nose running away from my face.

I shall continue from the last post. (Gonna be a very very very long winded and very detailed post) Yea. Met him but kind of late due to some stuff crop up. We went to J8 instead. Ipod shuffle comes in this week! Hmm.. Walked around J8. Went to Muji and buy the dumb 4 pens. It's blue but somehow the word printed there is 'Green' in chinese. We make a fuss about stuff along the way. Haha! I also don't know why I talked a lot that day which made our 'date' even lively.

I accompanied him to CCK. While walking to Lot1, I turned my head and saw a bubbletea shop! I remembered that I'm craving for it since 2days ago and dreamt that I bought it to satisfy myself. Never know it's just a dream. (Aww too bad!) Went in and saw Dee's platoon mates. Cool. Some of them are above average. Looks I mean. Haha! Went out of Lot1 again. Saw the bubbletea shop AGAIN. I bug Dee that I want to buy 1 even though it's so expensive($2/cup) ):

So, I bought it. We shared it and he kept eating all my pearls! ):< We sat at interchange. Saw few people selling curry puffs and those stuff there. Suddenly they pack their stuff and ran away. I asked Dee. Why they run? He say probably some Mata coming. I say where got. People anyhow shout is it? Haha! Awww. Got cheated. Haha.

Kiss Dee goodbye and I went back to AMK after that. Saw the girl in J8's popular at the cashier when I board bus88! So coincidence! She live in AMK! haha! Stalker! D:

Reached home. I looked at the clock. To my horror, it's almost 11pm. OMG? SO FAST? TIME FOR ME TO SLEEP! Got my rehearsal the next day.

End up... I slept almost 6am. -_- Dee's voice kept PESTering in my head. Those 'sa jiao' and his cuteness kept appearing. Haha! I smiled while lying on the bed. Soon, its dawn. I could even hear the birds start to chirp. (Oh god. Its morning!) Ok. I finally slept.

(29 Jan 04) Woke up at 11am+ Uhh. Tired. Went to TBSC for Chingay Full Dress Rehearsal.Went there for Daimoku and Gongyo. Then make up all those stuff. My hair! OMG. I think I'm the only one with THAT hair. Because... Windies(My group) only have 10 people in it. Among the 10 of us, 4 of us are girls. Among the 4 girls, 2 of us have long hair. Between 2 of us, I have more hair! SOOOO... My hair turns out to be so Bombastic and uhh.... don't know how to say. Everyone kept telling me 'Wow. Your hair so special!' 'Wow. I love your hair!' 'Wenting! Oh my god! So nice!' BUT. I don't think so. ): I shall post up my hair picture next time.

Then, we waited for the bus to fetch us to Kallang PA. THE BUS. THE .. BUS. IS... AIRCON-LESS. OMG. Somemore, the bus don't even have windows! End up, the driver opened the 2 exit doors while driving us to Kallang. Duh!

Reached Kallang. WOW. Lots of pretty girls there. Wee-uu-weet! Got a lot of 'ang mo'. And the floats are nice. And this year's Chingay Tee-shirt is so nice! So style So zai! Look like those from FreshImp type. Design is nice. They got Hot pink, black and white tees. I want to get 3 of them! Haha! If that is really this year's Chingay Tee, we only allowed to get 1 only. Booboo ): Never mind. I shall request. I'm this 'mah fan' queen. Hehe.

We went to eat our do called 'dinner'. But I only ate the chicken wings and the sausange and long beans. ): Don't feel like eating. Then we practice our stuff. Soon.. Our first rehearsal started. I was BLURED. Bcuz we didnt get to brief where is the ending point and where and what!? I didn't manage to so call 'complete' my dance for formation 1 and 3. But it's alright. SMILEEEE!

OMG. Lots and lots of photographers snapping our pictures. B'cuz windies(my group) are in the front line. All the photographers came and snap us! And Samantha is just beside me. We kept laughing at each other that the photographers kept taking both of us. HAHA. Fun fun! Very nice. But I just think that there's still room for improvement the second round. The comment is 'Not bad. Just need more interactive with the audience' Cool!

