tired again?

zzz. just back home from school. we fa siao-ing in infocus class. yea. i love geography infocus. freedom! after that spending my 1 hour in detention room again. bored. nothing to do! no homework at all! the teacher is so cocky. say 'see you tomorrow!' *uhh. not again. but yup. one more day to go! what was his name. the sec4 guy who said. 'haha. this one must have detention. i can see that.' i told him 'yea. u guessed it. lol' do you all see my face and as if i have that kind of going-to-detention face? *lol. weird. after that i go meet betty and medick at the foyer. ivy was there lying down! and her finger was. 'omg' blood. she hit her finger with the.. the.. what was that called? oh whatever. a tool. lol. for NPCC. but she was there, able to talk and laugh and joke, not even a excruciate pain. if it was me, i will lie there crying in agony. *aww. the teacher walk out of school with her to one of the nearest clinic. me,betty and medick went to cs and find dd. haha. and whole day we were talking about dicks. *duhs. dd got influenced by us and kept saying 'lame-tink' and i convert it to 'lame-dick' *awww. shutup! dick here n there. i was totally irritated. *grr. o well. took a 27 and doze off. when i reaching the stop, i suddenly jolted awake. to my horror, i realised i had reached my stop! (lol?) *haha.

` SHPX thinking deeply @7:45:00 PM

rofl.

mom came back @ 1pm+! she took halfway just to bring me to a chinese doc and the same time she gonna see too. went to serangoon and see doc. 3pm+ came back home. doing nothing i suppose. umm.. talked to medick. she told me something darn funny happened in class during sharil lesson when its a free period:

the condom
cookies ...[.b.f.f.!]... says: first , take out condom
cookies ...[.b.f.f.!]... says: vanessa ask
cookies ...[.b.f.f.!]... says: "WHATS THAT"
???????? ?????? ^^ [Blog Updated] http://sheepster.tk says: ROFL
cookies ...[.b.f.f.!]... says: den ask to open
cookies ...[.b.f.f.!]... says: open already, all scream cuz very STICKY, and watery
cookies ...[.b.f.f.!]... says: LUBRICANT . LOL
cookies ...[.b.f.f.!]... says: vanessa say. SO SMALL ! WHY SO SHORT!!
cookies ...[.b.f.f.!]... says: den she ask how to wear
cookies ...[.b.f.f.!]... says: then dey pull out , long.
cookies ...[.b.f.f.!]... says: then, throw around .
cookies ...[.b.f.f.!]... says: disgusting, very sticky
cookies ...[.b.f.f.!]... says: dat one free period , shahril never come
???????? ?????? ^^ [Blog Updated] http://sheepster.tk says: den ???
cookies ...[.b.f.f.!]... says: DEN!!! LUQMAN go throw the condom down the window
???????? ?????? ^^ [Blog Updated] http://sheepster.tk says: ... .
cookies ...[.b.f.f.!]... says: the thing got stuck @ the metal thingy
???????? ?????? ^^ [Blog Updated] http://sheepster.tk says: ? ?
cookies ...[.b.f.f.!]... says: on de 1st floor and 2nd floor de center
cookies ...[.b.f.f.!]... says: got one red thing
???????? ?????? ^^ [Blog Updated] http://sheepster.tk says: LOlllll
cookies ...[.b.f.f.!]... says: to seperate de windows dat one
cookies ...[.b.f.f.!]... says: stuck dere
cookies ...[.b.f.f.!]... says: den got wind blow
cookies ...[.b.f.f.!]... says: a flying condom!!
cookies ...[.b.f.f.!]... says: IT FLEW UP
???????? ?????? ^^ [Blog Updated] http://sheepster.tk says: HAHAHAHA
cookies ...[.b.f.f.!]... says: we tot got BIRD bite it lOL!!
cookies ...[.b.f.f.!]... says: de boys went down to retrieve it
cookies ...[.b.f.f.!]... says: den found it, luqman hide inside his pocket
???????? ?????? ^^ [Blog Updated] http://sheepster.tk says: lOllll.. farnee sia. play with condom -_-.
cookies ...[.b.f.f.!]... says: bluff us say cant find
cookies ...[.b.f.f.!]... says: den throw on van's head, she screamed!!! GroSS out!!~
cookies ...[.b.f.f.!]... says: eeeeeeeeeeee ... then luqman take and BLOW! den poke it. BurSt...
???????? ?????? ^^ [Blog Updated] http://sheepster.tk says: .... . z
cookies ...[.b.f.f.!]... says: but.. NO SOUND
cookies ...[.b.f.f.!]... says: Pssssssssssssssssssst
???????? ?????? ^^ [Blog Updated] http://sheepster.tk says: hahaha..! too rubbery
cookies ...[.b.f.f.!]... says: like dat only . den went into his mouth..
cookies ...[.b.f.f.!]... says: "VERY RUBBERY.. LATEX SMELL.. STRAWBERRY SIA!"
cookies ...[.b.f.f.!]... says: blow blow blow
???????? ?????? ^^ [Blog Updated] http://sheepster.tk says: its strawberry?
cookies ...[.b.f.f.!]... says: all laugh laugh
cookies ...[.b.f.f.!]... says: no RIBBED
???????? ?????? ^^ [Blog Updated] http://sheepster.tk says: who buy one?
cookies ...[.b.f.f.!]... says: chowyong
???????? ?????? ^^ [Blog Updated] http://sheepster.tk says: ... how come he buy ? lOll
cookies ...[.b.f.f.!]... says: dunno , mad.. wanna sabo jeremy :P

and yea. she sent me these pictures she took. the condom. ;D

*uhh... LoL. sAd. i missed this funny show. *grrr. o well..~

` SHPX thinking deeply @8:42:00 PM

Currently Feeling* zzzzzzzz

surpise to blog at the time at this day? i came back home! cuz i have diarroha. (uh. after 16yearsof living. i still don't know how to spell it). so bored. i gotta go sleep now. and then.. then.. I don't know! well. 'nite' . ~ -_-.

