** Friday, August 26, 2005 __
Currently Feeling*
sneezy.
I can't stop sneezing! Feeling weird now. Hmm.. My first semester exams are round the corner. One week away and i haven't even start any revisions? But I don't want to take any sub paper either! Furthermore, I don't even have any motivation to study at all? Sheesh. Time flies REAL fast.
I don't know why I can't even catch up with the things around me now. I don't even have time or stress management. I realised that's my weaknesses after I entered poly. I keep on rushing on things uneccessary. My attitude changes from bad to worst. I become lamer (my family and friends + dee said so). I think I got influenced by Garfield and the rest nowadays. I become more direct ( I guessed so). I don't know. I just think I don't feel the same as before. I don't find it good or bad?
Sometimes I can just go quiet all of the sudden and show you attitude. Or rather my mood swings may come anytime. Anywhere? I don't know. I hate myself. I don't want that either. Nor anyone else. But I just couldn't help it!
Maybe it's one of the sign of changing. I don't know? There's lots of perplexing questions pondering in my mind. And I keep asking around. No one knows the answer. Or rather they just answered me 'Why bother?'. But I just want to know it! I don't know why I hate to leave task around incomplete or questions not answered. I can't sleep for that night. Even I did sleep, the next morning, the first thing you think is that topic or task. You feel stress about it that you want to finish it up and get things done. I don't know. I'm not like that in the past. I'm used to be those 'don't bother' type. But now I'm those 'get things done immediately' type. Which is bad for me? Maybe things arn't the same as before and that's how it affected me.
Lots of things happened. Really. People pisses me off easily. Not PMS. Not what. Nothing major actually happened in life but I still don't get why and what and how and where or when? Everthing to me is a mystery. I just can't find any answer that totally satisfy me. I don't know. My mind is getting more complex. I mean my thinking. I tend to think lots and lots. I don't mean it. People will just say 'why bother?' again. And again, I don't know! I'm just thinking too much! No big deal actually.
It's all in the mind. Urghh. Need psychologist. Those mental "scene" or "sounds" keep appearing. Getting worst than before. Getting more complex. More and more. More noisy. Can you comprehend what I've said? I doubt so.
I've tinted+hilighted my hair today. Cost $90+. My hilighted part isn't obvious. Shucks. I think I gonna redo it some other time.
The world is so complicated. That's why people prefer simple stuff. Read simple books, simple stories, prefer simple life.
I can't stop sneezing! Feeling weird now. Hmm.. My first semester exams are round the corner. One week away and i haven't even start any revisions? But I don't want to take any sub paper either! Furthermore, I don't even have any motivation to study at all? Sheesh. Time flies REAL fast.
I don't know why I can't even catch up with the things around me now. I don't even have time or stress management. I realised that's my weaknesses after I entered poly. I keep on rushing on things uneccessary. My attitude changes from bad to worst. I become lamer (my family and friends + dee said so). I think I got influenced by Garfield and the rest nowadays. I become more direct ( I guessed so). I don't know. I just think I don't feel the same as before. I don't find it good or bad?
Sometimes I can just go quiet all of the sudden and show you attitude. Or rather my mood swings may come anytime. Anywhere? I don't know. I hate myself. I don't want that either. Nor anyone else. But I just couldn't help it!
Maybe it's one of the sign of changing. I don't know? There's lots of perplexing questions pondering in my mind. And I keep asking around. No one knows the answer. Or rather they just answered me 'Why bother?'. But I just want to know it! I don't know why I hate to leave task around incomplete or questions not answered. I can't sleep for that night. Even I did sleep, the next morning, the first thing you think is that topic or task. You feel stress about it that you want to finish it up and get things done. I don't know. I'm not like that in the past. I'm used to be those 'don't bother' type. But now I'm those 'get things done immediately' type. Which is bad for me? Maybe things arn't the same as before and that's how it affected me.
Lots of things happened. Really. People pisses me off easily. Not PMS. Not what. Nothing major actually happened in life but I still don't get why and what and how and where or when? Everthing to me is a mystery. I just can't find any answer that totally satisfy me. I don't know. My mind is getting more complex. I mean my thinking. I tend to think lots and lots. I don't mean it. People will just say 'why bother?' again. And again, I don't know! I'm just thinking too much! No big deal actually.