We went back to our 'rest and park' area. (which i called that). All of them rest except US(windies)! HAHA! We so hyper. We kept practicing our dance steps again and again. Think of some dance steps for the 'Who let the dogs out' song during MR president come inbetween us. THEY ARE SO BAD. How can they play this song when our president come for a speech?! It's like insulting him as a DAWG! lol! Okay. We kept on practicing.

Then inbetween, we played the 'Ji Niu Nai'(Squeeze Milk) Game. HAHA. So funny! They got this 'Ji Niu Nai' 'He Niu Nai'(Drink Milk) 'Mei You Nai'(No Milk) 'Hen Duo Nai'(A lot of milk) and 'Xi Niu Nai'(Wash Milk). All with stupid actions. We played that twice. I'm the Milk queen! And Andy is the Milk King. HAHA! We kept laughing.

Oh ya. Then my friend pointed out one of the Hopies(another group) at the end of the PA. We saw this guy with his props and costumes(long robe, black at the back, pink infront). He strolled so slowly and thought that he got some illness.. like 'Xiang Bu Kai' like that. DAMN funny I tell you if you see that!. The 10 of us kept laughing continously! Shi ting and I can't stop laughing till our tummy aches. HAHA.

The rest of the groups were sitting on the floor, looking at these Windies crazing away. HAHA. Very fun. ((((:

Finally it's our 2nd rehearse. Our turn again. This time is much much dont know how many times much better! We shouted and dance around like crazy at the arena. Till my voice almost gone! Haha! We went back to the 'rest and park' area. Everyone(trainers and leaders) shouted and cheered for us! Wee! Then it's time to go back. Already 10.30pm le. Changed back to my clothes. (AHHH. Feel so much better. So hot wearing the costumes!)

Sam and I waited for my mom to fetch us back. When I walking back. Everyone say Bye to me. I don't know why. Was it because of my hair that makes me feel so special that everyone need to say bye to me?! Haha!

There's a few people said 'Hey you gonna have a hard time taking and washing your hair!' 'You need to wash your hair at least 3 times' 'Better wash your hair quick when you reach home or else it will be very itchy!' 'Wow. You will be very jialat removing that thing on your hair!'

Yea. Indeed. It's difficult. Removing the pins. Then washed and shampoo-ed my hair 3-4times. Putting conditioner 3 times. Asking mom to help me bcuz my neck is tired. Washed the whole half an hour. Uhhh. I think I gonna have another at least 2 times with THIS hair. Omg.

Haha! Never mind. At least I really really enjoyed that night's event and the games I played with my group mates. Thanks friends! You all rock my life! (((:

UHHH. Sleepy. Went to sleep and it's the next day (3pm) le.
(30 Jan 04) I had a nice trip to some nursery plantation (what is it actually called? Those big big flourist) Yea. My sis and I loves going there now. It's our new intrest. Hee! We went there. WOW. So nice. Got a plant. Named .. something with A. You know the cartoon 'Long Mao' The big long mao used the big big leave to cover himself from the rain at the bus stop. (You will know if you seen the cartoon). Yea. I saw that plant! The leave is so nice. I called the plant 'Ti Ti Da. Bom Bom Ba!'(LOL. You know what this means again when you watched it).

I took pictures(I shall post it somewhere next time for you guy's reference) whenever and wherever I went. So many catus! So nice! Ahh. How I wish I have one small plantation and I'm satisfied. A lavander plantation.) Went to grandma's place. Then go Hougang blook 600+ there eat dinner. I ate 'Fung Zao'(how to spell it?) that chicken leg noodles. Hee. Nice. THEN. We went to flourist again.(the one at tanah merah) -_- To buy pots. The 'Ti Ti Da. Bom Bom Ba!' there is nicer! Hee! Saw many intresting plants. Cool man.

Went back home at 11pm+. THEN..... Our family is weird. My mom dad and sis grumble and fighting over POTS, SOIL, PLANTS and the stuff got to do with PLANTS. DUHHH. SO irritating. But funny. HAHA. Dad kept nagging and nagging bout the pots we bought is wrong and this and that. Mom say 'WASH YOUR LEG WASH UR HANDS! DONT TOUCH THE SOIL. VERY DIRTY! HOW MANY TIMES I TELL YOU DONT TOUCH IT!' I kept saying 'WHATS WRONG LA! JUST SOIL ONLY. EARTH WHAT!' then sis also join in. 4 of us faces are black by the end of the day. HAHAHA. How funny. What a weird family.