` SHPX thinking deeply @10:32:00 AM

bored

*muah! blog pic changed. just made it just now. i couldn't think of anything better. *uhhh. well. yesterday i was busy. unable to update. well. i went out with mom and sis to j8. 5566 was there! and i think the que is more than 1km+? all girls! my sis said they are totally nuts. crazy over them. queuing up under the sun. throwing their faces along the street. everyone are staring at them. that includes me. *hur. well. sis went to cut her hair. went to my grandma place again. $10! *lol. don't really wanna mention every single stuff i did. *zzz.

today was in school. after all the lessons and infocus. i thought that i able to go home. but. DETENTION. oh my. this 1hour seemed like 1year of hell. in a hot and stuffy room. nothing to do at all, sitting there trying to do somthing. mind was totally blank. into my fantasy.. . .

speaking of mind. i had a vivid dream last night. which it seemed that i didnt sleep at all. it was totally real. oh my gosh. i was somewhere. in the dark. went out in the night. with my dd. and don't know where we are going. everywhere is total darkness. no streets along the street. we went to one of a shopping centre. nobody was there. only the two of us. peaceful and quiet. and i said i have to go home. cuz the time was around 2am+. went to find a bus. and we just aimlessly walk around and take a bus which we don't know where it will bring us to. sitting at the back of the bus. i told him i only have 1hour of sleep when i reach home at 5am. which i normally wake up for school at 6am. we still in the bus, talking away. the bus was totally pitch dark. and said this bus might goto bedok. omg. so far away from my home. and i was thinking i decided not to goto school. *snap* i was 'awake' in my mind. knowing that my mom had just came into my room and gonna wake me up. i couldnt open my eyes. until when she called me up. and it seemed that i didnt sleep at all. not at all. but my mind was jolted awake. till now. i don't feel tired at all.

i've been having strange dreams. beautiful. spendid. i remember i have many dreams. meteor rain fall from the sky. totally heaven. skies which filled with golden stars. or looking through a telescope and saw many stars falling. it was darn real. beautiful. i even dreamt that i lie on a patch of big field. looking at the stars above. the stars gave a 'magical show'. dreamt of darkness. where the earth don't have a single light at all. dreamt of searching for something always. i can say i dream everyday. full of fantasies and imaginations. dreamt of the unexpected. and last year, one of the 3 sundays. the 3 weeks continously. i dreamt of people jump down from a cliff, people got eaten by a black dragon, chasing after me... people got killed, ghost haunt me. especially the girl who jump down from the cliff at the lighthouse. she was gona tell me her problems. she was totally sadisfied. suffering a excruciating pain in the heart, trying to tell me all. but the time seemed to slow down which i couldnt ask whats going on. the time of mine slowed down. but in the other dimension, the girl thought that i don't wanna listen to her, she made the final decision. to jump down. and i couldn't stop her. she just drop into the water. the seawater turned red. everyone crowed around the scene, people made police calls. the 'water police' which they wore scuba suits, trying to investigate. naughty kids above the rocks around 10m high. threw stones at them. but the speed of the stone slow down when it went into the water and missed the target, which were the water police. the kids ran away. i look down the light house. everything was in chaos. people screaming. and others ran. ...

i still can recall. in my dream. a girl who died many weeks. i was the one. who help her dad to find out. and to find her dead body in the water. many people went to search. in the sea, the slumps, the rivers. but couldn't find her body. i was walking in a coffeeshop. i saw a news at the television above. they found the girl's body. i wanted to call the father of the child. but i don't have the coin. everything was in black and white. and it was so real. . . .

*sighs. anyone who want a nice advanturous story, can come and find me. i tell u all my dreams that i can recall. *heh.
anyway, the picture i just upload. taken on the 7th Feb 2004.


*life sucks like a straw-

` SHPX thinking deeply @9:05:00 PM

zzz...

*omg. quite a couple of days didnt update. yup. where shout i start? oh. the following day after the last post. yea..

11 Feb 04
um.. what did i do? its on the.. wednesday. yea. nothing much. at school till.. 5.30. having my cca after my infocus(physics test) omg. the test. i screwed it. i think i fail? that includes the social studies common test. *zzz. during the cca. painted the banner. and i was begging the teacher to let us go off earlier cause we have nothing to do already. yup. 30min earlier. dd was saying that i dont intent to meet him. we were quarreling on the phone about it and i made this decision of walking to his place. *o well. spend my day till around 6.30pm and took 27 and mom fetched me at the bustop and went back.

12 Feb 04
let me think. i was.. in school. yea. school again. after infocus, rush to dd house and watch American Pie The Wedding . heh. went back home @ 7pm. i cant remember wad happen thou. *lol.

13 Feb 04
*omfg. friday the 13th? no bad luck please. and yea. having a great time. its friday. Thank God is Friday. we having a History lesson of singapore during the WWII. the old man who told us the story was interesting! alot of gestures and expressions in his words that made us laugh. so cool i can say. everyone was cheering for him. it really made us engross inside his real life experience. *lol. after that went back to class. oh and i remembered the english lesson before recess, mr singh told us that how he started smoking, the times he quit and continue again. hes 58years old now. wow. he quit smoking that was since 10years ago. but on and off taking friend's cig and take a puff when his wife didnt notice. and said that there was once he went to a party. his friend brought him to a pub. *lol. and there, many people or everyone is smoking there. and he just drank 3 glasses of beer and he said that he cannot take it any longer and took a cig and puff. everyone laughed inthe class *lol. he's getting interesting each day. *woo. i like it .

