab to his place. Stayed overnight.
5th March 2005. Went out with Dear from his house to TM. We met Tiara to treat her Swensen lunch. Not bad. ((: Walked around CS and TM after that. My mood sort of F-ed up because of my tiredness. I went to take 168 to Woodlands, took a train to CCK, took a LRT to Senja. Yup. Met my friends there. Went to Senja Soka Centre, learnt the Superstar Dancesteps. The Post-Chingay Celebration cum FD-SD Graduation Day is a successful one. Very successful. We got our certificate of appreciation for chingay, graduation certificate for being a FD, photos and much more photos. So sweet. And Samantha actually made a chocolate cookie for us! So delicious. Yum. Hee! But then. My night got F-ed up again by mom and sis. So .. Oh well.
6th March 2005. Went to TBSC for Youth Culture Festival(YCF) training. I was late. I reached there around 10.30pm. But oh well they sort of start at that time. Ended around 10.30pm. We are told to fold paper cranes for charity. Yup. Went grandma place @ Jurong after that. Went to meet dee for taking my edited works at Boonlay MRT arond 9.45pm? Yup. Anyway it's 6th of march. Happy 2years 8months anniversary to me and dear. Hee! How fast!
Past few days I've been staying at home. Yup. Don't feel like going anywhere. I only looking forward that the weekend gonna reach soon. Heh.
Anyway I came across this when I was in MSN.com:
Five surprising reasons men are happy in a relationship
by Bonnie Yuill
Don't be fooled by the male ego. Men look for more in a relationship than an attractive women who will cook him a good meal and wash his clothes every once in a while. What he really needs is your admiration.
He needs to communicate with you
A lot of men need to be in a relationship more than women do. Surprising? Not really, when you think about it. Women usually have close relationships with their friends. They talk about health problems until they feel better. But men don't. As Helen Fielding's character, Bridget Jones, says, 'Women have emotions and men have football.' Men are competitive and so, in general, they rarely share their emotions or problems with each other, as they think it makes them look too weak. When he needs to open up and talk about his feelings, guess who he eventually shows his vulnerable side to? You!
He wants to be your hero
Knowing that he can make someone else happy makes him feel good inside, because he has the power to change things. And what bloke doesn't secretly want power of some sort? At least if he can't always be top dog at work, he can be a star at home. Instinctively, he aspires to be Spider-Man or Superman – to be your hero, to be able to make things right: to be appreciated, to be someone's knight in shining armour. So when you are disappointed or unhappy, he feels responsible. What matters is that you are happy and then he's got one less thing to worry about. Strange but true.
He strives to make you happy
The number one reason men leave relationships is because they feel as though they can't meet their partner's needs. This makes them feel inadequate, and it makes them feel as though there's no way their partner can feel respect for them. For women, communication seems to be the top priority in keeping the relationship going – but, quite honestly, men don't understand this constant need to talk about things over and over.
For men, the relationship is a success if they feel respected and if they make their partner happy. This is why a new conquest is exactly that – he feels as though he is in charge – he is once again someone's knight in shining armour.
If you resent him because you feel overworked and under-appreciated, stop doing so much – you are probably destroying your relationship! He doesn't want to feel responsible for you rushing around, worn into the carpet, and most men really don't notice whether the housework has been done or not. What they want is respect and appreciation. 'All we really want from women,' a (male) friend recently told me, 'is for you to smile at us.' (And probably one other thing, if he thought about it for longer than a millisecond.)
Sex makes him feel loved
Sex has the same effect on men as romance does on women. So the reverse is also true: no sex = no love, no approval, no acknowledgement. They get that same sad, unloved feeling that you get when you don't get flowers, your partner looks at other women or ignores you.
You are his (secret) reason for living
He needs you because you inspire him to do better – he has someone to do things for, goals to reach, a reason to go out and conquer the world. What's the point of being disgustingly rich and powerful if there's no one to share it with? What he needs is the gift of you.