By 4am+ I completed the drawing of Ichigo From Bleach anime. For Dee. (((: Slept at the sofa and grandma woke me up to go back to my room around 7am+. Slept till 2pm+. And now.. after blogging... it's already 5:08 . I started on 4:22. Omg. Gonna be an hour!

Okay. Stop here. Real long post isn't it? Hee. Update again soon. ((: Muacks.

` SHPX thinking deeply @4:22:00 PM

throat sore.

It's been a long time again. Why? No reason. I'm slacking now. I'm living in 'US'. Why? My sleeping time is upside down. Okay. Good one. I don't know things will end again and again later. We got back. The story still goes on. ..

Today is already the Friday. Yup. Been to many places weeks back. NP open house, NYP open house, bought new steamer stand up iron, went Marina South eat Curry Fish head, which I think it's more than 3years I last ate it. Sis and Mom bought me CNY clothes from MNG. I think almost all from MNG. I don't have the time to go shopping during weekends. They do it for me. Thanks man.

Also Met Tiara in SP. We become sort of good friends the first day we meet. Don't know why. Maybe we are sisters previous live. We simply click! However, we didn't really contact each other now because she's quite busy in school probably and also my sleeping time is totally different from her, the time she called me days ago is my sleeping time. Too bad then. Hah! I guess I need to change back my lifestyle and get a life.

I met Selina this week's Wednesday. She looks quite pretty in person. Yea. Better than I am. ): I gave her my Chinese book and I have to go off for Chingay Training. Oh, I will be having my Full Dress Rehearsal tomorrow at Kallang PA. Gosh. There will be make-ups and so on. Yuck. I don't want those aunties help us make up! I remember the Chingay 2000, they make up till so thick. Well, a performance anyway. Haha. Oh and my costume is suck. Look like a clown in it. Eww. But oh well. We are still part of the important character in it. Don't grumble. D:

He still haven't give up, have he? I don't know what is he thinking now. I told the other him about this. He said he kind of changed over these years. I don't think so. Haha. You might be confuse what he and what he. Don't bother. I just put this for my own reference. p:

Oh ya I met several new friends during this month. Especially those in SP CFP05. They rocks. I hope we don't lose contact so soon. They are important to me. (: I'm trying to get back all my old friends who are my enemies my foes my whoever it is. I just want to have a bigger circle of friends. Friends truly and really the important ones in my life. And our friendship during Chingay between me and the guys and getting closer. I start to talk to them now. Kind of helpful too. HAHA.

Hey. I'm still good and responsible friend regardless what race and who and what you are ok! Hurhur.

What else did I do this month.. Hmm..Nothing actually. Accept the friends part and the shopping part. Yea. Oh ya. I surf thru Friendster yesterday. Many people kind of changed. To the better of cause'. Feel happy for them even though there's still hatred between me and those peeps. But nah. I shouldn't do that. I shall remove those people in my HATE List. A brand new year, a brand new start of life!

Oh no. 1750 already. I need to meet Dee at AMK @ 1815! He got nights out tonight. Hee. We wont be meeting each other this weekend. So take this time to meet up bah. Yup. Gotta go. If not I'm late for our 'date'! Hee! Update soon! ((:

` SHPX thinking deeply @5:24:00 PM

yawn.

It happened again. Geesh. I don't know whats up with my love life. Don't want to think about it.

I will be performing in the SSA Youth General Meeting at Tampines Street 81 SSCC @ 7pm this Sunday. I'm stress now. I only have one practice and today is the second. That means only 2 practices before the actual day! Oh god. Hey people! Please support me ok! SMS me if you wish to.

Chingay trainings are getting more 'hiong'. I can start to feel the stress, tense and seriousness now. Things arn't that perfect yet. I hope things will go smoothly on the actual day. Tomorrow will be my next training. Geesh.

.Listening to : Sash! - Colour the world.