after the lessons, we have a chinese essay class at 1pm. dd ask me to meet him at central. i just rush there and manage to meet him for around 10-15mins and rush back to school. saw a ambulance at the general office. i wonder who had fainted or whats going on. there's a police car too. everyone crowd outside the office. and the end of the day i heard that its Mr Singh? *omg. what happen? went to class and there, this china teacher. i can say i didn't learn anything there at all. except drawing the teacher on a piece of teacher. because she's funny! her bra strap kept on dropping off. and jaren told her the first time and she was shy. the rest, she find out by her own. and she kept on lifting up her hand to show her gestures, and the black forest! *omfg. its so black and thick. its her armpit hair! everyone laughed at her. but she didn't know it i suppose. gary was there saying 'lastest china trend' in chinese. *lol.uhh.

o well. walked to the bus stop opposite the school with betty. waited for the correct bus 8 where medik is inside. went to TP. yea. we were laughing away there. fun? and the iguide who guide us along is Jeremy. we laughed when he told us his name. *lol. he look lk yufeng and the other guy in sec 3 who play badminton. we told his about this and he say he good in swimming. o well. haha! went to all the school except applied science. we ended our whole tour at design. yup. i always wanted to enter design. oh. i haven't mention. tatong saw me! so surprisingly to see him there. so coincidence. *lol and he was there saying 'its ok' 'its ok.' when he was briefing on the small game. laughing away like crazy? and the end of everything in there, we goto the design canteen. betty have to go off first. me and medik ate there, and jeremy asked if we still want to tour around. we said we don't need him anymore and thanks for everything. and he went off. while eating, betty smsed me and say she wanna know jeremy number. but oh well, hes gone before she asked! i told medik that 'if we have the fate, we will meet again' *woo.

we went out of the school and took 69. *omg. so stupidly take this bus. ended up going to bedok. we alighted at the stop opp. bedok reservior. took a 65 to tampines interchange. medik went to take her bus back and i go and find dd at small mac. accompany him eat his dinner and walk arnd tampines. and i he accompany me to 27 stop and he went to find his mom.

stop at the same stop, mom fetch me and we all goto rivervale plaza, mom went to the doc. me and sis walk around the place. bought stuff and eat. and she said that the one selling the herbs played the malaysian techno. she loves it! *lol. she said that melbourne always have this kind of song in the asian party. *dots. went back home after that.

14 Feb 04
yea. its Vanlentines Day! Happy v.day to all! woke up at 12noon. went to take a shower and prep everything. went out of house at 1pm? and i was sitting at the bustop for around 20min. *omfg. no bus! lol. take the 70 to YCK MRT. meet dd there and went to NYP. walk around. don't really have the mood. medik and betty was so slow. *grrr. ending up didnt meet them and we 2 went to town.

yup. stop at orchard. went to far east. walk around and realised that the Got Milk shirt only have small and mid size. walk thru the underpass, dd bought me a balloon flower. thanks! went to taka. went to kinokuniya. bought a NoteBook for both of us. cost $20. *heh. i told him im hungry, we went to heeren sakae sushi. eat till so full, went off and bill is $37+? i think so. went around heeren. shop. bought 2 cows. it was cute! its a clock with stopwatch and alarm, and the legs and arms of the cow u can play with it. cute huh. *heh. went to cineleisure. it was. *omfg. so many people.! dd was there taking 2 cows and play with them to many position of sex. *ignts. lol. walked out of there and went to PS. i bought my muee pencil case there. heh. bought a marker pen to sign on the cows. went basement. walk around. went to shops that interest us. went to take a picture. lol. and so many people took the card ones. crazy. we went there later than them and we went off earlier than them. *laughs. we went to action city. saw 1 thing. the Turn Left Turn Right character. the one and onlyin the shop at the display there. which cost $299 i think. here it is:

lol. cool eh? went to er. esplanade. i saw wui ting with her bf. and jialoon at the corner. saw one of the SSA leader with his wife. wow. went to the roof terrace. looking at orion. saw 1 chap sitting inside the esplanade. alone. looking at couples outside the roof terrace. so sad. *sighs. went out of esplanade, go to citylink again. bought bread to eat. *yum went to take a train back to orchard. walk with dd to the 7-11 at lucky plaza and buy drinks again. gave dd a kiss and went to taka outside waited for sis, we walk and see at the barzaa outside taka. went to topshop and see clothes and took a train back home. yup. enjoyed myself. love u lots dd. =)~

Yea. update tonite about today yea?

*true love never run smooth. smooth love never be true-

` SHPX thinking deeply @2:18:00 PM

zz..

heh heh. just upload some pictures. sent from my phone. =)

[Me!]


[DeeDee Eyes]