It's all in the mind. Urghh. Need psychologist. Those mental "scene" or "sounds" keep appearing. Getting worst than before. Getting more complex. More and more. More noisy. Can you comprehend what I've said? I doubt so.
I've tinted+hilighted my hair today. Cost $90+. My hilighted part isn't obvious. Shucks. I think I gonna redo it some other time.
The world is so complicated. That's why people prefer simple stuff. Read simple books, simple stories, prefer simple life.
** Thursday, August 25, 2005 __
Currently Feeling*
bored!
currently i'm in JUPEE-TER CAFAY.
me,ray,garfield, the 'pro' beatboxer, ruby, allen, weizhong, bastard, cheryn, nuttynad. (in clockwise direction around the table)
the meat BALLS spag is in the middle.
what else? all of them are crapping,
past few days i was rushing INTECF project like 'heaven' god .. shit? lol. almost screwed everything. but the result was 2 thumbs up plus 2 toes up too! .
i love nutella spread on bread. addickted to it! whenever i goto dee's place, the first thing i find was BREAD. like a kid? i took the bread and jump on the bed and keep on smiling! dee was like 'why are u so happy?' i said 'i got bread' . ok not funny.
GARFIELD is a reckless driver. Why? She can't control the car well in my NFSUR psp game. boo man. booooo.
OK. (:
currently i'm in JUPEE-TER CAFAY.
me,ray,garfield, the 'pro' beatboxer, ruby, allen, weizhong, bastard, cheryn, nuttynad. (in clockwise direction around the table)
the meat BALLS spag is in the middle.
what else? all of them are crapping,
past few days i was rushing INTECF project like 'heaven' god .. shit? lol. almost screwed everything. but the result was 2 thumbs up plus 2 toes up too! .
i love nutella spread on bread. addickted to it! whenever i goto dee's place, the first thing i find was BREAD. like a kid? i took the bread and jump on the bed and keep on smiling! dee was like 'why are u so happy?' i said 'i got bread' . ok not funny.
GARFIELD is a reckless driver. Why? She can't control the car well in my NFSUR psp game. boo man. booooo.
OK. (:
** Thursday, August 11, 2005 __
Currently Feeling*
bored
i'm in biz lab. too sleepy. sleepy... my sis thinks im pregnant. NO IM NOT. she said 'YOU'RE DOOMED'. never be.
i got too many things to buy.
onwaiting list.
too many.
short of cash.
geesh.
i'm in biz lab. too sleepy. sleepy... my sis thinks im pregnant. NO IM NOT. she said 'YOU'RE DOOMED'. never be.
i got too many things to buy.
onwaiting list.
too many.
short of cash.
geesh.
** Monday, August 08, 2005 __
Currently Feeling*
gastric.
It's been a very very very long time. And sorry for those people who took an effort to come into here to read my HISTORY.
I blog because I didn't goto school today as I got gastric. yea.
Yesterday I read the Newpaper. It says a blogger is a person who blog. And a blogger has too much time with his/her hands. All that kind of nonsense. Critisizing us! lol. But oh well who cares.
I thought i'm pregnant. Really. Nausea, giddiness, missed my period.. etc etc.. Negative. I went to get those tester. I'm not! I went to see doc, doc says it might be gas trap in the stomach. And 2 days later, I have a gastric attack. 2 days after that attack(which is now), i got it again. Shucks! What's happening man. I think I'm stressed up. Thats why. My studies are screwed. I don't know why i dont have the motivation to study! Ok. My emaths is okay now. the only problem is eng fund. Oh. One project is down, which is the business fundamentals. The presentation is scr3wed.
2ndly, my sys cpt project hasn't done.
3rdly, my tcs proj is on the way.
4thly, my INTECF proj hasn't plan anyting yet!
5th, my exams is sooo near.
Yup. Lots of things happened. In r/s.
Oh. I found my long lost buddy in friendster! And we manage to contact again! All thanks to friendster. Haha! We talked about our childhood.. everything! Yup. We plan tentatively to meet up on 20th Aug bah.
30th jul
I went to KJ and eug's birthday BBQ @ Simei. Saw my daddy c1's girl aka my mommy. Heh. Finally i'm not a single parent child!