I simply love this song. A very memoriable song in my life. It's the day when I praticipated YCF'00. My item song is this. I still can remember those days like yesterday. People are smiling, laughing, screaming away after the actual performance. We just dance around the performing arena with our friends. During the trainings, we really enjoyed ourselves. I met some of the friends there. I lost contact with them but one thing..

Is it fate or what? I met this girl during the training. Because my partner was absent on that day. This girl, Felicia, came to take over her and be my partner on that day. Yup. Soon we remember each other's faces and sort of close friends in there. When school reopens(Seconday 1), I saw the familar face in school. I wondered is that the girl? Yes it is. I mean it's like if I don't know her during the training on that particular day, I won't even know that this girl exist.

Life is wonderful.

Every song has a different story of my own. Every single thing that can make me remember a part of scene or a story in my life. I do remember things when I'm young(1yr+ old) uptil now. I just hope that I have that amount of time to write it down in a book. I love writing them. Especially my love story. Yea. It's still incomplete and it's going on and on and on, I guess. And every love story has a different ending. A true love doesn't have a happy or sad ending because there's on end for it.

True love never run smooth. Smooth love never be true.
This kept on repeating in my mind for 4years. Hee.

I looked back my pictures (2003) and compare myself now. I've changed. I just feel that. I just miss the old times with my friends and him. Everyone changes. The world changes too. I'm just afraid that one day I might not recognise myself. I listen the old songs I used to listen. The feeling is different. I just wanna turn back time. I miss my buddy when I'm in amknps.

Where is she? I hope she still stay that terrace house nearby my place. I just don't dare to go back there. I don't know. I just don't have the face to do it. People are going higher and higher, climing up almost to the peak of the mountain while I'm the one rolling down and lose my balance down the mountain. I just fear that they might look down on me. I know they are not that kind of person but I just do feel that way. I even look at some of my ex classmates in friendster. I look at myself and sighs. I don't know. I just feel that I'm useless and really CMI type. Geesh.

OH YA. Yesterday I went to SSCC for the Tsunami Daimoku kai. I saw this Japanese Girl. Around My age. DAMN KAWAII! Really. She's so sweet looking. Her complextion is superb. Her eyes is so sweet and cute. My mom saw her and say she's so sweet and she deny 'Sweeet? Noo. No!' Her name is Yumi. Cute isn't it? Then we say good bye she waved at us and my mom say 'Sayonara!' -__________-;!~!#^&@ She also trying to act cute. Haha! I will remember that Jap Girl for life. :>

` SHPX thinking deeply @3:17:00 PM

moodless.

I heard that dog outside whining in argony. I feel so hurt and sad whenever I hear that. I feel like searching for that dog and look what's happening. I think it's injured. I want to bring it to the vet. It makes me feel sad when I hear it in pain. Sighs.

Well, I'm currently not sad over that. I'm afraid to lose you. I don't dare to face you now. I'm afraid I will break down when I look at you. I just think that we are drifting apart. Further and futher. You're so busy these days that we hardly contact. I miss you. A lot. I'm scared. I feel that you treat me coldly these days. Am I just sensitive or you're really are? I don't know. I just think everything is my fault. I try not to blame you. Everytime I dream. I dream of you. I dream that you're not by my side. I tried not to think so much but I can't. The things you've done, the words you've said really really hurts me a lot. But all these things can't stop from loving you. Even how bad you treat me, nothing can't change my love for you. I don't know why am I so stupid. Was it me or you? I just don't want to leave you. I just want you to change to the better. I will love you till the end. I promise.

Aishiteru.

` SHPX thinking deeply @3:59:00 PM

tired.

Phew. My leg hurts. Muscles hardened and growing i guess. I'm just back from SP's CFP05. Quite boring eh(cuz of my attire and weather) but overall alright la(sociable friends). People call me the 'Pokadot Girl' because I wore pokedots and my nails are pokedots. DUH. lol. I guess I have to change style tomorrow. See they still can remember me but not POKADOT!

OH and ya. That Hentai Boy(thats what i call him). His name is ERIC! I heard from my girlfriends that he kept talking bout hentai and then coming closer to you? Everyone hates him i guess. Everyone is talking about him like.. 'Hey that guy in blue.' 'the one sitting there.' 'the one with watsons water bottle and a FORK on his hand to dig his nose and teeth' .. Eww. Oh well. A girl lost her handphone in her toilet. Aww. Feel sad for her. Sigh. Better becareful next time or else I will be the victim.