` SHPX thinking deeply @6:21:00 PM

Currently Feeling* bored

another day stayed a home. i skipped my class cuz of my allergy medicine made me drowzy whole morning. *uhhh. i went to find my money from my mom's closet. and guess what? $150 only?! where's is my the other half? i called mum and realised she took it. *sighs. i need to use them for dd vday present. tomorrow is wednesday. o yea. there's gonna be social studies common test and physic test. *grrr. hate it. ever alternate weeks have 2 days of common test. *sighs. feeling sick all these weeks. i been absent 5 days in school for this 1month and 2weeks of classes. my attendence sure goes. BLACK. oh well. don't really have any study mood yet. i wonder what dd doing. he didn't reply my message since morning. i read god sista's blog. i was shocked! 3 extra tickets to the MTV asia awards. i told betty about it and she seemed so excited. it took me a long time to contact my sista and she said there's a buyer gonna buy 3 of em' at 400 bucks. i told betty bout this but she said it's way too expensive. rather watch it at home. umm. but. but. oh well. maybe try our luck next year. cuz i dont have enough cash to buy them. have to spend a hundred for my dd. and left pathetic small amount of cash as a saving. sis and mom been using my money since i was a kid. i remember sis kept taking out 200/300 bucks fornightly to buy her branded goods and told me she gotta return me. but till now. its been. almost 10 years? not a single cent from her! same goes to my mom. few years back i realised my ATM was so pathetic. left $10+? mom had taken more than $600 from it for her visa. and few years before she took it, she withdraw another $300+ from it. oh my. i was fukin pathetic broke just because of them. and they laugh at me when i didn't get a job. when i have 1 last year, working for ivy's mother, they seemed shock and laugh at me that i have my first job. what the fuck is this? everything is my first time and they gonna laugh at me. don't they have their first time too? don't get what they are thinking. *sighs. and now. dad scolded me that i didn't take my own food myself and grandma hafta take for me. but. but. IM NOT HUNGRY. I DON'T WANT IT. ITS HER WHO TOOK IT FOR ME. BUT I DID WENT TO THE KITCHEN AND TAKE IT RIGHT. MUST YOU ALL TREAT ME LIKE A CHILD? I DON'T UNDERSTAND. EVERYTIME SCOLD ME FOR BEING SO USELESS. ASK ME TO STAY OUT OF THEIR BUSINESS AS IF IM NOT PART OF THEM FAMILY. I KNOW HOW TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF. MUST YOU ALL KEPT BOTHERING ME? I NEED PEACE. I DON'T WANT ANYONE TO INTEFERE MY LIFE. I DON'T NEED ALL YOUR KINDNESS AND CARE FOR ME LIKE A BABY. YOU ALL THINK I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING RIGHT? YOU'RE WRONG. DAD LAST TIME LAUGH AT ME FOR NOT BUYING MY OWN STUFF OUTSIDE. WELL. IM JUST LAZY. CAN'T I? HE SAID MAYBE I DON'T EVEN BUY AT MAC DONALDS. ONLY MY SCHOOL CANTEEN. WHAT THE FUCKING WRONG WITH YOU ALL? GRANDMA WAS SCOLDING ME THAT TIME THAT I DROP A CONTAINER OF GARLIC MAKING A MESS. SAYING MY TEACHER AND MOTHER DIDN'T TEACH ME. BEING SO STUPID AND USELESS IN THE FAMILY. AM I GIVING A BURDEN TO YOU ALL? IF IN THIS CASE, I LEAVE! PEOPLE CAN'T MAKE MISTAKE RIGHT? SAYING THAT I DON'T KNOW THIS, DON'T KNOW THAT. YOU THINK IM A SMART ALEX? I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE. LIKE AS IF EVERYTHING IS NOT MINE, U ALL TAKE IT. TAKE EVERYTHING YOU WANT. STOP WASTING YOUR FUCKING TIME ON ME. YOU DON'T NEED THIS CHILD IN THE FAMILY. EVEN I HAVE A BOYFRIEND. MOM DOESN'T WANT ME TO HAVE. SHE SAID I DON'T UNDERSTAND ANYTHING AND BEING SO CHILDISH. BUT. I KNOW IM CHILDISH. BUT IT SEEMED THAT IM NOT OUTSIDE. YOU ALL DIDNT SEE ONLY. DONT ANYHOW SAY IT. THEY DON'T TRUST ME AT ALL. ALL THE TIME I WAS LYING CAUSE OF YOU ALL. YOU DON'T GIVE ME ANYTHING. NOT EVEN LOVE? I DON'T SEEMED TO FEEL IT AT ALL. WHAT RULES YOU HAVE. MY SIS CAN WHY CAN'T I? THIS IS NOT FAIR. THIS IS TOTALLY RUBBISH. IM 16 NOW. CAN'T YOU SEE? IM NOT A KID ANYMORE! . O WELL. FUCK. THIS IS CRAZY. I DON'T KNOW WHAT AM I TYPING ANYWAY.

*zzzz. log off now. nth to say anymore. totally moodless.

*love is blind. you love without a reason-

` SHPX thinking deeply @2:44:00 PM

seh.

hmm. what a day. what a damn year. what a bad omen. hope nothing bad gonna happen..

went to grandmother place yesterday. she really gave me 10 bucks. yea. today. sleep in school. having lessons and doze off into my dreams. after singh lesson. i just knock off and have vivid dreams. into somewhere i didn't went before. i cant really remember. just somewhere.. weird now a days. been seeing scenes in realife. went to dd place to pass him the LG CD. but. it doesn't work. sighs. i told him i gonna buy something on wed. but. a secret. i hope he likes it. =) i got nothing to say in here. feeling drowzy after the medication for my skin allergy. i was scratching away like an ape. did i say ape? yes. like monkeys scratching and catching fleas. *uhh. went to see the doctor and gave 5 pills only? (2 types) with 1 tube of cream. and it's $24. *zzzz. oh well. i really have nothing to say. medick not gonna go school tomorrow. yea. i reckon that the class have some absentees tomorrow. yawns.

` SHPX thinking deeply @9:51:00 PM

hungry*. but eating now

um.. i don't know where should i start first. yesterday? oh okay.

7th Feb 2004
we having the annual mass run at the bedok reservior park. i thought that they said meet at the small macdonalds at tampines interchange, but. they said betty's dad gonna fetch the rest of em' . i told betty to tell her dad to fetch me somewhere around there. oh. so fetched melissa after that, the 5 of us squeeze into 1 family car. reached the park and we actually talking away, yaking and taking pictures in the phone. *i'll ask medick to upload those pictures we took yesterday. i was still having deep thoughts, whole day of deciding if i wanna go to dd's lunch with his parents and cousin. soon, someone screamed. they actually saw a worm, hanging from the tree, swaying away. it looks so goosebumps! hairy black worm. oh my god! in around 10min time, we having a run at the park. before we ran, my galfriends saw the worm, wiggling on the lady's shirt. omg. we told the lady and she panic. her husband help her to took it out and she say 'thanks!' haha. this is gross man. i hate worms and insects. running for almost 20min? i suppose. i was desperating looking for tissue paper, a plaster and a bottle of water. with my perserverance (oh crap), i tried to run to the finish point with all my might. hur. finally. i got a bottle of water, and i put on my plaster and . and. no tissue!?! nobody have it! medick and me went to take a cuppa milo at the truck. we decided to ask denna ong for tissue. oh. she had it. finally. my saviour. (i need it for my mucus in my nose ;p) walked back to join the class, they were playing with water(bottle caps pokes with holes). pink and i went to take 2 new bottles and spray at them. woo. this is nice. you can feel cool water tinkling down your neck when you're hot. does this gives me pleasure? yea it does! ;p playing away and we finally have the prize presentation. it finished at 11am. i called deedee that i not sure if i gonna go with him. he's angry with me. i not sure what to do. we ended the conversation. and he smsed me that he gonna seperate with me. cuz he don't like this kind of girl who doesn't likes to go out with the guy's parents.