1 Jul
Asked a stupidest question.
2 - 22 Jul
Crap things happened. Sighs.
31 Jul
Happy birthday to KJ! Went to ECP early noon. Went roller blading, cycling with dee. Built up tent near the beach and slept there. Alright la. Although I don't like nature, I hate the greenies and I'm sooo sweaty that day, it turns out gr8! ((:
1 Aug
New school life begins...
2 Aug
Happy birthday to Eug!
4 Aug
Sub-comm Usher for AGM meeting.
5 Aug
CCN day. Turns out well. Especially for the cookies. I went back earlier to see doc. Feel kind of guilty that I didn't really help anything on the actual day. But i baked the cookies with Garfield, Prya, Pei Shan in Hussien's house. Heh.
6 Aug
Happy 3Y1M anniversary to dee and me! ((:
Stuck at home mass self-studying Emaths1 chapeter 5 & 6.
7 Aug
Went dee place to study ENGfund. End up using the computer.
8 Aug
Didn't go school. My friends need help for TSC proj but I'm at home. Feel so guilty again. Couldn't do much for them. But ZS's tone on the phone seems like this 'hey we are doing all these shit and you're at home doing nothing. can't you help us?' I think i'm thinking too much. Ya. Need to study a subject today.
9 Aug
Happy 40th birthday singapore!
i'm screwed. real screwed. can you unscrew me?
It's been a very very very long time. And sorry for those people who took an effort to come into here to read my HISTORY.
I blog because I didn't goto school today as I got gastric. yea.
Yesterday I read the Newpaper. It says a blogger is a person who blog. And a blogger has too much time with his/her hands. All that kind of nonsense. Critisizing us! lol. But oh well who cares.
I thought i'm pregnant. Really. Nausea, giddiness, missed my period.. etc etc.. Negative. I went to get those tester. I'm not! I went to see doc, doc says it might be gas trap in the stomach. And 2 days later, I have a gastric attack. 2 days after that attack(which is now), i got it again. Shucks! What's happening man. I think I'm stressed up. Thats why. My studies are screwed. I don't know why i dont have the motivation to study! Ok. My emaths is okay now. the only problem is eng fund. Oh. One project is down, which is the business fundamentals. The presentation is scr3wed.
2ndly, my sys cpt project hasn't done.
3rdly, my tcs proj is on the way.
4thly, my INTECF proj hasn't plan anyting yet!
5th, my exams is sooo near.
Yup. Lots of things happened. In r/s.
Oh. I found my long lost buddy in friendster! And we manage to contact again! All thanks to friendster. Haha! We talked about our childhood.. everything! Yup. We plan tentatively to meet up on 20th Aug bah.
30th jul
I went to KJ and eug's birthday BBQ @ Simei. Saw my daddy c1's girl aka my mommy. Heh. Finally i'm not a single parent child!
1 Jul
Asked a stupidest question.
2 - 22 Jul
Crap things happened. Sighs.
31 Jul
Happy birthday to KJ! Went to ECP early noon. Went roller blading, cycling with dee. Built up tent near the beach and slept there. Alright la. Although I don't like nature, I hate the greenies and I'm sooo sweaty that day, it turns out gr8! ((:
1 Aug
New school life begins...
2 Aug
Happy birthday to Eug!
4 Aug
Sub-comm Usher for AGM meeting.
5 Aug
CCN day. Turns out well. Especially for the cookies. I went back earlier to see doc. Feel kind of guilty that I didn't really help anything on the actual day. But i baked the cookies with Garfield, Prya, Pei Shan in Hussien's house. Heh.
6 Aug
Happy 3Y1M anniversary to dee and me! ((:
Stuck at home mass self-studying Emaths1 chapeter 5 & 6.
7 Aug
Went dee place to study ENGfund. End up using the computer.
8 Aug
Didn't go school. My friends need help for TSC proj but I'm at home. Feel so guilty again. Couldn't do much for them. But ZS's tone on the phone seems like this 'hey we are doing all these shit and you're at home doing nothing. can't you help us?' I think i'm thinking too much. Ya. Need to study a subject today.
9 Aug
Happy 40th birthday singapore!
i'm screwed. real screwed. can you unscrew me?