29th Dec 2004 I went out with ZhiHui. Guess where we went? ART MUSEUM! HAHA. It's the first time i went a date with a friend to the ART MUSEUM! Haha. We met at CityHall and walked to Suntec to eat at Marche. She treat me. Thanks man. After that we just talked along the way.. Soon.. The topic became related to Arts. She's weird. For some ways and I'm weird too. I finally told someone what i detest and likes about. And finally someone understands me. I told her what I love most(photography, astronomy, etc). She really encouraged me and support me. She even told me some 'history' and interesting stuff. We went around esplanade to look at one of the living artist, Botero, from colombia.(I think.) Then took all the pictues of his sculptures. His work is interesting.

Then I told her I wanna look at the sculpture of a Cat because it's cute? I started to like cats A LOT MORE than before because i saw a few of them sleeping along the streets. How cuddly they were! So we went to take a bus to the art museum. We went into the back door. The guard let us in w/o paying the fee because there are some people from Mediacorp are interviewing someone. So we take a look at the drawings. Interesting. Oh. and we went to boat quay's Mac.

Then look at other works from a artist, Ju Ming. She told me lots of things that i don't know at all! Then she brought me into CHIJMES and take a look. After that we went back to the train station and went seperate ways. :) Interesting day. Thanks!

31st Dec 2004. I went to buy Levis Jeans. Last day for the 20% off. Went to dd place after that. Duh. don't want to talk about it. sighs. went to SSCC for midnight gongyo and then went home and eat sashimi. I SIMPLY LOVE HAMACHI(is it?)! :) Expensive.

1st Jan 2005. Don't want to talk bout it because it's a piss-off day by SOMEONE. :(

2nd Jan 2005. Went to SSCC with sam. Then went to beach road and accompany her to buy her school shoe. She bought Vans. Hey i want that too. I'll be buying it tomorrow night but it's grey. Maybe look around and see there's anymore nicer shoes. :) We ate our dinner at the hawker centre there. After that went str8 to Kallang PA for our chingay training. It was raining for the whole day. We went into this room for our seperate group trainings. Then we had our combined group formation training. The rain had stopped but somehow it started again. Ya. Quite tiring day. Minwei, one of the trainers I met in IRC, 'You are the S H P ?' I said 'HI and BYE!' Haha. Finally I remember clearly who he is now. :)

Oh. And today.. School starts. I feel weird when I see people wearing their school uniforms and I'm NOT! HAHAHA! Feels great man. Haha! Oh. I recieved this sms from a girl during new year. It goes like this:
SHE: 'Happy new year to you!'
ME: 'You are?'
SHE: 'You work until you don't even know me issit? I'm that kelly la!
ME: 'Huh? I know no kelly here.'
No reply.

And today I received her message on the way back home (i thought it was someone or my friend and kinda stun when i read this message):
SHE: 'if you don't want to treat me as a friend, then never mind lor. I delete your contact in my phonebook'.
ME: 'Er. Are you that kelly?'
My phone rang.
I answered.
SHE: 'HEY &#*!#*&(! ah?' (&#*!#*&(! = I don't know what shit name is that but i can't really hear what she say. sounds like mumbling)
ME: Er. Pardon?
SHE: '&#*!#*&(! ah?' (forget it. I can't catch what is she saying)
ME: Er. I think you had mistaken the wrong person.
SHE: OH.
ME: Ya.
SHE: Paiseh. Sorry eh.
ME: It's okay.
The line cut off.

HAHA. Damn paiseh sia. I guess I can understand how it feels! A lot of people been calling my phone and then don't know who the hell is it. My handphone number damn famous man! Even people sms wrongly. I thought of replying her 'Er. It's okay. I can make friends with you' but i didn't. For WHAT?! Rofl!

Okie dookie. Damn tired. Need cash to clear debts. Buy more clothes! :(
Blog some other time.
Ciaos.

` SHPX thinking deeply @6:28:00 PM