and so. i had made this decision to go with him. *aww. i went back with melissa to her house. took a bath there and made my way down to his house(his house is just few units away) went to his house and ended up slept on his bed. tired. went out around 12pm+ we delle dally walked to the bus stop and the bus actually came! we 2 ran up and down from the overhead bridge and ran into the bus. *oww. my blister hurts. i forgot to put on a plaster which i took out earlier! panting away and walked up the bus. sit there till my butt rots.

we finally made it. suntec. went to sizzler and eat. and *burp. full. took too much ? around 2pm+ me and deedee went off first. went to buy a snoopy plaster at watson. walked to citylink mall and look around some shops. and my phone rings. my alarm of buying the pig frame. he asked what was that. i did not told him. and he told me he don't want a pig frame. ohh shats. what should i buy for him now? *sighs it's only a few days countdown to vday. o well. we went to funan it mall first before going orchard. went around some shops to find his ipod skin. ending up buying the $39 skin. medick called and said they going to far east later and ask us to look for them there.

we took a train to orchard. and gonna reach at far east. i ask deedee call medick. omg. lame. 'press 1 to tell us where are you' 'press 2 to tell us who are you' *zzz. dots we 2 laughing away cuz medick really pressed the number. went to the shop outside 'papaya' lol. deedee said he want banana. and 2 of us walk to shibuya, we lost the girls again. called medick. we met again. and lost them again?! *grrr. they wanna find the purple skirt. told ivy to try some skirt. so cute! they all went up at far east. deedee saw some skirt and kept asking 'nice?' 'nice?' i think he better be a girl. all girl wants he likes them. haha. we saw a printing clothes shop. that uncle at the shop is so funny! he said 'shhh. teacher talking' and told us alot of stuff. like. having a tour in his shop. they took a hard time thinking what we gonna design. and we went out of there and headed to DFS. *wee. my favourite shop. the girls were playing the perfumes. deedee asked the lady if theres FCUK perfume. but don't have! he said only at changi departure DFS. o well. went up the next level and go in some of the shops. went to LV first! ;D *uhhh. i think i know what to buy now. spent our day there. the girls were playing the mascara. *zzz. the burberry skirt. cost $700+ omg. crazy? i

ts around 7pm+. we seperate with the girls. they went back. dd and me sit at the hotel lobby. i called sis and she said she 9.30pm finish her shift. called mom that i going back at 9.30 with sis. yay. theres time for me to walk around with him. we went to wisma. topshop. and went to heeren after that. walk around. so bored. till 9.20pm+ we went to 7-11 at luck plaza to buy drink. accompany him to the bustop just opposite the 7-11. i kiss deedee goodbye and i rush back to taka and meet my sis.

went to the mrt station. it was crowded! waited for the second train and went back to YCK. i told mom about the worm and spider. mom was so disgusted with it. she saw a centipete walking on the floor. and i didnt notice. she screamed! as if she saw a ghost. it freaks me! my heart skipped 3times. ~ went home and so tired. chat online and went to sleep.


8th Feb 2004
in my dreams. i jolted awake after that. looking dreamy and blured. gonna switch on my computer and i saw something. the cotton wool is in a plastic bag. it made me recall my dream that i made it last night: i cant find the cotton wool in the drawer. cant find it anywhere. i didnt find it in the plastic bag. for my face. and went to used a tissue paper instead.

oh. what a dream. but it was. so true? i don't know whats happening to me. having such dreams and related to my realife. or was it my dream is my life and i was in my dream now? *uhh.

mom gave me a bowl or porridge. oh man. my throat hurts. having a sore throat. deedee smsed me this morning. he had a sorethroat too! lol. weird. was it the food we ate yesterday? mom said we going to grandma place. i think i going. got money! writing my blog for almost more than 40mins? it was long. the longest blog post ? *umm. have to do a singh compo for tomorrow due date. if not im in deep shit! okay. update tonight.

*love is like a lamp to brighten the heart-

` SHPX thinking deeply @1:49:00 PM

umm.

slack. thats what i could say to descibe myself for the day. pink has been absent from school quite often. we lied to singh that she's having an asthma attack. *uhhh. had our e maths loci test which i totally forgotten last night. well. nobody cares for it. i did it for. around 35 to 40 minutes? the rest of the time i just snooze off and head on to my vivid dreams. having a headache after i woke up and visions are blured. so. i head back to slumber. i cant remember wad i dreamt. everything turn chaos inside my head again! speaking of dreams, i dreamt of something stupid last night? about using the eraser and erase a bunch of things and the eraser broke. was it a dream? i can't remember! but it made me recall this when i was erasing my stuff. last few days i dreamt of few packets of bread at the bar counter in my old house. 4 packets. all had turned moldy. 1) due on year 2000 2) due on 2001 3) due on 2003 and 4) due on few days ago. and it made me recall this when my mom gave me a packet of bread with moisture in the plastic (which molds quickly).

