** Monday, September 06, 2004 __
Currently Feeling*
butt hurts.
Whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa. I don't know what else should I post actually. My favourate phrase now is 'NONSENSE!' Yea. I'm weird actually. All because of yesterday's comp. incident, I started to use that word.
I'm SO HONOURED! HEHE!
(._. ) ( ._.) ('-' ) ( '-') (-_-) says:
hmm i have 4-5 mei before
(._. ) ( ._.) ('-' ) ( '-') (-_-) says:
u are the best
Awwww. I just don't know why. The day I first know him in IRC, we just click. And it's already 4 years.. Time flies.. I really missed those days. Those sec 1-2 times.. Sigh.. Geesh. I'm getting emotional now.
I felt the heavy feeling in my heart again. I'm still confused. I know that I just don't know. He told me that he wanted to get out of this triangle love. I know what he meant by that. He wanted a FF r/s than a LL r/s now. And I need to help him maintain it. After that. Somehow, somewhat.. I have nothing to say to him anymore. It's hard for me to think that he's a normal friend. I'm sort of confused of what am I thinking now. I don't know what is he thinking about. It hurts me. But I mustn't felt this way. I suck. I can't even control my feelings. And I don't even know what I want. Am I just cheating myself? Or cheating others?! I tried to talk to him via sms. He doesn't seemed to be.. reacting what i said? I don't know. I'm lost. Lost soul..
[[ And She will be loved. ]]
*WKRZ radio playing Web - Mornings*
Why? Why it has to play it now? It always the case when you're talking bout something sad, the song which reminded you of that will play somewhere on tv.. radio.. etc.
Sigh. I felt like going to the beach and shout it out. I want to see him. No No. I can't. What am I thinking about? Oh my god. *take in deep breath*
Ok. I downloaded Dou Yu OST. I wanted to get that Bu Gong Ping or Breathe Again midi. I couldn't find it. Shucks.
It's been 5hours. I haven't have a message from him yet. Should I take the initiative first? Or wait? I think I'll wait. Argh. So indecisive. Darn it.
[[ Believe me. ]]
Just now I went to Ivy's blog. I was shocked. PORNY STARRY. Haha. What nonense is that. Blahh. I wanted change the layout soon but I don't have the time to do it! Man. Oh well. Wednesday we are having our CIP at Pasir Ris Park. Hope everything goes smoothly. I'm going somewhere. I don't know. Maybe isolate myself....
Oh well.... I miss you badly.
Whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa. I don't know what else should I post actually. My favourate phrase now is 'NONSENSE!' Yea. I'm weird actually. All because of yesterday's comp. incident, I started to use that word.
I'm SO HONOURED! HEHE!
(._. ) ( ._.) ('-' ) ( '-') (-_-) says:
hmm i have 4-5 mei before
(._. ) ( ._.) ('-' ) ( '-') (-_-) says:
u are the best
Awwww. I just don't know why. The day I first know him in IRC, we just click. And it's already 4 years.. Time flies.. I really missed those days. Those sec 1-2 times.. Sigh.. Geesh. I'm getting emotional now.
I felt the heavy feeling in my heart again. I'm still confused. I know that I just don't know. He told me that he wanted to get out of this triangle love. I know what he meant by that. He wanted a FF r/s than a LL r/s now. And I need to help him maintain it. After that. Somehow, somewhat.. I have nothing to say to him anymore. It's hard for me to think that he's a normal friend. I'm sort of confused of what am I thinking now. I don't know what is he thinking about. It hurts me. But I mustn't felt this way. I suck. I can't even control my feelings. And I don't even know what I want. Am I just cheating myself? Or cheating others?! I tried to talk to him via sms. He doesn't seemed to be.. reacting what i said? I don't know. I'm lost. Lost soul..
[[ And She will be loved. ]]
*WKRZ radio playing Web - Mornings*
Why? Why it has to play it now? It always the case when you're talking bout something sad, the song which reminded you of that will play somewhere on tv.. radio.. etc.
Sigh. I felt like going to the beach and shout it out. I want to see him. No No. I can't. What am I thinking about? Oh my god. *take in deep breath*
Ok. I downloaded Dou Yu OST. I wanted to get that Bu Gong Ping or Breathe Again midi. I couldn't find it. Shucks.
It's been 5hours. I haven't have a message from him yet. Should I take the initiative first? Or wait? I think I'll wait. Argh. So indecisive. Darn it.
[[ Believe me. ]]
Just now I went to Ivy's blog. I was shocked. PORNY STARRY. Haha. What nonense is that. Blahh. I wanted change the layout soon but I don't have the time to do it! Man. Oh well. Wednesday we are having our CIP at Pasir Ris Park. Hope everything goes smoothly. I'm going somewhere. I don't know. Maybe isolate myself....
Oh well.... I miss you badly.