and the day before, i dreamt of being late for my appointment with friends. we gonna play some games outside. and i wanna go back and top up some stuff in one of a shop. and out of the shop. i was like. back to my old house! i was late! i panic! took my mum's wallet and rush out of the house. it was raining cats and dogs. i ran in the rain. thinking if i take a bus to the station or a taxi. but taking the taxi is too expensive to reach my destination - bugis. i just dont really care what happen and suddenly, a taxi stop infront of me, a family come out of the vehicle. i went in and told the uncle to go ang mo kio station to take the train (cuz i wont have enough money when i reach bugis). reached there, the uncle said its $9.15 ( i still able to recall this very clearly) . i gave a $10 note and he asked me 'do you have 15 cents?' and i gave him the coin and he gave me the $1 change and sort of touch my hand. oh my. a tiko. i rush out of the taxi. and *poof! i woke up. uhh... kept dreaming that theres bunch of notes on my hand. is it fortune? i hope so.

oh. back to the incident that happened today. school end fast today - Thanks (Tang) God Its Friday! . went to TM toilet and change and wanting to go to interchange to go TP. i called dd and he said he had finished. so i waited for him in KFC at CPF building. he came and said KFC stuff is too expensive. we head to Bk and eat. and we went to buy ticket to the movie - torque . uhh. the show, not really nice i can say. cuz i not really interested or no interest on bikes at all. rated it 6.5/10 yea. came back home and it's raining.

and now. it makes me think of a dream. a dream that i cant remember. i was walking under a heavy pour rain. no one is on the street. could hear nothing but the sound of the water crashing onto the concrete floor. i was there. alone. it was so heavy that i couldn't see anything. *uhh. dreams. all these dreams making my mind worst! it kept on repeating inside. flash of scenes. totally stressed up. wanna break down. thinking that i am a solitary person. all alone in this world. no one cares about me. but no. im not alone. i still have my friends. but i just wanna desolate myself. i wont want anyone to interfere my life. except dd. all i wish is im in paradise. but that wouldn't happen. its unrealistic at all. fantasy. myths. legends. total crap. *sighs i don't know what should i write on to continue this. but there's alot of stuff for me to say. for the 16years. my sis says i have not stop talking. since i was out from my mom's womb. crying,yelling,complaining,yaking away,babbling,shouting away? since i was a small little kid. i was asking myself. why am i here? well. you can tell i'm a sadist person. emotional at all times. all i do in life was. Slumbering,Dreaming,Eat,Slack . Nothing useful. o well. i gotta go for a psychologist. brain turned wild. i couldnt tame it. umm.. some kind of animal i suppose. i'm a person who keep problems in the inside. which people seemed i'm happy and cheerful , having a happy-go-lucky life on the outside. but no. i don't really share my problems to anybody. include my family members. except my buddies. and please. dont underestimate me. im not stupid! (hey. im not that clever too!) . er, somehow i reacted some way which 'I-don't-Know' anything. but well. as i said. i keep all my stuff include knowledge inside me. i seldom take it out and use it. thats wad you call, Laziness. Hur. I can say i'm a selfish person. yea really. I AM. but somehow i wish i could change these attitude. pending .. . on the way. 15% i think? but i doubt i can be a very nice person. *sighs

o. yea. i remembered. tomorrow is saturday. my school's mass run. o shats. i hate it. run in the wild and hot sun? desperate for water. you could just jump into the reservior. but it totally stinks. it gaves a strench right into my nose. giving me goosebumps. imagine the people gave you a cuppa water. you not sure where does it come from. it's gross! i gonna meet my gal-friends in the morning. 6.45am? oh my. this is early. i hope i able to make it on time. yup. i think thats all for today. i don't have that much of brain juices to think of what to write.

*something that the senses cant feel the presence of it : Love can be only felt by the heart-

` SHPX thinking deeply @8:20:00 PM

sad. real sad.

well. currently feeling down cuz of some stuff. which i will talk about it later on in this blog. went to school as usual. although school sucks, but i just. (not long ago) find out that school is important? however, i pratically still kinda lazy. i can tell u, its darn lazy. living for 16years with slaves serving the lazy queen. why not slaves eat for the queen and shit for the queen? o well. don't even bother what gonna happen. i need someone to enlightment me. i really need a wake up call. umm. we having 4 periods of POA today. denna ong changed our seating plans and yang lun was sitting beside me. a really good teacher? able to do the current topic and able to balanced the blance sheet? lol. first time since last year after so much of lessons. omg. medic and mel was telling me that they also able to do it. we 3 are so enthusiastic about it? haha. that includes the e maths questions in the ten year series we done during the infocus. hmm. after school went to find dd under his block, he actually saw what willam addressed me. but. really. this is a misunderstanding. jealousy.hatred.disappointment.anger thats all i can see in his eyes. sighs. really dont know what to say to him. the bond of trust within us had broken. but hopefully not. i just feeling so heartbrokened. excruciating pain in my heart. like a needle penetrates deep inside. depression. thats what i can describe im suffering from. still perplexed of what i had done,said and think. *sighs . but just looking at my dog in the blog post. it really gives me a. a perseverance to me. to smile. to be strong. and to forget all the hard feelings that i suffered. after all these, i decided to change myself. im not sure how much i could change. *uhhh .o well. days in school in these weeks were real slack! always listening during lesson and fall into my dreamland. vision blured and seeing double? the eyelids seems to be too heavy to open. all sorts of dreams,words,speech,actions,people kept running through my head! its mess in there. brain juices started to form poison? brain cells start to breakdown. and soon, braindamage. this driving me nuts! totally cant stand the school life. it totally freaks me out. got swallowed by homeworks, extra lessons, infocus, books, or even the school itself i suppose. *sighs. been stoning infront of the computer since, 2001? blood clog in my veins. hur. gotta fall into a slumber soon. time is running out. its always the case. having my lesson, came back home, homework?, stoning, and no time for sleep! *grrr . my dreams been so weird these days. really came true for some. and most of them unrealistic. but it can happen. just. miracle. yep. hope things can be better. . i hope.

*people start to cherish their things after they lose it-

` SHPX thinking deeply @10:48:00 PM

TIRED. I can tell u its DAMN SEH

omg. ytd the medic... SO FUkIN sTrong till tis morning i fl0at!!!! fl0at till soul goneee. and i dunn0 wad am i doing! lucky chew nv come . i slept for 1hr! ;/ den after skool, have CCA. painted for the gers for the competition in NP. zzz. i wanted to bring it home and gib dd for vday pressie. but. AWWWW. CANNOT AH. idi0t. so nice le. lol. ;x nvm. i can do it m0re! ;D~ den went to POA test. Omg. all dunn0. me and medik copy here n there . askin jaren. LoLL. s0 cham ah. den go TM. See pink skirt n pants. so niceee. o ya. betty wanna go heeren tis sat for the MTV asia awards tix. . h0pe can win? ;/ . but dun think so ah. o well. we stiu have the.. mass run tis sat. wha ka0. 7.20am reach bedok reservior. siansssss.z kie. these r the pic i took juz n0w. my d0ggg. cute?? and the pic of me on that nite i talk to william wib webcam, i took it de =X ZI lIAn kuAng!!

` SHPX thinking deeply @8:45:00 PM

gastric pain

owww. drank too much water for my medick. and my stomach was bloated till GASTRIC PAIN. lol. kinda drowzy now. o well. today i didnt go to school again.. last nite i was having gastric problems and unable to sleep. watched many chinese shows @ channel 8. the last show i watched b4 i slept is. ULTRAMAN. lol. i think a movie lk dat. nice nice ;X went to sleep arnd... 3am? mom in the morning woke me up. i continue to sleep. and she's back in the room and i told her i gastric. and damn tired. didnt sleep much. den she say go see doc today. den i continue to sleep. arnd 10am+ sis and mum was back from SGH. sis wanna brace her teeth. but haven yet ah. den arnd 11am+ went out wif mom,sis and grandma. go pasir ris polyclinic. and it was like. OMG. so many ppl. the woman say muz wait till 1.45pm. zzzzzz. we waited like sia0. went to the malay cafe beside the clinic. ate mee soto. and drank milk. den wait till 1pm. me and sis went to the central there. look arnd lor. buy stuff. the cake shop we past by gt SMELLY SHOE SMELL. SO ER XIN. LOL. den wanna go off that time. i saw 1 man with the whole outfit of monkey god! !!!!~ so scary lk dat.. the indian woman infront of me (i was que-ing @ 1 of the shop, buying tutu kuey) was shocked and eyes was lk dat: O.O~! hahaha! den que so long. mom called. say gonna our turn le. den ending up nv buy. go back polyclinic. den saw 3 yanda0..! sHy again =x den they stare @ mE! =X den go c0r grandma and mom back to the que. finally can go in. went to see the doc. b4 that. that 3guys@!!~!!~ LOL. same lvl as us.. they lk. so cuteee =x den go pay that time. they oso there!!!! =XXX~ wow. my medick. gt 5types! eat till sia0 ah!.. zzzzz finish le. dad came to fetch us. go home. i go bath. bath le go KK hospital. den mom went for the ultrasound scan.. den me and sis went to the vending machine for titbits and drinks. we 2 lk so sua ku.. nv see food b4 lk dat. LOL. =X den saw 1 'robot' move by itself. sort of collecting 'containers' for files. it able to know where is the big trolley of files! me and sis look @ it. its lk nobody control it able to know and where to turn and stop.. den push the whole trolley to another trolley and move.. omg. so hi tech. so sua ku sia =X.. den we 2 was like 'WH0a?' ppl r staring @ it too. LoL! den mom went to collect medick @ pharmacy thr. me and sis trying out stuff. and see every single thing they sell. LOL. and i nv noe that pharmacy is so interesting.. we look @ baby stuff. so cute!!!.~ esp the small shoes and socks. loLLL. finish le. go back car park.. den going back h0me... on the way back halfway. i saw 1 long brown 'thing' on a tree trunk. den it moved. and i realised its a Squirrel!!! my sis and me shouted 'Squirrel!' @ the same time. LOL. so cuteee. ;P make me think of the sony ericsson ad. heh. den went back home. i realised that i asked pink and medick for hmwk.. NO ONE REPLIED. NO ONE CARED BOUT ME LE. LOL. ;x.. den i went to sms mark. he say 'HAha. @ least i care for u ma'' zzzzz..... o well. yup. ate my dinner and played with coco. ate medick and n0w. im sleepyyyy.................

` SHPX thinking deeply @7:59:00 PM

stiu nt feeling good

ummm.. Yup. Its Monday. And it's a school holiday! Can't believe that today is the second of feb. Time really flies! It was like. Having christmas and new year countdown not long ago. And it's already feb of 2004?! oh my gosh... It seems like yesterday. speaking of this. the WKRZ is playing Rimini Project. I remember you like yesterday.. not a bad song. Okay. Back to the point. I woke up at 10am+ Surprised? So early! Sis was preping for her work and switched on the computer and it was like. NOISY? that woke me up and disturb me the whole morning. I decided to wake up and do my work. Yep. Finally. My work is done. No more probs in sch ? Haha! Free! Woke up and ate the beef beehoon that dad cooked. I just ate a lil'spoonful and leave it aside. No appitite.. Sighs. My throat still hurts! Cat was sick too! Same illness as me! No wonder its Like Owner Like Cat. (laughs out loud)! I was talking to william online in the noon. Mom told me to go her friend's house for house visiting. So i prep and went out at 2.15pm. I got $10 at that house! Hah! Better than nothing. ;D Went back to my house downstairs to wait for dad to come down from the house. He drove to.. I not sure where is that place? Find his frien, Steven for the cream for my relative and the MOP (LoL) to let my mom see. Cause he wanna sell it in Singapore. The product is bought in china. Yup. Wanna invest with it. Heh! Went to take pictures @ dad's phone. The camera is so clear under sunlight! woo! I sent several pictures to my phone. And it's like. few of them i sent many times and it doesn't sent over to my phone? My phone doesn't recieve it at all! Grrrr. O well.. Maybe it's slow. Yea.. Went to the geylang (relative house - a very old house bought by my grandpa's brothers. shared among themselves. Its history! I think it that land there can cost about.. 3million Bucks! Woo!) And one of the relative (su po - i not sure how to spell? heh) she normally gives me hongbao the past few years about $4? And today i went to open it in the car, i was SHOCKED! A $10 Note! One for me and one for my sister. Hmmm... Dad was saying that we are big now. Need to use more money. haha! Maybe.. We went to the Seng Siong Supermarket at don't know where?? I saw 1 guy. Working there, with yellow boots. I think cutting those fishes or somthing.. He's Handsome I can tell you! (You know? those u see in TV, jap guy.. Not too big or small eyes. Shiny Eyes. And thick red lips.. EEEK HES CUTE! too handsome till dare not to see him! =X) Yea! and went off after that.. Dad asked me if i want to take a trip at Serangoon Garden. He showed me around there. Wow. Alot of things changed. Too long didn't go there.. I saw one of the private house. It was like. WOW. Nice! Totally Glassed. Went back home after that and came back online.. Yup.. total 20 bucks for today. not bad? dad said if i didn't come out today i lost my $. and he said 'it's worth it man!' Haha! By the way. MY DAD WORE BABYPINK SHIRT. HAHA! I was saying that he want to 'Act Young' LOL! He said 'Ya what.. Old already wear dull clothes make u even more old.. Now this color is trendy..' LOL. Peng!

《 私は愛する,でえでえ！》- 【 敬具、 永遠まで~！】

` SHPX thinking deeply @8:15:00 PM

sickerrr

Well, what i said on the saturday was true? I told pink that i unable to go common test cause I'm darn tired. And tell the teacher I'm sick. Omg! It came true? it got worsen! i woke up @ 2pm+ totally blurtrified. My head was in a mess by my dreams and sleep too much! Headache throughout the day and having flu. I went to look at myself in the mirror. 'OMFG. WHATS THIS UNDER MY NOSE?' eeeek. the pimple had grown. Oh. 10min ago i was sqeezing it out. much better. I hope i goes off by tomorrow? Mom was saying 'Squeeze harder! Let the blood come out!' I was there 'Eaahhhhh... Owwwwww... Ahhhhh!!!' moaning away. Painful! lol! Does this gives me pleasure? Hurhur. Well no? =) Ate the beehoon that my dad cook. Nice! Decided to do my school work and ending up too lazy. No mood and weak to do. Wanted to go and take a nap but mum came in and said she wanna change the bed sheet. eeek. O well~ Early in the morning i talked to my ah kor (william) online. yea. 1)Sick 2)Ghost Stories 3)Porn 4)Sex? Oh My gosh. This getting worst. Haha! Stayed At home or i can say, BED, the whole day.! Planning to sleep at home the whole day tomorrow and finish up my assignments. Uhhh...~ School sucks. Don't feel like going on the tuesday. But o well. See first? See how my condition goes. Anyway, i read the past few post i wrote. I felt. That i'm childish?! Hurhurhur.. I got matured? Weee. Hope so. Bcuz i felt the way i am was totally.. Kid! I gotta get MORE LIFE. The way what bernard di talked. I was totally pissed off. IGNTS*! =/ O well. See how my day goes. Update if anything to say? Getting more 'Lor Sor' Already! Awww. Sad. Does that Gives Me Pleasure? Heh. My Favourite Phrase . that included Medick! xD~

*IGNTS = I got nothing to say [6:08PM]

Oh. eeek. my fever haven subsides. in the evening it got 37.7 and how 38! omg. yea. me and william was talking away till now! really didnt do anything juz webcam with him. heh! eeek. o well. hope i recover soon. sighs...

` SHPX thinking deeply @10:44:00 PM

Currently Feeling* sicks

argh. sick again. havin flu, fever (juz now), sore throat. headache. weak. phlegm. eek. =( life sarks. o well. after eaten an egg i felt better. dunn0 y.. ;D.. o well. juz n0w sleep again after the last post. and woke up @ 7pm. went to greet my aunt and she gave hongbao of $8! yay! ;x better than nth rite. mum ask me to bath n go for the ssa meeting but we ended up nv there. she say 'we go see chingay' very softly and i say 'REally ah?' den she say 'shhhhh. dun let dad n0e. ' LOL. so bad. ;/~ mum drove to the car park. th0se private apartments opp. crown prince..1st thing 'WOO. so many ppl' wow. well. didnt really see anything. cant see!!! only i can remember is the. ppl from japan. beating drums. ppl juggling.. the monkey on stilts. the last finale.. the paper fly here n there. 'rocket' sounds. the loud noice and the fire??.. and saw mr president n the ppl surround him after everything. people were so happy. screaming and dancing along. esp th0se PA people wh0 worked so hard for tis programme. yea.! a great success! no rain today yea? ssa members must have chanted alot for great victory and good weather for today performance. yea... =)~ woo. saw many yandaos wh0 went orchard.~ *blushed* after everything. walk outside paragon and wait f0r sis to come and fetch her back home. i was feelin unwell after that. awwww... o well.. gotta sleep soon. ate 2 panadols. sighs..guess wad? i almost sleep 20hrs yesterday! LOL. really a pig. =/..~ o yea. i recalled that ssa gotta have a YCF perforance next year. 2005?. yup. every four years. i remembered i join on 2001. =D~ really a nice one. met lots of frens but i didnt contact them after that. awww.. yea. i think i gotta go join YCF, Chingay and NDP @ 2005. if they accept my age grp. =)~ shld be can bah.. heh! and thanks to willam that sent me the song i want. the album. if nt i unable to get it! argh. lol~ i still wanna find the song Stuck On You. Dj Cosmo edit. which i heard it over the radio.. when i was sleeping. and dunno why i wake up when the song was played ~ a really nice remix! anyone haves it can give me a message kie?. thanks!

` SHPX thinking deeply @1:03:00 AM